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Name: Kyle
Author: KyleKamei
Rating: PG-13
Genre: General/Romance
Chapters: 8
Words: 8965
Published: 9/23/01
Updated: 10/10/01
Complete: Yes
Description: Done! There is some Yaoi (Jam/Slash). Anyway, um there is a little bit of swearing but trust me you hear worse at school. Anyway Slash and Linda are having a baby
Disclaimer (By Author): I do not own these characters and I am not making any money of this story. You will have
to give credit where credit is due and that means if you like the characters tell the guys who had created
snowboard kids.
Story
Chapter 1: Prologue
The room I was in was boring. The walls were a light green color, so light in fact one could hardly tell the
actual color of them. The floor and ceiling were both white and the bed I was sitting on was white, with
white sheets, a white pillow and that white paper that doctors used to keep the bed clean. It was your basic
exam room.
My mom had dragged me to the doctor because I had been sick for a while. The doctor had done
what any doctor does, he asked questions and checked every part of my body that may be affected. He even
went as far as to draw blood from me. All this and I new exactly what he was going to tell me. He was
going to tell me exactly what I had figured out two weeks prior. My mom doesn’t know about any of it,
however, even though eventually I would have to tell everyone. My mom at the moment was sitting in the
waiting room doing just that, waiting. I refused to let her come with me because she really didn’t need to
find out about this any way other than my own mouth.
The doctor came into the room with one of those looks on his face. He sat down in an empty chair
not to far from the bed I was sitting on. He put his clipboard in his lap and rested his hands on it.
“Let me guess, you know exactly what is wrong with you don’t you” the doctor looked me straight
in the eye. I nodded, like I said I knew exactly what was going on.
“Then tell me Linda, what do you think the diagnosis is.” He leaned back in the chair and look at
me expectantly. I looked down at my hands.
“I’m pregnant aren’t I” I said quietly. I looked up at him through my bangs. He nodded. He had
been my doctor for fourteen years, that’s my whole life, I new he was disappointed with me. I bit my lip
trying to hold back my tears, I didn’t like it when people weren’t happy with me. My doctor came and sat
beside me on the bed, he handed me a tissue and put his arm around my shoulders.
“You do know who the father is I hope,” I nod, “good. Now I just hope your planing on telling
him about this. When you finally tell you parents about this I want you to come back so we can talk about
your options, I do want you parents to know about this though. It will be easier on everyone that way. And
remember the longer you wait the less of a choice your going to have.” I nod again., “Alright then. Now if
you’ll excuse me I have a nasty case of chicken pox next door.” I smile and follow him out of the room, I
head into the waiting room where my mom was.
“What did he say?” she stands up, she looks worried.
“I’ll tell you when we get home.” I say and lead the way to the door.
Chapter 2: Finding Out
I was sitting alone under an old tree at the bottom of the bunny slope, I was waiting for Linda. We had been dating for the past 6 months and when you're 14 like we were then you are pretty certin you're in love. At least I was anyway. I was waiting because she called me up and told me she had something really important to tell me. She said than it was something that I needed to know and that eventually I would end up finding out and it was best that I heard it from her. To tell the truth I was half afraid she was going to tell me that she was cheating on me or something. So anyway, here I was seated under the old tree freezing cold waiting for my girlfriend. She more or less ploped down beside and spooked me a little since I hadn't heard her come up.
"Hey, Slash." She smiles at me, it was one of those smiles that is trying to say 'everything is fine' but really says 'something is really not ok'.
"So....you wanted to tell me something?" I rest my elbow on my knee and my head on my hand and look at her. She looks down and fiddles with her nails, she is obviously nervous.
"Uh, yeah, um we have a little bit of a problem...." she trails off and bites her lip.
"What kind of a problem?" Now I was even more worried. She looks away.
"Um.....I'm pregnant." she holds her breath, waiting for my response. I would never have though that just two words could make me feel as if someone had physically punched me in the stomach.
"Yo..your pregnant?" I didn't even notice my old stutter reaturning, it was probably a normal reaction though. I was shocked, I mean we had only done it once. And frankly I though a girl had to be like 15 or 16 befor she even got her period (Shows how much my parents care about my sex education). She turned her face to me, she was biting her lip again, I could see tears in her eyes. I realized she was probably scared out of her mind about this. I did the first thing that came to mind, I huged her. She rapped her arms around my waist and just started to cry. I sat there holding her and staring off into nothing. I couldn't think of anything to say that would make her feel any better and I really didn't even know what to think. Her words just kept repeating themselvs in my head, over and over. Finally she pulled back.
"My parents said they'll give you two weeks befor they say anything to your parents." Well at least I get to tell them my self, I can just imagin how my dad is going to react. He'll probably hurt me somehow.
"Um, I...I guess I'm go...gonna halfta t...te..tell 'em" Now I realized it was back. Linda nodded. I looked down at the ground beside me and started digging a hole with my fingure. I looked at her again, the look on her face told me she wan't going to really start to feel better untill I said something usefull. I said the first thing that came to mind.
"It's gonna be ok, we'll get through this. 'Sides if we don't we can say our parents didn't love us enough." My feeble attempt at a joke issued a small smile from her.
"I should get going, it's almost dinner." I nod, she stands up and leaves. I sit there for about another half an hour befor heading home.
***
When I got home I went up to my room and layed on my bed for about an hour befor deciding it was time to break the news to my parents of there up coming gandparent status. When I did get down stairs, both my parents where seated in the living room. My dad was reading a magazine and my mom was sewing (Okay! can we say 'half a centery ago'?). I entered the room and sat down in the love seat. Neither of my parents paid any attention to me so I cleared my throught. My mom looked up.
"Yes, Slash?" I suddenly felt like running. I swallowed.
"Um, I...I n...ne..need to te...tell you gu...guy's someth...thing" Both my mom and dad put down what they were doing, I guess the sound of me stuttering for the first time in like ten years worried them or something.
"What is it sweety?" My mom took on even more of a motherly demeaner now. I tried to take a deep breath and swallow at the same time, It didn't work to well. I finally managed the deep breath.
"L...Lin...Linda's, um, we...well sh...she's p...pr...pregnant." I finally managed. Both my parents were quiet for way too long, Finally my dad stood.
"Jesus Christ, what do you mean she's pregnant?" I swollowed hard, the way he was glaring at me was scary.
"Sh..sh..she's go...gon..gonna ha..have a b....bab...baby" I shrank back into the love seat. My dad was pacing and talking , well it was more like yelling.
"How the hell could you be so stupid?" He stopped in front of me. My mom stood up and started talking to him softly, I took this chance to run. I left the house and just kept going. I didn't even take my snowboard.
***
I ran into Jam at the begining of the mountain road, the road that leads into to the next town. Of course when I say ran into him, I mean that....Literally! Picking myself up from the ground I didn't even let him help me up.
"Jeez, where's the fire?" He gave me and odd look, I knew that he was going to start asking questions.
"Nothing," was my only answer, I headed back the way I came and took another turn I found my self on Rookie Mountain, I headed down and took a turn off that I had never travelled befor, it was an old over grown path. I hadn't been walking to long when I came to a ledge, there was snow not to far down but I didn't dare go further. Number one rule when on a snowy mountain, never step anywhere unless your sure there's solid ground where you stepping. I sat instead. To my anoyance Jam showed up not even five minutes later. He sat down beside me and didn't say a word. Somehow just him being there relaxed me. I sighed and put my face in my hands. Jam still didn't say anything. I was thankful that he knew me well enough to know when not to talk. We just sat in silence for a while. Finally I spoke.
"I wish life was easier." He looked at me.
"It's not so bad if you have people to help you through the though times." I shake my head.
"I'd tell you if I though you could help, that and I'm not the only one involved either." He shrugged.
"I didn't say I had to know what was happening, just letting you know I'm here." I look at him and smile. His watch beeps.
"Uh, it's almost nine," I grone.
"I guess that means we gotta head home." He nods, I stand up and survey the area. "I'm guessing out is that way." I point to the small path.
"I guess so," He agrees. We get to the main road and both head home. I stand outside my front door for a few moments befor heading in. I head straight to my room and go to bed.
Chapter 3: Li'l baby Jojo
It's been one and a half months since Linda told me the news, and fankly I am still having a hard time actally believing it. We had talked and decided that we should tell our friends as soon as possible. It was decided that I would deal with the boys and she would deal with the girls. Thus I was waiting for Jam, I had alread broke the new to Tommy, he was surprised to say the least. He's one of those guys who have made a vow to wait till he's married and believes everyone else does the same. He was supportive though. I had agreed to meet Jam at that little ledge we had found a month befor. I was sitting there waiting for him to show.
