Mira was crying. When did she start crying? She wasn't crying before. Ami made her cry.
Any sort of assertive energy left Ami, a mass exodus of spine and willpower. She said she was done. But seeing Mirabella like that, it...
"F-" Something caught in Ami's throat. She didn't know what it was but it felt like a pin needle when she swallowed it back. "Fuck.
Ami only noticed Mira's expression when Garrett turned to leave. At that moment, she had glanced at Mira with only the vaguest notion of interest, but that all changed when she saw Mira's eyes. Her immediate reaction to seeing Mirabella on the verge of tears was to scream for her to stop, just stop. The guilt came just as quickly, overpoweringly so. Ami did not understand the full extent of the pain she felt but it was horrible. It made her feel hollow, like a hammer striking the Liberty Bell, cracking the copper and tin and forming an ugly scar.
Seeing Mira made Ami want to rewind time, not just minutes earlier but when they first met in order to redo every last thing she had ever said to her. In hindsight, she wanted to apologize, but that was hindsight again. What really happened was that Mirabella mumbled something and followed after Garrett. Ami didn't apologize, whether it was her waning pride holding her back or simple shock. Ami turned her head to watch Mira leave.
Then she was alone, again.
Her breath came and went in short bursts. The tears were back, hot and disgusting. She looked at Mallory's corpse, crumpled up on the floor like a ragdoll. What was left of her friends, after Ruby decided to ditch her? Ruby and her, they weren't even friends! The chances of her running into someone like Maynard was so low. But when she runs into Mira...
What was happening to her?
Ami did not stop to think, there was no time for that. She reached down to pick up her gun, her bag, securing the tied up scalpel in her pocket. She was still mad but the anger was blind and so was she, blind and utterly stupid. Barely registering Matt and Finn, both of whom she insulted just as badly, or the pouring rain outside that threatened even worse things, Ami turned on her heel, stepped over Mallory, and walked right out the door.
Part of her prayed that Mira and Garrett had not disappeared, like Ruby. She prayed for a lot of things.
(Ami Flynn continued in All Battles Are Fought By Scared Men Who'd Rather Be Some Place Else.