Lily had never hated silence more than in this moment, with tears streaming down her face and Dougie standing there running a hand over his head, not saying a word.
She knew that words were not one of Dougie's strengths. In some ways, that was a good thing. So many people she knew would blurt out the first thing that came to mind without thinking, and then later have to deal with the consequences. One of the things she liked about Dougie was that he thought before he spoke, even if that meant speaking less than most people.
His silence in that moment hurt her because she knew that if he was going to change what he was doing he would have said something. His silence meant that he wasn't giving up, that he was still going to protect her. What scared her the most was that she wanted him to.
As much as she hated herself for it, when Vahka had threatened her she'd been glad that he was standing between them, ready to defend her with that stupid pink bat. As selfish and cowardly as it was, she'd been relieved that someone else had been between her and Vahka, even though that someone was Dougie.
She tried to reason that since Dougie was bigger than her, stronger than her, he would have stood a better chance against Vahka, that because they were on the same team Vahka would have been more reluctant to hurt him than Lily.
The truth was that in that moment, when her life was actually threatened, she would have taken anything that kept her from dying, even Dougie's sacrifice.
She was so caught up in her own thoughts that she didn't hear the boy approach them until he spoke. Lily jumped and looked around, feeling a jolt of fear when she saw him. He was large, almost as big as Dougie and Vahka, and was holding a bizarre weapon that she'd never seen before. She had no idea what it did or if it worked at range, but he was definitely threatening them with it. She'd never felt so small. She had a sudden mental image of miniscule Alice swimming in her own tears, trying to reach the golden key. Lily hastily wiped her face.
She looked up at Dougie as he told the boy that Vahka was responsible for the body on the ground. She hesitated for a moment, eyes flickering between him and the new boy, before she shakily walked in front of him, staying so close that her fingers brushed his leg as she moved past.
“Stay—stay back,” she said, looking at the new boy. She meant it as a threat, but to her it sounded more like a plea.
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