"Hey," I hear him come up and he sits be side me on the ledge.
"Hey," I look over and smile at him.
"You wanted to talk?" I nod, I look down and fiddle with the cuff of my coat.
"Yeah, um.....Linda and I are going through some stuff and well your all going to find out sooner or later." I pick up some snow and toss it from one hand to the other.
"What is it?" He did the same as I. I look over at him.
"Linda's pregnant." we sit there silent for a few moments.
"Wow," Jam says finally, he looks back at me, "How the heck did that happen?" I almost laugh at the question. I couldn't resist answering.
"Well you see when two people really love each other, the they deci...." Jam gives me a facewash mid-sentance.
"I know all that dimwit. I mean how can something like this happen to Linda of all people." I was still trying to get snow, which was now water, out from inside my jacket.
"Well if you know where kids come from then put two and two together. Or are you as mathmatically challenged as I am?" He glares at me, calling anyone as bad at math as me is probably on second to calling someone dumber than dirt.
"So you and Linda were.....um, doing IT then?" I give him and odd look.
"Yes me and Linda were having sex. Come on Jam I know you can say it with me s-e-x, sex" I recieve another face full of snow.
"Jesus Christ are you trying to drown me?" he smirks at me.
"Well maybe next time you'll keep your jokes to your self." I roll my eyes at him.
"Yeah right."
"So, what's it like?" he asks. I look at him.
"What, what is what like?" he glares at me, I don't care how frozen my nose gets I'm gonna get him to say it.
"You know, it." he gives me one of those looks. I give a thoughtful look for a second.
"Hmm, no sorry I don't know. you'll have to define it." He glares at me again, reaching for more snow.
"You know exactly what I mean, what is.....sex like," he wispered the word as if he'd get in trouble if he got caught saying it. I laugh, after a moment I hear him join in. Once I regained controll I sat up and replied.
"Well, I dunno, I'm guessing it is different for eveyone, every time. 'Sides we only did it once." I hear him sigh, I guess that is not the explination her wanted. I lay back and look up at the sky. I hear Jam quietly curse to himself.
"What?" I ask without even looking at him.
"I gotta go, my grandparents are coming over and I'm late." He stands up and heads out to the slopes. I lay there another five minutes or so befor I decide to go see Linda. I get up grab my board and leave.
***
When I got to Linda's place I spent more than a moment on the front porch waiting for someone to answer. Finally he dad answere, I guess it was the 'help's' day off today.
"Uh, Hi." I smile at him, hoping that he's still too mad me. I recieve only a glare in responce. "Um, in Linda here?"
"She's in her room." He doesn't say any more, he just walks back into the depths of the huge mansion. I head up stairs, hoping I can make it to my girlfriends room with out getting lost. I stop infront of a door with 'Princess' written on a plaque in pink calligraphy. I think for a second, wondering if I should knock or not, I decide to. Even though I have all ready seen her naked. The door opens and Linda pokes just her head out.
"Oh, hi Slash, come on in" she steps back to let me in. He room is huge, probably about the same size as my dinning room and living room combined. I notice that there are carpet and wall paper sample book every where.
"My parents are letting me redecorate the room next to mine for a nursery, I'm so excated. I'm still a little scared but this is still really exciting." She smiles. It must be PMS or something cause she's been exceptionally nice, hell she didn't even get after me when she caught me flirting with a girl at school.
"Wanna help me?" she help up two wallpaper samples, one was pink with white bunnies and the other was yellow with pink and red ballons, "Which one do you like?"
"Uh, you seem pretty sure it's going to be a girl, besides they both look like they belong in Nancy's room." She sighs, "Well, I just mean that if you insist on decorating the room now then you should pick something a little more......shall we say neutral?" I pick up a sample thats white with brown and black Teddie bears on it, "something more like this!" she looks thoughtful.
"I guess you have a point, there is a fifty percent chance that it'll be a boy." She sits down on the bed and sighs befor falling back and staring at the celing. "What am I going to do with a boy though." I lay down beside her.
"I dunno, what would you do if I were your son?" I ask. She looks at me for a second.
"I'd probably leave you in a mall and never come back." I grone, grab a pillow and take a swing, she dodges and I fall off the bed trying to stay balanced. She sits down and lays her head in the small of my back. She reaches up and starts fiddleing with my hair, since I stopped spikeing it it now hangs down to my shoulders. I sigh.
"Well since you've all ready decided to KEEP the baby...."
"Baby Jojo," she cuts me off.
"Huh?" I look back at her.
"Well I figured the baby shouldn't be call 'the baby' for nine months I decided that untill I give birth and it has a real name we should call it 'baby Jojo'" she smile at me.
"Ok, well since you've all ready decided to keep baby Jojo, leaving him in the mall would be totally against the whole plan now isn't it?" she giggled.
"So, what did Tommy and Jam say?" she sits up and starts cleaning up all the samples
"Ah, Tommy thought is was surprised and Jam just wanted to know what it was like to sleep with someone." I push my self up and help her. We talk for another hour or so befor I head home. I still dread having to face my dad, we had a huge fight not long after I first told them and we still haven't really made up yet.
Chapter 4: Um, wow?
Again Jam and I have met at that little ledge. I don't know why but we both seem to feel that it is a place where we can talk about any thing. Jam at the moment was doing more fussing than talking. I was on the other side of the fussing; I had a nasty black eye. It was the result of a fight with my dad. He agrees with Linda's parents that Linda and I should get married (Were FOURTEEN for god's sake, I don't want to be the worlds youngest Divorcée) Linda and I have completely rejected the idea. But back to the fussing.
"Slash you really should put something on that! What happened anyway?" I glare at him from my good eye.
"Fist off, your starting to sound like my mom and second it's none of you damn business." I go back to sitting there pouting. I hear him sigh beside me.
"Well can't you at least put some ice on it or something? I mean it's not like where out of freezing cold water here." I was July, and there was still plenty of snow on the ground, in the more commonly used areas like the roads and the slopes it is mostly slush but here it is still snow.
"Fine!" I grab a handful of snow and hold it to my eye carefully so I don't freeze anything, "Happy?" he nodded and smiled at me. I roll my eyes and sigh. It's weird really, the night before I had had an odd dream about Jam, I had been sick and he was my nurse (Complete with the tight little nurse skirt) suffice to say it was a tad disturbing. I drop the now mostly melted snow at my feet and stand up.
"I should go, my mom want me home early today." I turn to leave when he grabs my arm. I turn around and find myself looking straight into his eyes. I note that oddly enough my heart actually skips a beat.
"Huh, yeah?" I find m self blushing a little, not really knowing why.
"I just need to know your going to be ok. You and your dad haven't been getting along to well." the look in his eyes is one of genuine worry. I smile at him.
"I'll be fine." even I didn't quite believe the words, and the look in his eyes told me he didn't either but he let me go anyway.
***
I managed to get home before my mom's half-hour grace period, which means I didn't get one of her lectures. I did however get kitchen duty. That's why I was washing the dishes so that they can be washed (anyone else find it strange how you need to wash the dishes before you put them in the dishwasher?) Instead of going to the movies with everyone else. My mom likes chores to be done first, besides I'll be damned if I let a mess just sit around. I was just putting the last fork in the dishwasher when Jam entered the kitchen.
"Hey, I thought you where going to the movies?" I ask, surprised. He smiles at me.
"Well I figured that since you got stuck here, cleaning up, I'd just rent a movie and come over to watch it." I smile at him. I instruct him to go to the den and cue up the movie while I get some food and drinks. We just got settled on the couch ready to start the movie when my mom poked her head in to say that she and dad were headed out. I don't know why but I suddenly got nervous at the thought of being alone with Jam. We had just started to get into the movie (it was 'Hannible') I was just getting into the movie when I began to notice how close Jam really was to me. I also noticed the effect it was having on me and I hoped that he didn't notice either. I shifted, trying to get more comfortable, and to try and put some more distance between Jam and me without seeming suspicious.
"You ok?" He looked over at me, damn!
"Yeah, my legs falling asleep that's all." I smile at him hoping he won't ask anymore questions.
"Maybe we should stop the movie, it is a long one." He presses stop on the remote control, "I need to use the washroom anyway." He stands up and quickly heads to the bathroom. I take the cups to the kitchen, wash them and put them away. I lean up against the counter, I am still confused about how I had reacted to Jam's contact in the woods, and now I am reacting to his closeness on the sofa. The only other person who I have reacted to like this was Linda, and look where that got us.
"You sure you're ok? You are starting to act a little odd." When I turn around Jam is standing right there, I take in a breath. I noticed that he does the same.
"Um, ye...yeah, I'm good." I stutter, my voice cracks slightly. Before I can take in another breath he closes the gap between us and brushes his lips lightly against mine. My heart starts to beat faster and I find myself kissing him back. He pulls away slightly, I realize then that my arms had made their way around his neck, and he had wrapped his around my waist. The front door opens and we both jump back and try and look like nothing happened. My parents walk in.
"Hello, boys. Is your movie done?" My mom smiles at the two of us.
"Uh, nope just stretching our legs." I grab Jam by the arm and drag him into the den. I shut the door then flop down on the sofa. I rest my elbows on my knees and rest my head in my hands and sigh. He sits beside me and looks at me out of the corner of his eye. I start mumbling to myself. Jam puts his hand on my shoulder.
"This can't be happening, I mean Jesus, My girlfriend is pregnant and I'm falling for my best friend." He slips his arm around my shoulder and hugs me. We stay like that for a few moments, until my dad came in.
"What the HELL is going on in here?" Jam and I jump back and jump up. My dad was standing in the doorway, he was angry and his face was red as a tomato. I let out a little squeak.
"Maybe I should be going?" I nod but don't take my eyes off my dad.
Chapter 5: The Shower
Linda and I had just arrived at the obstratition's office, she was almost seven months along by now. We entered the building, I was beginning to feel a tad uncomfortable, partially because this was my first time tagging along and partially because all the other guys in the waiting room were old enough to be my dad (hell they were probably older than my dad.) We sat down and waited, I could feel most of the other people in the staring at us. I sat there feeling really uncomfortable for about ten minutes before we got called in. Linda had told me that she wanted to know if she was going to be having a boy or a girl. I really didn't care so pretty much left that up to her. The doctor came in and did pretty much what those kinds of doctors' do. They measured Linda's belly asked questions and did an ultrasound. The doctor then asked if we wanted to know what the sex was.
"Yes," Linda responded. I almost laughed at her eagerness. She sounded like a kid in a candy store. The doctor smiled.
"Well I can be pretty sure that you're going to have a boy. Now I'm not going to say that I am 100% positive, there is a small chance I'm wrong but then I never have been."
Linda and I left the office, we were going shopping from there. Her parents had given her their credit card and we were going baby shopping. She wanted to get started on the nursery before it was too late. I didn't get much say in what Linda bought, for some reason she has never really trusted my taste in anything. In the store we looked at everything from diapers to high chairs. In the end we only bought what we would need right off the bat, which was surprisingly a lot.
When I got home I sat down on the front stoop before actually going inside. I still wasn't sure I was ready to face my dad after what had happened last night. I was just getting into studying my thumbnail when someone sat beside me. I looked up to find myself staring right into Jam's brown eyes. I sighed and looked down again. He doesn't say anything. I look over at him again, he stands up and starts walking away. I follow him for no reason other than I feel I should. I stay a few feet behind him for a while, he doesn't stop until we get about half a mile out side of town on a trail that is just off mountain road.
"You dad very mad?" He turns towards me with a concerned look in his eyes. I smile.
"Well lets just say he's been even madder at me before." He gives me a small smile back.
"I just don't like it when he hurts you." I give him a shocked look, I have never actually said anything when my dad has hurt me. He doesn't seem to notice my look. He sits down on a log at the edge of the path.
"So, did you and Linda get everything you needed?" I sit beside him.
"Yeah, pretty much. I didn't think babies required so much stuff." He chuckles slightly. I stand up again and start pacing. Jam stood up and stood in front of me stopping my movement. I sigh and before I really realize what I am doing I rest my forehead on his shoulder. My heart reacts to it though and other parts of me react when he slips his arms around my shoulders. We stay like that for a while before he notices that it is starting to get dark. It takes me about thirty minutes to get home, my dad was sitting in the living room looking not too happy. I swallow hard.
***
I wake up the next morning with a bit of a headache. It was Sunday so I decided to stay in bed as long as possible, I didn't get much time though. The phone rang. I rolled over and picked up the receiver on my bedside table. It was Nancy on the line.
"Slash? I need you to come over tonight. It's really important." I really don't know how she does it, she knows exactly who answers the phone.
"Um, sure. Why do you need me to come over tonight?" I roll back on to my back and pull the covers up to my neck. I hear her whisper to someone on the other end before answering.
"Um, well, you see, I'm, uh, having trouble with an english assignment. It's Shakespeare so I figured that you could help me." She finishes so fast I almost couldn't understand her. I could tell she wasn't being truthful. We hung up and I picked up the receiver and called Linda.
I was waiting at the corner of Nancy's street waiting, after talking to Linda for less that half an hour we both realized that Nancy was up to something, since she had asked both Linda and I over under different guises we knew she was up to something. And we didn't think that she was working alone either.
"Hey Slash, do you have any idea what Nancy is trying to pull yet?" I shake my head, looking at her now I am still shocked that she is going to have a baby. Unlike before, though, it is not as hard to believe as it was at first.
"I do have a feeling that it has something to do with him," I point to her belly. She gives me a thoughtful look.
"You think that she throwing us a baby shower or something?" I shrug.
"That's really the only thing I could come up with. I mean nobody has a birthday anytime soon, and there is really no other reason for anyone to celebrate. Unless, of course, she and Tommy are getting married or something. But I doubt that." She laughs lightly. We walk up the front walk and ring the doorbell. Wendy answers the door, she smiles at both of us.
"I'm glad you guys could make it." I was a little surprised that she answered the door. I figured that Nancy would at least try and cover for as long as she could. Oh, well.
"Hey, no problem. Um, why are we here?" Wendy stepped back to let us in.
"Well all of us have a bit of a surprise for you two." She motions for use to follow her into the living room. We do. Everyone was there, even our parents. There was a large sign that say's 'Slash and Linda's Baby Shower'. I look over at Linda, she is smiling like she just got the best gift in the world.
"Wahoo! PARTY!" I yelled at the top of my lungs. Linda punched me lightly in the arm. "What?" I look at her innocently.
"I don't want you to embarrass your self tonight." She says with an annoyed look on her face. I look around the room, the only people in the room where people we both knew.
"But all these people all ready know who I am, I can really embarrass myself if I can't get embarrassed in the first place." I smile and her, she just glares at me. "I'll be good," I say meekly. We join the party. The gifts where small but pretty cool. Jam gave us a Dr. Sues book, 'Oh, the places you'll go'. Wendy got us one of those Playskool computer keyboard so when the little guy gets old enough he wont smash the more delicate one. My parents got a sleeper, it was a lager size than any of the other ones Linda and I had bought earlier that day, mom said it's because I was over ten pounds when I was born. Nancy and Tommy got the funniest gift for us, it was a little out fit with a white tee shirt and blue jean overalls and on the front pocket of the overalls was 'Made in Canada', everyone thought that was adorable. We stayed for a while long then headed home. I still haven't been able to figure out how my parents managed to get to Nancy's house without my knowing when they where still at home when I left.
Chapter 6: The Nursery
I was sitting in a tiny restaurant that is about a block from my house. I was watching Jam scarf down a hamburger fast than Tommy ever could. I sat silently picking at my fries, after all Jam was the one who asked me here to talk. I really didn't know what he wanted to talk about although I had a feeling it might be about what happened when he came over to watch a movie. He finally decided to start the conversation.
"Slash, what did you think about the kiss?" did I mention that he's always been really up front about everything? I shrug. He sighs.
"Maybe we should go somewhere where we can get some privacy." He starts packing up his garbage.
"Yeah, sure." I pick up the rest of my fries and put some money on the table to pay for them, Jam drops enough for his own meal. We head out and start walking. Soon we get far enough from the 'public' that we both feel more comfortable talking about it.
"I don't want just a shrug, I want a real answer. What did you think of the kiss?" I look at him for a second and sigh.
"I really don't know. Why do you want to know anyway?" He kicks at the snow and stuffs his hands in his pocket.
"Well it's just that, um, I liked it and I wanna know if I should get my hopes up or anything." I stare at him for a second. I look down at the ground, I knew I liked it but I didn't know if it really meant as much to me as it seems to have to him.
"I really don't know what you should make of it cause I don't know what I make of it." I hear him sigh again. We stand there, just the two of us, in complete silence almost like if we stay there long enough some higher force will spell out the answer for us in the snow. But then maybe it will, after all on this mountain you really never know. Jam looked at me for a second then said,
"Can you at least tell me if you liked it or not?" I look back at him.
"I can, and...I did." He smiles slightly.
"Ok then." He leans over and gives me a small kiss on the lips before turning around and walking away. I stand there for god only knows how long before heading home myself.
***
I was sitting in my room reading when my dad came in.
"Slash, your mom wanted me to come up here and make peace with you." I looked up from my book for a second and shrugged. I hear him let out a little growl before sitting down on the edge of my bed.
"I don't want this to be any harder than it has to be, Slash." I sigh, put the book down and sit up.
"Fine make peace, but I know your only doing this so you don't end up sleeping in the guest room tonight." He sighs and looks at me, "What?" I give him an innocent look, but we both know that I am right.
"Slash, I know you're probably really mad at me," I raise and eyebrow at him. "I'm sorry I acted like I did when your friend was over, your mom explained to me that guys today aren't so self conscious about showing affection to other guys." I stay silent I figure mom probably said that to shut him up for a while.
"Yeah well times change. Besides, Jam and I are close, were best friends." He gave me an uncertain smile.
"I guess they do." He shifted position. I sigh and position myself so that I'm lying on my stomach beside him.
"Slash, is there anything going on between you and that boy? I just want to know, and frankly I don't care." I look up at him for a second before pushing myself up. I walk over to my desk and sit down facing him.
"Personally I do think you care, and second if there were something going on then you'd find out anyway because it can be pretty hard to hid that sort of thing in a small town." I turn around and put my book away on the shelf. I hear him sigh.
"Yeah well I'd much rather hear it from you." I hear him get up and leave.
I lean forward and rest my head on my desk. I trace small circles on the top of the desk.
***
Linda and I were sitting in the 'nursery' over at her house trying to put the crib together (she wanted to have some part in preparing the room).
"Hand me that wrench thingy, could you?" she asked, pointing to a pile of tools beside me.
"Uh, which wrench thingy?" I ask looking at the pile.
"Um, that one with the little rolly thingy that adjusts the size." Well at least she's not too technical,
'cause to tell the truth I don't know much more about any of this stuff. I hand her the wrench.
"Um, Linda do you know where this goes?" I hold up a little track like metal piece. She takes it from me.
"Hey, I've been looking for this piece" She exclaims. From outside it probably sounds like were trying to put together a puzzle, but then again we are.
"Slash, I was wondering if you noticed that your spending a lot of time with Jam lately. A lot more than you used to." She bends over, concentrating on screwing in a screw. I shrug.
"I guess, he's just been helping with some things." Jam and I have actually started getting more serious, it is more like where dating casually that trying to figure out weather or not the other feels the same. Were testing each other out.
"Helping out with what?" she tosses her hair back and examines her handy work. I think about weather or not to lie to her but decide against it since she can always tell when I am not being to truthful. I tell what has been happening and wait for the explosion. It doesn't happen, she just sits their stares at me.
"So you're gay?" She says finally. She chews on her bottom lip, looking at me with and almost hurt expression.
"I didn't say that exactly. I just said that I might be. Besides, it's not like we were going to be together forever." I move closer and try to comfort her. After all this probably isn't the best thing to find out about your boyfriend when you're almost eight months pregnant with his baby.
"I know but still, why now? Why could you decide this back before all this happened?" She looked like she was going to start crying at any moment. I pull her into a hug.
"Linda, this isn't exactly a decision. Besides, there is probably a reason that I didn't find out until now. I mean maybe I was emotionally ready back then, you know that a majority of teenage suicides happen because the teen thinks they may be gay and they can't handle it." She gives me a depressed look.
"I guess I'd be pretty sad if you killed your self." She snuggled into my embrace.
"Hey look on the bright side! You laid a gay guy." That issues a small smile from her. I smile back.
"Well I hope you two are happy for at least two weeks." I roll my eyes. Jam and I are notorious for not being able to agree on to many things.
"Well thanks for your support honey." I say in a fake sweet voice.
"No problem sweetie," She leans up and gives me a peck on the cheek, "Now lets get this thing together before I end up giving birth right here on the floor. We get back to work trying to get the crib put together.
Chapter 7: Happy Birthday!
The call came at two in the morning, Linda was in the hospital. When I hear it I suddenly got vary nervous. I guess that is normal when you're about to become a father. I made it to the hospital in about an hour which is record time considering I had to go all the way down the mountain. When I got there I was escorted into a room that looked pretty comfortable in my eyes. There was a full bathroom, a phone and pretty much anything you could want in a hospital room save a television. Linda was awake when I got there, she was laying in the bed looking worn out.
"Hi, is he here yet?" I ask with a big smile when I get there. She glares at me.
"No, he's not, and don't act so happy. I'm in pain and anyone else in this room has to be as unhappy as I am right now." She says, well she seems to be doing well for a woman in labor. I stayed in the room as much as possible, I did fall asleep in the chair next to the bed a couple of time only to be waken up by Linda yelling at one of the nurses or a doctor. Her parents stayed as much as possible but with both of them having big important jobs neither one could stay for very long at one time.
"Slash?" I was just falling asleep for a third time.
"Hmm, yeah?" I open one eye and look at her.
"I'm board." I sit up and move so that I am in a more comfortable position.
"Well what do you want to do?" she looks thoughtful for a second, "Do we have any cards?" I look around the room.
"I don't think so. I could go get some from the gift shop." She lays back in the bed.
"Ok but don't be gone too long, I want you here when it happens." I smile at her and head out on my mission of obtaining some playing cards.
When the doctor came in and told her to push, things went by so fast that I probably couldn't tell you what happened if I tried. The first really clear thing I remember is the doctor putting a tiny, screaming bundle in my arms. I looked down a take my first good look at my son. I can't explain how I felt, it was the most amazing feeling in the world. I just realized that there is such a thing as love at first sight.
Everyone else came to visit Linda, the baby and me the next day. Everyone had their own unique reaction to him. Nancy was the first to show up, she went totally nuts. She wouldn't stop squealing about 'how adorable' he is. And when she finally got to hold him she got the same look on her face that she gets when she sees something that she really, really wants. Well all laughed when her parents told her 'Your not having one.' And she pouted. Tommy was afraid to even touch him for fear of hurting him. Jam though he was cool and didn't want to really let him go. Wendy came last.
"What's his name? How big is he? When exactly was he born? Can I hold him?" She almost burst down the door and she got caught in the curtain that gave Linda privacy when the door was open. We all laugh at her flood of questions.
"Well, if you really MUST know," I say with a phony English accent, I continue in my normal voice, "His name is Kyle Alexander, he is 9 pounds 8 ounces, he was born at 9:30 last night and you can hold him if you can get him away from Jam." I smile at her and sit down on the futon chair. She and Nancy went about cooing over Kyle, Linda was on the bed chowing down on some fruit and Tommy had a camera out and was taking pictures left and right. I leaned back and closed my eyes hoping to get some sleep.
"You must be tired? I know Linda must be exhausted." I open my eyes and find myself staring right in to Jam's
"Yeah, I am pretty tired" I move over so that he can sit beside me. I lay my head on his shoulder and close my eyes again. Again I am disturbed, a light flashes in my face. I open my eyes to find Tommy with the camera, I groan and toss a pillow from behind me at him. He laughs and goes over to the girls. We all leave, my parents made me come home. I went straight to bed and fell asleep right away.
Chapter 8: Epilogue
I had the bag ready, now to find one last thing....... Kyle came racing around the corner; I caught him with one arm and scooped him up.
"What did I tell you about running in the house?" he looks up at me with one of those kicked puppy looks. I roll my eyes. I did have time to deal with this we were already late. Today was Kyle's second birthday and we were going to meet everyone at a park in town to celebrate. My parents had all ready left and I was here trying to get this little tornado out of the house on time. My mom keeps bugging me saying 'Now you know what I went through when you were little'.
"Were we going, daddy?" I was carrying him in one arm and the bag in the other.
"Were going to meet mommy and grandma and grandpa and everyone else in the park for you birthday remember." He wiggled from my grasp and ran to the car. Now the ride there was going to be torture. I could feel it. I managed to get him into his car seat with out too much trouble. He wouldn't stop moving. I had been right about the ride; it was long enough when your alone but when you have a two-year-old with the attention span of a knat in the back seat it is even longer. Everyone was there when I got there, no surprise there. Kyle ran over to Linda and nearly knocked her over with a hug while I struggle with getting everything out of the car. Jam came over and greeted me with a small kiss on the cheek.
"Hey there, need any help?" he asked. I roll my eyes.
"No, can't you see I got the US Marines here to help me." He laughs at my sarcasm. I hand him the bag I was carrying before and pull the cooler out of the car. As we head back to the group I see Kyle showing off his new shoes to Nancy and Tommy. It really is amazing how well everyone has adapted to having him around. Nancy and Tommy really didn't have much trouble, Linda has finally learned to put other people before herself, Jam has managed to stop swearing when ever he can do it with out getting caught and I have learned how to live with a certain degree of mess in the house. It is weird to think that one little mistake can change so many people, but then again if I had a chance to go back and do it all again I wouldn't change a thing.
Name: Kyle
Author: KyleKamei
Rating: PG-13
Genre: General/Romance
Chapters: 8
Words: 8965
Published: 9/23/01
Updated: 10/10/01
Complete: Yes
Description: Done! There is some Yaoi (Jam/Slash). Anyway, um there is a little bit of swearing but trust me you hear worse at school. Anyway Slash and Linda are having a baby
Disclaimer (By Author): I do not own these characters and I am not making any money of this story. You will have
to give credit where credit is due and that means if you like the characters tell the guys who had created
snowboard kids.
Story
Chapter 1: Prologue
The room I was in was boring. The walls were a light green color, so light in fact one could hardly tell the
actual color of them. The floor and ceiling were both white and the bed I was sitting on was white, with
white sheets, a white pillow and that white paper that doctors used to keep the bed clean. It was your basic
exam room.
My mom had dragged me to the doctor because I had been sick for a while. The doctor had done
what any doctor does, he asked questions and checked every part of my body that may be affected. He even
went as far as to draw blood from me. All this and I new exactly what he was going to tell me. He was
going to tell me exactly what I had figured out two weeks prior. My mom doesn’t know about any of it,
however, even though eventually I would have to tell everyone. My mom at the moment was sitting in the
waiting room doing just that, waiting. I refused to let her come with me because she really didn’t need to
find out about this any way other than my own mouth.
The doctor came into the room with one of those looks on his face. He sat down in an empty chair
not to far from the bed I was sitting on. He put his clipboard in his lap and rested his hands on it.
“Let me guess, you know exactly what is wrong with you don’t you” the doctor looked me straight
in the eye. I nodded, like I said I knew exactly what was going on.
“Then tell me Linda, what do you think the diagnosis is.” He leaned back in the chair and look at
me expectantly. I looked down at my hands.
“I’m pregnant aren’t I” I said quietly. I looked up at him through my bangs. He nodded. He had
been my doctor for fourteen years, that’s my whole life, I new he was disappointed with me. I bit my lip
trying to hold back my tears, I didn’t like it when people weren’t happy with me. My doctor came and sat
beside me on the bed, he handed me a tissue and put his arm around my shoulders.
“You do know who the father is I hope,” I nod, “good. Now I just hope your planing on telling
him about this. When you finally tell you parents about this I want you to come back so we can talk about
your options, I do want you parents to know about this though. It will be easier on everyone that way. And
remember the longer you wait the less of a choice your going to have.” I nod again., “Alright then. Now if
you’ll excuse me I have a nasty case of chicken pox next door.” I smile and follow him out of the room, I
head into the waiting room where my mom was.
“What did he say?” she stands up, she looks worried.
“I’ll tell you when we get home.” I say and lead the way to the door.
Chapter 2: Finding Out
I was sitting alone under an old tree at the bottom of the bunny slope, I was waiting for Linda. We had been dating for the past 6 months and when you're 14 like we were then you are pretty certin you're in love. At least I was anyway. I was waiting because she called me up and told me she had something really important to tell me. She said than it was something that I needed to know and that eventually I would end up finding out and it was best that I heard it from her. To tell the truth I was half afraid she was going to tell me that she was cheating on me or something. So anyway, here I was seated under the old tree freezing cold waiting for my girlfriend. She more or less ploped down beside and spooked me a little since I hadn't heard her come up.
"Hey, Slash." She smiles at me, it was one of those smiles that is trying to say 'everything is fine' but really says 'something is really not ok'.
"So....you wanted to tell me something?" I rest my elbow on my knee and my head on my hand and look at her. She looks down and fiddles with her nails, she is obviously nervous.
"Uh, yeah, um we have a little bit of a problem...." she trails off and bites her lip.
"What kind of a problem?" Now I was even more worried. She looks away.
"Um.....I'm pregnant." she holds her breath, waiting for my response. I would never have though that just two words could make me feel as if someone had physically punched me in the stomach.
"Yo..your pregnant?" I didn't even notice my old stutter reaturning, it was probably a normal reaction though. I was shocked, I mean we had only done it once. And frankly I though a girl had to be like 15 or 16 befor she even got her period (Shows how much my parents care about my sex education). She turned her face to me, she was biting her lip again, I could see tears in her eyes. I realized she was probably scared out of her mind about this. I did the first thing that came to mind, I huged her. She rapped her arms around my waist and just started to cry. I sat there holding her and staring off into nothing. I couldn't think of anything to say that would make her feel any better and I really didn't even know what to think. Her words just kept repeating themselvs in my head, over and over. Finally she pulled back.
"My parents said they'll give you two weeks befor they say anything to your parents." Well at least I get to tell them my self, I can just imagin how my dad is going to react. He'll probably hurt me somehow.
"Um, I...I guess I'm go...gonna halfta t...te..tell 'em" Now I realized it was back. Linda nodded. I looked down at the ground beside me and started digging a hole with my fingure. I looked at her again, the look on her face told me she wan't going to really start to feel better untill I said something usefull. I said the first thing that came to mind.
"It's gonna be ok, we'll get through this. 'Sides if we don't we can say our parents didn't love us enough." My feeble attempt at a joke issued a small smile from her.
"I should get going, it's almost dinner." I nod, she stands up and leaves. I sit there for about another half an hour befor heading home.
***
When I got home I went up to my room and layed on my bed for about an hour befor deciding it was time to break the news to my parents of there up coming gandparent status. When I did get down stairs, both my parents where seated in the living room. My dad was reading a magazine and my mom was sewing (Okay! can we say 'half a centery ago'?). I entered the room and sat down in the love seat. Neither of my parents paid any attention to me so I cleared my throught. My mom looked up.
"Yes, Slash?" I suddenly felt like running. I swallowed.
"Um, I...I n...ne..need to te...tell you gu...guy's someth...thing" Both my mom and dad put down what they were doing, I guess the sound of me stuttering for the first time in like ten years worried them or something.
"What is it sweety?" My mom took on even more of a motherly demeaner now. I tried to take a deep breath and swallow at the same time, It didn't work to well. I finally managed the deep breath.
"L...Lin...Linda's, um, we...well sh...she's p...pr...pregnant." I finally managed. Both my parents were quiet for way too long, Finally my dad stood.
"Jesus Christ, what do you mean she's pregnant?" I swollowed hard, the way he was glaring at me was scary.
"Sh..sh..she's go...gon..gonna ha..have a b....bab...baby" I shrank back into the love seat. My dad was pacing and talking , well it was more like yelling.
"How the hell could you be so stupid?" He stopped in front of me. My mom stood up and started talking to him softly, I took this chance to run. I left the house and just kept going. I didn't even take my snowboard.
***
I ran into Jam at the begining of the mountain road, the road that leads into to the next town. Of course when I say ran into him, I mean that....Literally! Picking myself up from the ground I didn't even let him help me up.
"Jeez, where's the fire?" He gave me and odd look, I knew that he was going to start asking questions.
"Nothing," was my only answer, I headed back the way I came and took another turn I found my self on Rookie Mountain, I headed down and took a turn off that I had never travelled befor, it was an old over grown path. I hadn't been walking to long when I came to a ledge, there was snow not to far down but I didn't dare go further. Number one rule when on a snowy mountain, never step anywhere unless your sure there's solid ground where you stepping. I sat instead. To my anoyance Jam showed up not even five minutes later. He sat down beside me and didn't say a word. Somehow just him being there relaxed me. I sighed and put my face in my hands. Jam still didn't say anything. I was thankful that he knew me well enough to know when not to talk. We just sat in silence for a while. Finally I spoke.
"I wish life was easier." He looked at me.
"It's not so bad if you have people to help you through the though times." I shake my head.
"I'd tell you if I though you could help, that and I'm not the only one involved either." He shrugged.
"I didn't say I had to know what was happening, just letting you know I'm here." I look at him and smile. His watch beeps.
"Uh, it's almost nine," I grone.
"I guess that means we gotta head home." He nods, I stand up and survey the area. "I'm guessing out is that way." I point to the small path.
"I guess so," He agrees. We get to the main road and both head home. I stand outside my front door for a few moments befor heading in. I head straight to my room and go to bed.
Chapter 3: Li'l baby Jojo
It's been one and a half months since Linda told me the news, and fankly I am still having a hard time actally believing it. We had talked and decided that we should tell our friends as soon as possible. It was decided that I would deal with the boys and she would deal with the girls. Thus I was waiting for Jam, I had alread broke the new to Tommy, he was surprised to say the least. He's one of those guys who have made a vow to wait till he's married and believes everyone else does the same. He was supportive though. I had agreed to meet Jam at that little ledge we had found a month befor. I was sitting there waiting for him to show.
"Hey," I hear him come up and he sits be side me on the ledge.
"Hey," I look over and smile at him.
"You wanted to talk?" I nod, I look down and fiddle with the cuff of my coat.
"Yeah, um.....Linda and I are going through some stuff and well your all going to find out sooner or later." I pick up some snow and toss it from one hand to the other.
"What is it?" He did the same as I. I look over at him.
"Linda's pregnant." we sit there silent for a few moments.
"Wow," Jam says finally, he looks back at me, "How the heck did that happen?" I almost laugh at the question. I couldn't resist answering.
"Well you see when two people really love each other, the they deci...." Jam gives me a facewash mid-sentance.
"I know all that dimwit. I mean how can something like this happen to Linda of all people." I was still trying to get snow, which was now water, out from inside my jacket.
"Well if you know where kids come from then put two and two together. Or are you as mathmatically challenged as I am?" He glares at me, calling anyone as bad at math as me is probably on second to calling someone dumber than dirt.
"So you and Linda were.....um, doing IT then?" I give him and odd look.
"Yes me and Linda were having sex. Come on Jam I know you can say it with me s-e-x, sex" I recieve another face full of snow.
"Jesus Christ are you trying to drown me?" he smirks at me.
"Well maybe next time you'll keep your jokes to your self." I roll my eyes at him.
"Yeah right."
"So, what's it like?" he asks. I look at him.
"What, what is what like?" he glares at me, I don't care how frozen my nose gets I'm gonna get him to say it.
"You know, it." he gives me one of those looks. I give a thoughtful look for a second.
"Hmm, no sorry I don't know. you'll have to define it." He glares at me again, reaching for more snow.
"You know exactly what I mean, what is.....sex like," he wispered the word as if he'd get in trouble if he got caught saying it. I laugh, after a moment I hear him join in. Once I regained controll I sat up and replied.
"Well, I dunno, I'm guessing it is different for eveyone, every time. 'Sides we only did it once." I hear him sigh, I guess that is not the explination her wanted. I lay back and look up at the sky. I hear Jam quietly curse to himself.
"What?" I ask without even looking at him.
"I gotta go, my grandparents are coming over and I'm late." He stands up and heads out to the slopes. I lay there another five minutes or so befor I decide to go see Linda. I get up grab my board and leave.
***
When I got to Linda's place I spent more than a moment on the front porch waiting for someone to answer. Finally he dad answere, I guess it was the 'help's' day off today.
"Uh, Hi." I smile at him, hoping that he's still too mad me. I recieve only a glare in responce. "Um, in Linda here?"
"She's in her room." He doesn't say any more, he just walks back into the depths of the huge mansion. I head up stairs, hoping I can make it to my girlfriends room with out getting lost. I stop infront of a door with 'Princess' written on a plaque in pink calligraphy. I think for a second, wondering if I should knock or not, I decide to. Even though I have all ready seen her naked. The door opens and Linda pokes just her head out.
"Oh, hi Slash, come on in" she steps back to let me in. He room is huge, probably about the same size as my dinning room and living room combined. I notice that there are carpet and wall paper sample book every where.
"My parents are letting me redecorate the room next to mine for a nursery, I'm so excated. I'm still a little scared but this is still really exciting." She smiles. It must be PMS or something cause she's been exceptionally nice, hell she didn't even get after me when she caught me flirting with a girl at school.
"Wanna help me?" she help up two wallpaper samples, one was pink with white bunnies and the other was yellow with pink and red ballons, "Which one do you like?"
"Uh, you seem pretty sure it's going to be a girl, besides they both look like they belong in Nancy's room." She sighs, "Well, I just mean that if you insist on decorating the room now then you should pick something a little more......shall we say neutral?" I pick up a sample thats white with brown and black Teddie bears on it, "something more like this!" she looks thoughtful.
"I guess you have a point, there is a fifty percent chance that it'll be a boy." She sits down on the bed and sighs befor falling back and staring at the celing. "What am I going to do with a boy though." I lay down beside her.
"I dunno, what would you do if I were your son?" I ask. She looks at me for a second.
"I'd probably leave you in a mall and never come back." I grone, grab a pillow and take a swing, she dodges and I fall off the bed trying to stay balanced. She sits down and lays her head in the small of my back. She reaches up and starts fiddleing with my hair, since I stopped spikeing it it now hangs down to my shoulders. I sigh.
"Well since you've all ready decided to KEEP the baby...."
"Baby Jojo," she cuts me off.
"Huh?" I look back at her.
"Well I figured the baby shouldn't be call 'the baby' for nine months I decided that untill I give birth and it has a real name we should call it 'baby Jojo'" she smile at me.
"Ok, well since you've all ready decided to keep baby Jojo, leaving him in the mall would be totally against the whole plan now isn't it?" she giggled.
"So, what did Tommy and Jam say?" she sits up and starts cleaning up all the samples
"Ah, Tommy thought is was surprised and Jam just wanted to know what it was like to sleep with someone." I push my self up and help her. We talk for another hour or so befor I head home. I still dread having to face my dad, we had a huge fight not long after I first told them and we still haven't really made up yet.
Chapter 4: Um, wow?
Again Jam and I have met at that little ledge. I don't know why but we both seem to feel that it is a place where we can talk about any thing. Jam at the moment was doing more fussing than talking. I was on the other side of the fussing; I had a nasty black eye. It was the result of a fight with my dad. He agrees with Linda's parents that Linda and I should get married (Were FOURTEEN for god's sake, I don't want to be the worlds youngest Divorcée) Linda and I have completely rejected the idea. But back to the fussing.
"Slash you really should put something on that! What happened anyway?" I glare at him from my good eye.
"Fist off, your starting to sound like my mom and second it's none of you damn business." I go back to sitting there pouting. I hear him sigh beside me.
"Well can't you at least put some ice on it or something? I mean it's not like where out of freezing cold water here." I was July, and there was still plenty of snow on the ground, in the more commonly used areas like the roads and the slopes it is mostly slush but here it is still snow.
"Fine!" I grab a handful of snow and hold it to my eye carefully so I don't freeze anything, "Happy?" he nodded and smiled at me. I roll my eyes and sigh. It's weird really, the night before I had had an odd dream about Jam, I had been sick and he was my nurse (Complete with the tight little nurse skirt) suffice to say it was a tad disturbing. I drop the now mostly melted snow at my feet and stand up.
"I should go, my mom want me home early today." I turn to leave when he grabs my arm. I turn around and find myself looking straight into his eyes. I note that oddly enough my heart actually skips a beat.
"Huh, yeah?" I find m self blushing a little, not really knowing why.
"I just need to know your going to be ok. You and your dad haven't been getting along to well." the look in his eyes is one of genuine worry. I smile at him.
"I'll be fine." even I didn't quite believe the words, and the look in his eyes told me he didn't either but he let me go anyway.
***
I managed to get home before my mom's half-hour grace period, which means I didn't get one of her lectures. I did however get kitchen duty. That's why I was washing the dishes so that they can be washed (anyone else find it strange how you need to wash the dishes before you put them in the dishwasher?) Instead of going to the movies with everyone else. My mom likes chores to be done first, besides I'll be damned if I let a mess just sit around. I was just putting the last fork in the dishwasher when Jam entered the kitchen.
"Hey, I thought you where going to the movies?" I ask, surprised. He smiles at me.
"Well I figured that since you got stuck here, cleaning up, I'd just rent a movie and come over to watch it." I smile at him. I instruct him to go to the den and cue up the movie while I get some food and drinks. We just got settled on the couch ready to start the movie when my mom poked her head in to say that she and dad were headed out. I don't know why but I suddenly got nervous at the thought of being alone with Jam. We had just started to get into the movie (it was 'Hannible') I was just getting into the movie when I began to notice how close Jam really was to me. I also noticed the effect it was having on me and I hoped that he didn't notice either. I shifted, trying to get more comfortable, and to try and put some more distance between Jam and me without seeming suspicious.
"You ok?" He looked over at me, damn!
"Yeah, my legs falling asleep that's all." I smile at him hoping he won't ask anymore questions.
"Maybe we should stop the movie, it is a long one." He presses stop on the remote control, "I need to use the washroom anyway." He stands up and quickly heads to the bathroom. I take the cups to the kitchen, wash them and put them away. I lean up against the counter, I am still confused about how I had reacted to Jam's contact in the woods, and now I am reacting to his closeness on the sofa. The only other person who I have reacted to like this was Linda, and look where that got us.
"You sure you're ok? You are starting to act a little odd." When I turn around Jam is standing right there, I take in a breath. I noticed that he does the same.
"Um, ye...yeah, I'm good." I stutter, my voice cracks slightly. Before I can take in another breath he closes the gap between us and brushes his lips lightly against mine. My heart starts to beat faster and I find myself kissing him back. He pulls away slightly, I realize then that my arms had made their way around his neck, and he had wrapped his around my waist. The front door opens and we both jump back and try and look like nothing happened. My parents walk in.
"Hello, boys. Is your movie done?" My mom smiles at the two of us.
"Uh, nope just stretching our legs." I grab Jam by the arm and drag him into the den. I shut the door then flop down on the sofa. I rest my elbows on my knees and rest my head in my hands and sigh. He sits beside me and looks at me out of the corner of his eye. I start mumbling to myself. Jam puts his hand on my shoulder.
"This can't be happening, I mean Jesus, My girlfriend is pregnant and I'm falling for my best friend." He slips his arm around my shoulder and hugs me. We stay like that for a few moments, until my dad came in.
"What the HELL is going on in here?" Jam and I jump back and jump up. My dad was standing in the doorway, he was angry and his face was red as a tomato. I let out a little squeak.
"Maybe I should be going?" I nod but don't take my eyes off my dad.
Chapter 5: The Shower
Linda and I had just arrived at the obstratition's office, she was almost seven months along by now. We entered the building, I was beginning to feel a tad uncomfortable, partially because this was my first time tagging along and partially because all the other guys in the waiting room were old enough to be my dad (hell they were probably older than my dad.) We sat down and waited, I could feel most of the other people in the staring at us. I sat there feeling really uncomfortable for about ten minutes before we got called in. Linda had told me that she wanted to know if she was going to be having a boy or a girl. I really didn't care so pretty much left that up to her. The doctor came in and did pretty much what those kinds of doctors' do. They measured Linda's belly asked questions and did an ultrasound. The doctor then asked if we wanted to know what the sex was.
"Yes," Linda responded. I almost laughed at her eagerness. She sounded like a kid in a candy store. The doctor smiled.
"Well I can be pretty sure that you're going to have a boy. Now I'm not going to say that I am 100% positive, there is a small chance I'm wrong but then I never have been."
Linda and I left the office, we were going shopping from there. Her parents had given her their credit card and we were going baby shopping. She wanted to get started on the nursery before it was too late. I didn't get much say in what Linda bought, for some reason she has never really trusted my taste in anything. In the store we looked at everything from diapers to high chairs. In the end we only bought what we would need right off the bat, which was surprisingly a lot.
When I got home I sat down on the front stoop before actually going inside. I still wasn't sure I was ready to face my dad after what had happened last night. I was just getting into studying my thumbnail when someone sat beside me. I looked up to find myself staring right into Jam's brown eyes. I sighed and looked down again. He doesn't say anything. I look over at him again, he stands up and starts walking away. I follow him for no reason other than I feel I should. I stay a few feet behind him for a while, he doesn't stop until we get about half a mile out side of town on a trail that is just off mountain road.
"You dad very mad?" He turns towards me with a concerned look in his eyes. I smile.
"Well lets just say he's been even madder at me before." He gives me a small smile back.
"I just don't like it when he hurts you." I give him a shocked look, I have never actually said anything when my dad has hurt me. He doesn't seem to notice my look. He sits down on a log at the edge of the path.
"So, did you and Linda get everything you needed?" I sit beside him.
"Yeah, pretty much. I didn't think babies required so much stuff." He chuckles slightly. I stand up again and start pacing. Jam stood up and stood in front of me stopping my movement. I sigh and before I really realize what I am doing I rest my forehead on his shoulder. My heart reacts to it though and other parts of me react when he slips his arms around my shoulders. We stay like that for a while before he notices that it is starting to get dark. It takes me about thirty minutes to get home, my dad was sitting in the living room looking not too happy. I swallow hard.
***
I wake up the next morning with a bit of a headache. It was Sunday so I decided to stay in bed as long as possible, I didn't get much time though. The phone rang. I rolled over and picked up the receiver on my bedside table. It was Nancy on the line.
"Slash? I need you to come over tonight. It's really important." I really don't know how she does it, she knows exactly who answers the phone.
"Um, sure. Why do you need me to come over tonight?" I roll back on to my back and pull the covers up to my neck. I hear her whisper to someone on the other end before answering.
"Um, well, you see, I'm, uh, having trouble with an english assignment. It's Shakespeare so I figured that you could help me." She finishes so fast I almost couldn't understand her. I could tell she wasn't being truthful. We hung up and I picked up the receiver and called Linda.
I was waiting at the corner of Nancy's street waiting, after talking to Linda for less that half an hour we both realized that Nancy was up to something, since she had asked both Linda and I over under different guises we knew she was up to something. And we didn't think that she was working alone either.
"Hey Slash, do you have any idea what Nancy is trying to pull yet?" I shake my head, looking at her now I am still shocked that she is going to have a baby. Unlike before, though, it is not as hard to believe as it was at first.
"I do have a feeling that it has something to do with him," I point to her belly. She gives me a thoughtful look.
"You think that she throwing us a baby shower or something?" I shrug.
"That's really the only thing I could come up with. I mean nobody has a birthday anytime soon, and there is really no other reason for anyone to celebrate. Unless, of course, she and Tommy are getting married or something. But I doubt that." She laughs lightly. We walk up the front walk and ring the doorbell. Wendy answers the door, she smiles at both of us.
"I'm glad you guys could make it." I was a little surprised that she answered the door. I figured that Nancy would at least try and cover for as long as she could. Oh, well.
"Hey, no problem. Um, why are we here?" Wendy stepped back to let us in.
"Well all of us have a bit of a surprise for you two." She motions for use to follow her into the living room. We do. Everyone was there, even our parents. There was a large sign that say's 'Slash and Linda's Baby Shower'. I look over at Linda, she is smiling like she just got the best gift in the world.
"Wahoo! PARTY!" I yelled at the top of my lungs. Linda punched me lightly in the arm. "What?" I look at her innocently.
"I don't want you to embarrass your self tonight." She says with an annoyed look on her face. I look around the room, the only people in the room where people we both knew.
"But all these people all ready know who I am, I can really embarrass myself if I can't get embarrassed in the first place." I smile and her, she just glares at me. "I'll be good," I say meekly. We join the party. The gifts where small but pretty cool. Jam gave us a Dr. Sues book, 'Oh, the places you'll go'. Wendy got us one of those Playskool computer keyboard so when the little guy gets old enough he wont smash the more delicate one. My parents got a sleeper, it was a lager size than any of the other ones Linda and I had bought earlier that day, mom said it's because I was over ten pounds when I was born. Nancy and Tommy got the funniest gift for us, it was a little out fit with a white tee shirt and blue jean overalls and on the front pocket of the overalls was 'Made in Canada', everyone thought that was adorable. We stayed for a while long then headed home. I still haven't been able to figure out how my parents managed to get to Nancy's house without my knowing when they where still at home when I left.
Chapter 6: The Nursery
I was sitting in a tiny restaurant that is about a block from my house. I was watching Jam scarf down a hamburger fast than Tommy ever could. I sat silently picking at my fries, after all Jam was the one who asked me here to talk. I really didn't know what he wanted to talk about although I had a feeling it might be about what happened when he came over to watch a movie. He finally decided to start the conversation.
"Slash, what did you think about the kiss?" did I mention that he's always been really up front about everything? I shrug. He sighs.
"Maybe we should go somewhere where we can get some privacy." He starts packing up his garbage.
"Yeah, sure." I pick up the rest of my fries and put some money on the table to pay for them, Jam drops enough for his own meal. We head out and start walking. Soon we get far enough from the 'public' that we both feel more comfortable talking about it.
"I don't want just a shrug, I want a real answer. What did you think of the kiss?" I look at him for a second and sigh.
"I really don't know. Why do you want to know anyway?" He kicks at the snow and stuffs his hands in his pocket.
"Well it's just that, um, I liked it and I wanna know if I should get my hopes up or anything." I stare at him for a second. I look down at the ground, I knew I liked it but I didn't know if it really meant as much to me as it seems to have to him.
"I really don't know what you should make of it cause I don't know what I make of it." I hear him sigh again. We stand there, just the two of us, in complete silence almost like if we stay there long enough some higher force will spell out the answer for us in the snow. But then maybe it will, after all on this mountain you really never know. Jam looked at me for a second then said,
"Can you at least tell me if you liked it or not?" I look back at him.
"I can, and...I did." He smiles slightly.
"Ok then." He leans over and gives me a small kiss on the lips before turning around and walking away. I stand there for god only knows how long before heading home myself.
***
I was sitting in my room reading when my dad came in.
"Slash, your mom wanted me to come up here and make peace with you." I looked up from my book for a second and shrugged. I hear him let out a little growl before sitting down on the edge of my bed.
"I don't want this to be any harder than it has to be, Slash." I sigh, put the book down and sit up.
"Fine make peace, but I know your only doing this so you don't end up sleeping in the guest room tonight." He sighs and looks at me, "What?" I give him an innocent look, but we both know that I am right.
"Slash, I know you're probably really mad at me," I raise and eyebrow at him. "I'm sorry I acted like I did when your friend was over, your mom explained to me that guys today aren't so self conscious about showing affection to other guys." I stay silent I figure mom probably said that to shut him up for a while.
"Yeah well times change. Besides, Jam and I are close, were best friends." He gave me an uncertain smile.
"I guess they do." He shifted position. I sigh and position myself so that I'm lying on my stomach beside him.
"Slash, is there anything going on between you and that boy? I just want to know, and frankly I don't care." I look up at him for a second before pushing myself up. I walk over to my desk and sit down facing him.
"Personally I do think you care, and second if there were something going on then you'd find out anyway because it can be pretty hard to hid that sort of thing in a small town." I turn around and put my book away on the shelf. I hear him sigh.
"Yeah well I'd much rather hear it from you." I hear him get up and leave.
I lean forward and rest my head on my desk. I trace small circles on the top of the desk.
***
Linda and I were sitting in the 'nursery' over at her house trying to put the crib together (she wanted to have some part in preparing the room).
"Hand me that wrench thingy, could you?" she asked, pointing to a pile of tools beside me.
"Uh, which wrench thingy?" I ask looking at the pile.
"Um, that one with the little rolly thingy that adjusts the size." Well at least she's not too technical,
'cause to tell the truth I don't know much more about any of this stuff. I hand her the wrench.
"Um, Linda do you know where this goes?" I hold up a little track like metal piece. She takes it from me.
"Hey, I've been looking for this piece" She exclaims. From outside it probably sounds like were trying to put together a puzzle, but then again we are.
"Slash, I was wondering if you noticed that your spending a lot of time with Jam lately. A lot more than you used to." She bends over, concentrating on screwing in a screw. I shrug.
"I guess, he's just been helping with some things." Jam and I have actually started getting more serious, it is more like where dating casually that trying to figure out weather or not the other feels the same. Were testing each other out.
"Helping out with what?" she tosses her hair back and examines her handy work. I think about weather or not to lie to her but decide against it since she can always tell when I am not being to truthful. I tell what has been happening and wait for the explosion. It doesn't happen, she just sits their stares at me.
"So you're gay?" She says finally. She chews on her bottom lip, looking at me with and almost hurt expression.
"I didn't say that exactly. I just said that I might be. Besides, it's not like we were going to be together forever." I move closer and try to comfort her. After all this probably isn't the best thing to find out about your boyfriend when you're almost eight months pregnant with his baby.
"I know but still, why now? Why could you decide this back before all this happened?" She looked like she was going to start crying at any moment. I pull her into a hug.
"Linda, this isn't exactly a decision. Besides, there is probably a reason that I didn't find out until now. I mean maybe I was emotionally ready back then, you know that a majority of teenage suicides happen because the teen thinks they may be gay and they can't handle it." She gives me a depressed look.
"I guess I'd be pretty sad if you killed your self." She snuggled into my embrace.
"Hey look on the bright side! You laid a gay guy." That issues a small smile from her. I smile back.
"Well I hope you two are happy for at least two weeks." I roll my eyes. Jam and I are notorious for not being able to agree on to many things.
"Well thanks for your support honey." I say in a fake sweet voice.
"No problem sweetie," She leans up and gives me a peck on the cheek, "Now lets get this thing together before I end up giving birth right here on the floor. We get back to work trying to get the crib put together.
Chapter 7: Happy Birthday!
The call came at two in the morning, Linda was in the hospital. When I hear it I suddenly got vary nervous. I guess that is normal when you're about to become a father. I made it to the hospital in about an hour which is record time considering I had to go all the way down the mountain. When I got there I was escorted into a room that looked pretty comfortable in my eyes. There was a full bathroom, a phone and pretty much anything you could want in a hospital room save a television. Linda was awake when I got there, she was laying in the bed looking worn out.
"Hi, is he here yet?" I ask with a big smile when I get there. She glares at me.
"No, he's not, and don't act so happy. I'm in pain and anyone else in this room has to be as unhappy as I am right now." She says, well she seems to be doing well for a woman in labor. I stayed in the room as much as possible, I did fall asleep in the chair next to the bed a couple of time only to be waken up by Linda yelling at one of the nurses or a doctor. Her parents stayed as much as possible but with both of them having big important jobs neither one could stay for very long at one time.
"Slash?" I was just falling asleep for a third time.
"Hmm, yeah?" I open one eye and look at her.
"I'm board." I sit up and move so that I am in a more comfortable position.
"Well what do you want to do?" she looks thoughtful for a second, "Do we have any cards?" I look around the room.
"I don't think so. I could go get some from the gift shop." She lays back in the bed.
"Ok but don't be gone too long, I want you here when it happens." I smile at her and head out on my mission of obtaining some playing cards.
When the doctor came in and told her to push, things went by so fast that I probably couldn't tell you what happened if I tried. The first really clear thing I remember is the doctor putting a tiny, screaming bundle in my arms. I looked down a take my first good look at my son. I can't explain how I felt, it was the most amazing feeling in the world. I just realized that there is such a thing as love at first sight.
Everyone else came to visit Linda, the baby and me the next day. Everyone had their own unique reaction to him. Nancy was the first to show up, she went totally nuts. She wouldn't stop squealing about 'how adorable' he is. And when she finally got to hold him she got the same look on her face that she gets when she sees something that she really, really wants. Well all laughed when her parents told her 'Your not having one.' And she pouted. Tommy was afraid to even touch him for fear of hurting him. Jam though he was cool and didn't want to really let him go. Wendy came last.
"What's his name? How big is he? When exactly was he born? Can I hold him?" She almost burst down the door and she got caught in the curtain that gave Linda privacy when the door was open. We all laugh at her flood of questions.
"Well, if you really MUST know," I say with a phony English accent, I continue in my normal voice, "His name is Kyle Alexander, he is 9 pounds 8 ounces, he was born at 9:30 last night and you can hold him if you can get him away from Jam." I smile at her and sit down on the futon chair. She and Nancy went about cooing over Kyle, Linda was on the bed chowing down on some fruit and Tommy had a camera out and was taking pictures left and right. I leaned back and closed my eyes hoping to get some sleep.
"You must be tired? I know Linda must be exhausted." I open my eyes and find myself staring right in to Jam's
"Yeah, I am pretty tired" I move over so that he can sit beside me. I lay my head on his shoulder and close my eyes again. Again I am disturbed, a light flashes in my face. I open my eyes to find Tommy with the camera, I groan and toss a pillow from behind me at him. He laughs and goes over to the girls. We all leave, my parents made me come home. I went straight to bed and fell asleep right away.
Chapter 8: Epilogue
I had the bag ready, now to find one last thing....... Kyle came racing around the corner; I caught him with one arm and scooped him up.
"What did I tell you about running in the house?" he looks up at me with one of those kicked puppy looks. I roll my eyes. I did have time to deal with this we were already late. Today was Kyle's second birthday and we were going to meet everyone at a park in town to celebrate. My parents had all ready left and I was here trying to get this little tornado out of the house on time. My mom keeps bugging me saying 'Now you know what I went through when you were little'.
"Were we going, daddy?" I was carrying him in one arm and the bag in the other.
"Were going to meet mommy and grandma and grandpa and everyone else in the park for you birthday remember." He wiggled from my grasp and ran to the car. Now the ride there was going to be torture. I could feel it. I managed to get him into his car seat with out too much trouble. He wouldn't stop moving. I had been right about the ride; it was long enough when your alone but when you have a two-year-old with the attention span of a knat in the back seat it is even longer. Everyone was there when I got there, no surprise there. Kyle ran over to Linda and nearly knocked her over with a hug while I struggle with getting everything out of the car. Jam came over and greeted me with a small kiss on the cheek.
"Hey there, need any help?" he asked. I roll my eyes.
"No, can't you see I got the US Marines here to help me." He laughs at my sarcasm. I hand him the bag I was carrying before and pull the cooler out of the car. As we head back to the group I see Kyle showing off his new shoes to Nancy and Tommy. It really is amazing how well everyone has adapted to having him around. Nancy and Tommy really didn't have much trouble, Linda has finally learned to put other people before herself, Jam has managed to stop swearing when ever he can do it with out getting caught and I have learned how to live with a certain degree of mess in the house. It is weird to think that one little mistake can change so many people, but then again if I had a chance to go back and do it all again I wouldn't change a thing.
