"I just flat out don't thin that's true," he admitted. "But now that I know that that's how you feel...I won't let it happen again."
He felt drained all of a sudden. This was trying, and yes, Cassie was high maintenance...very high maintenance, and sometimes that was a lot for him to deal with, especially right now, when he felt that he was on the chopping block for something that wasn't really his fault. He didn't think that he had done anything wrong, but she was fragile in a lot of ways - she didn't have the rough edges that he did, she didn't have anything in her life that had in any way built toughness, and that wasn't her fault.
It was frustrating, yes, but ultimately, not her fault.
"I'm not..."[/]b he sighed. "Cassie, I'm really, really sorry that you're hurt, but sometimes in life, you just...have to deal with things that you don't want to hear. I didn't bring it up, and if Matty hadn't said anything, I probably wouldn't have. There's no reason to hurt you, but once it was out, I wasn't going to lie to you, and honestly, Cass, I haven't lied to you. I've been painfully honest with you, but..." he sighed. "I love the way you look in the morning with no makeup, before you've done your hair, I think you're cute as fuck when you haven't put your look together all the way, it drives me INSANE how sexy you are when you're being smart...and I'm not going to demean those truths by lying to you about something like this...or anything at all." He bit his lip. "and I really, really hope that this doesn't mean you're lying to me about things."
Because...yeah, that was a worry.
"I'll keep my mouth shut sometimes, you know, the whole "if there isn't something nice to say about it, don't say anything" sort of thing, but Cass...I'm never going to lie to you. I get that there are a lot of lies in the world that you're from, but...that's just not me." He shrugged. "And I won't apologize for that. I want the truths that I tell to make you feel good, and if you know I"m full of shit half the time...well, those truths? They'll stop making you feel good, Cassie, and soon, nothing I say would be able to, and we'd fall apart." He took a deep breath, reaching up, raking a hand through his hair. "I don't want that."
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