Discipleship begins with the individual who has lived through the absolutely necessary stage of 'riotous living, realised it is not the way to go, and decides to get up and head home to his Father's Home...his Source.
He has lived life in the fast lane, his focuss being almost 100% on the acquisition of the material, with a little religion thrown in just in case there is existence after the transition called death.
He has suffered from it and eventually revolted from everything in the Rat Race called Capitalism. He becomes dissatisfied, disgusted, and finds his old life distasteful. He has had all of it he can stand.
For what is a disciple? A disciple is someone who seek a new rhythm, to enter a new field of experience. What he once fancied so desirable and necessary for happiness no longer satisfy him. He is in a transition between the old and new states of being. He is vibrating between a condition of soul and form awareness. He is seeing double.
His spiritual perception grows slowly and surely as the brain become capable of illumination from the soul via the mind. As his Christ within grows, his radius of awareness grows and new fields of knowledge unfold.
The would-be disciple , through this process, becomes aware of his lower nature and begins to realise the extent of his imprisonment in it. The hindrances to achievement and the obstacles to progress are revealed to him and his problem becomes specific. He finds he is confronted by enemies of his own creation.
As perseveres and struggles, surmounts his problems and brings his desires and thoughts under control, the second field of knowledge is revealed, knowledge of the self in the spiritual body, knowledge of the human soul as it expresses itself through the medium of the threefold instrument and awareness of the source of spiritual energy , which is the motivating impulse behind the lower manifestation. Every step of the way has to be carved out by man himself, and there is no short or easy road out of darkness into light.
(a paraphrase of excerpts from a book by a Tibetan Master)
Christ is the "NEW ENERGY" to help you understand energy better: Christ RE-DEFINES reality for us
when CHRISTIANS study the Bible they BELIEVE in a new creation but they haven't experienced it yet to the DEEPEST level of their soul, giving them a whole new reality
if they do KNOW CHRIST that deeply, then they understand all things that happen within them and they don't need any book to tell them anything anymore
however, when you no longer need the books you don't fight against them anymore
instead you try to help others grasp them from an INNER VIEW or in your case, an esoteric view
but your view is not esoteric dear Striver....the words you use seem to define esoteric meanings but your view is struggling to change....
you got the disillusionment right: You no longer look at things the way you did when you were in religion but this isn't esoteric
this is DECONSTRUCTION of the exoteric
when you have deconstructed everything you will find that HUMPTY DUMPTY needs to be put back together again
then you will UNDERSTAND esoteric meaning in the Bible:
it doesn't just take things apart, and leave them on the ground for others to see as useless
it is able to PUT THEM TOGETHER in the right way.....even if nobody else gets the NEW PICTURE you see when the puzzle is fixed: