Jimmy hadnt been paying attention. There was noise at the side of the cabin, another kid interrupting the party, a potential threat. He raised his shotgun in the direction, fully prepared to kill, if only to distract himself from his thoughts. He hadnt noticed Annaliese Hansen immediately. She was just another girl, not his concern. His concern was for him and him alone
Well, him and Rosa. There were bastards and not much else at Bayview, and Jimmy was sure she was another bitchy girl, whod have squealed at any advances, at any attempt at communication with him.
He hadnt been paying attention to Annaliese. But now, he most definitely was.
He wasnt sure what it was. The fury, the stone cold anger maybe. It reminded him of that beach, so far away, covered in the blood of another
In any case, it cut through him like a knife. Jimmy snapped his head around as Annaliese appeared in the doorway, his eyes wide with shock.
What the fuck did you say to me? He rasped, looking the girl up and down.
No one talked to him like that. He was Jimmy fucking Brennan. He was the only thing worth a damn at Bayview, and he no one was allowed to talk to him like that, not ever again. Phil had tried, and all it had gotten him was a dirt nap. Jimmy raised the shotgun up, pointing it at the girls chest.
But this was different, somehow this was different. He was shaking he realized, and the gun was raised not out of hate or anger, but fear.
Jimmy, what the fuck is wrong with you? Rock and fucking roll, blow her brains out! Teach her that no- Im not scared of a girl, no see, Im John fucking Wayne, Im the fucking hero- Im the winner
She cant psyche me out, I havent done anything, no, no Im not scared of a girl, I can prove it, because I dont take shit-
Do you know wh-
She cut him off, exploding at him, wildly gesturing at his gun. Jimmy couldnt help but jump back, his mouth open with astonishment.
You disgusting degenerate piece of shit!
What was happening? What did he feel, deep in his gut? It wasnt the same as Phil; it wasnt the same as J.J. This was different. This was
All I want is-
You shut your goddamn fucking worthless crybaby mouth, you limp dicked motherfucker!
Kill her- Ive gotta- she- Gotta shut her up before- before what?
How fucking DARE you!
I havent done anything!
Youre a big fucking man while you hold a gun, Jimmy."
I I He stammered, his heart pounding in his chest. It was all wrong. This wasnt supposed to happen
HE was the good guy. He just wanted a place to stay, that was all. He hadnt even shot anyone yet. Every word hit him harder than the last, and Jimmy began to panic. He could feel his face heating up, embarrassment. Rosa was watching all of this, as was the rest of the world, the great hero of Survival of the Fittest, getting trashed by a wimpy girl.
Im not lik- He murmured, but Annaliese didnt let him finish.
"And you may look like the shit to anybody who doesnt know you, but we all know you for what you really are, Jimmy. We know you!
That, more than anything else, chilled his blood. Jimmy sputtered his eyes obscenely wide, his thoughts racing.
He had gotten it wrong. What the hell was he doing?
He had tried his best, and J.J had still beaten him. Hed tossed him about like a rag doll, humiliated him, just like old times.
I- We- I was just-
There was always someone stronger, even now. And no amount of bravado would change it. J.J had beaten him with his fists, and now Annaliese had beaten him down with her words. Jimmy just couldnt win. Back home, a million viewers were still laughing at him, because he was in the wrong.
He was wrong. He
had been wrong. How was that possible? God was on his side. Hed beaten Phil, because he had been right. Hed been rewarded for it, because he deserved it. Hed won the girl, defeated the jock- Where had he gone wrong?
And what were the consequences?
Tears fell down his face, and for the first time since the beach, Jimmy had no idea what to do. He looked at the girl in shock, trembling at her words. Everyone had heard her. He couldnt block it out.
This isnt possible. This- no, this isnt real!
He raised the shotgun again, pointing it square at her chest.
SHUT UP! ITS NOT LIKE THAT! He screamed in terror. SHUT UP!
Killing the girl wouldnt make it stop. But itd hold it back, for the time being.
--> "Chicks dig scars? Yeah, I'm calling bullshit." --> Cicada Nights
Mikko "Mike" Korhonen
--> "Interesting, very interesting!" --> A Casual Question
V4 / Mini's
- [+] Spoiler
Jay Holland > "If I just smile, I guess they'll think it's all okay." ESCAPED
Jimmy Brennan > H&K CAWS (12 gauge) > "Step through that door and underestimate me, just like all the rest!" > PLACED: 22 / 276
Roland Harte > Kris > " This is, for all intents and purposes, my war now." > PLACED: 150 / 276
Orn "Dutchy" Ayers > Harpoon > "I fell in a puddle..." > PLACED: 98 / 276
Abby Erickson > Claw Hammer > "I get tired easy, so maybe the big sleep would be good for me." PLACED: 27 / 53
Brett Torres > Raven Arms MP-25 (.25) [x4 clips (6 round capacity)] 17/24 /// Stoner 63 (5.56x45mm) [(150 rounds per Drum)] 300/300 > "Bloodthirsty little bunch, ain't we?"
Jonas Jeffries > PINK TEAM > MAC-10 [x8 clips (30 Round Capacity)] 30/30 > " 'ow doo I make the muggafuggin' kh-chg noibs?!" PLACED: 31 / 66
wrote:"My dick did the Mexican Hat Dance and I had to suppress the moan that wanted to escape." - Casey
NOTE TO SELF: Burns on the left side. LEFT SIDE.