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April 10th, 2018, 11:52 pm #51

Kybo wrote:
Eric71 wrote:
Doofus wrote:It's pretty amazing how similar all our stories are....total transparency is that nicotine bitch's greatest enemy! Day 87, proud with you today.
Thoughts of chew still enter my mind on occasion. It's okay. I laugh internally and scoff at how desperate and clingy the nic bitch is; such a whore, stealing the lifeblood out of men, fathers, heroes to our children, leaders in our communities. I look down into her big doe eyes, calmly raise my leg, and firmly press my boot into her throat, choking the lifeblood out of her and her poisonous lies. That is how I think of chew now.
My preferred method is to visualize myself beating her with a tire iron. It would definitely be easier for me if I didn't see nicotine as a female, but you have to work with the tools you have.
I visialize dropping an "upper decker in her apartment" during a party, pissing in her shampoo bottles, blowing a load on her face towel and then just walking away to let her enjoy her shit water.....is that wrong? 'oh yeah'
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April 11th, 2018, 12:34 pm #52

BrianG posted the gem below from DeanTheCoot on Athan's intro page yesterday. I just cut and pasted this one paragraph because I swear it is something I could have written myself. I am still working on developing that militant hatred, but the rest of it is me all the way. I do come to KTC every day and watch the struggles of the new guys/gals. I feel sorry for them and happy for them at the same time. It strengthens my quit to watch what they go through. I also see the people that cave and/or just disappear from the site. I feel only sorrow for them. But, they strengthen my quit too.

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The nic bitch is the mental version of the Sham Wow fag, you need to turn the fucking channel or put in some ear plugs. Honestly what helped me is finding some other poor deluded addict on his day one and watching him struggle like hell. It was almost sadistic at first. I felt satiatied when they hit the fog and the funk and the headaches and first no sleep then can't sleep enough, and the mouth sores and the fear of cancer. Watching them helped me stay quit because I hated that and won't do it again. I remember being desperate to stop and each night laying in bed thinking tomorrow tomorrow I wont dip. Watching guys cave forces me to remember that and not become complacent with my quit. Then it turned from love of dip and a sense of loss to a militant hatred. You have to cultivate that hate. Watching people struggle today pisses me off, not at them, but at the addiction. It is crazy the toll nic takes on us both mentally and physically. Find some strugglers in the new group and try to shepard them thru to the Hof. Don't get discouraged with yourself if they cave, many will. It will only remind you how far you have come and what you left behind. This will strengthen your quit. If they do make it, sharing the struggle with them will strengthen your quit as well.

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April 11th, 2018, 10:28 pm #53

So here I am sitting at my youngest daughter’s first outdoor practice of the Spring soccer season. I am pretty sure this will be the first outdoor practice of her life that I wasn’t there with a ninja dip in my mouth. I was a little worried about this being a trigger for me, but it is actually quite the opposite. It is kind of nice to not have to sneak around a tobacco free facility trying to hide the disgusting wad of shit in my mouth. I could totally get used to this!! I call that a win!
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April 12th, 2018, 10:47 pm #54

Kybo wrote:....I think subconsciously I was hoping that I would discover that I could get to the point where I could control the addiction and still have the occasional chew....
I was PLANNING on chewing this summer when I went back home to Texas to see my brothers (got six brothers - feel for you boys that don't have brothers). That was before I joined KTC and had to come to terms with the addiction side of it. I've had YEARS, too many YEARs, of slavery. That's why JGromo destroyed his gransfather's cigar (the most epic of quits). I can't go back. Look at how you hid cans in the mouth of that northern pike, how you found that can in the vacation rental from a previous year! Along the treeline etc. I'm angry that I wasted so much time and health, and $$$$. Wow. had to vent. Had a mild crave this evening and remembered all that...
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April 13th, 2018, 12:38 pm #55

Athan wrote:
Kybo wrote:....I think subconsciously I was hoping that I would discover that I could get to the point where I could control the addiction and still have the occasional chew....
I was PLANNING on chewing this summer when I went back home to Texas to see my brothers (got six brothers - feel for you boys that don't have brothers). That was before I joined KTC and had to come to terms with the addiction side of it. I've had YEARS, too many YEARs, of slavery. That's why JGromo destroyed his gransfather's cigar (the most epic of quits). I can't go back. Look at how you hid cans in the mouth of that northern pike, how you found that can in the vacation rental from a previous year! Along the treeline etc. I'm angry that I wasted so much time and health, and $$$$. Wow. had to vent. Had a mild crave this evening and remembered all that...
Yeah. That "PLANNING" that we were doing early on was just our brain trying to negotiate with the nic bitch. I did the same thing. At first I was just going to cut back, but still have a chew every once in awhile. Then, I was going to just quit for awhile to prove that I was still in control. Next, I was going to quit, but just chew on "special occasions." It only took me about a month of cutting back to realize that I was never going to be in control of my addiction. At that point I knew I was going to have to do all or nothing. I chose to give up the nic bitch completely.

I am like the Federal government now. I no longer negotiate with that terrorist. I just shoot that bad bitch down. 'Remshot'

FYI - I am still finding cans. Just found one last week shoved in a rubber boot inside the tool box in the bed of my truck. I don't even remember putting it there.
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April 14th, 2018, 1:17 am #56

Kybo wrote:
Athan wrote:
Kybo wrote:....I think subconsciously I was hoping that I would discover that I could get to the point where I could control the addiction and still have the occasional chew....
I was PLANNING on chewing this summer when I went back home to Texas to see my brothers (got six brothers - feel for you boys that don't have brothers). That was before I joined KTC and had to come to terms with the addiction side of it. I've had YEARS, too many YEARs, of slavery. That's why JGromo destroyed his gransfather's cigar (the most epic of quits). I can't go back. Look at how you hid cans in the mouth of that northern pike, how you found that can in the vacation rental from a previous year! Along the treeline etc. I'm angry that I wasted so much time and health, and $$$$. Wow. had to vent. Had a mild crave this evening and remembered all that...
Yeah. That "PLANNING" that we were doing early on was just our brain trying to negotiate with the nic bitch. I did the same thing. At first I was just going to cut back, but still have a chew every once in awhile. Then, I was going to just quit for awhile to prove that I was still in control. Next, I was going to quit, but just chew on "special occasions." It only took me about a month of cutting back to realize that I was never going to be in control of my addiction. At that point I knew I was going to have to do all or nothing. I chose to give up the nic bitch completely.

I am like the Federal government now. I no longer negotiate with that terrorist. I just shoot that bad bitch down. 'Remshot'

FYI - I am still finding cans. Just found one last week shoved in a rubber boot inside the tool box in the bed of my truck. I don't even remember putting it there.
Oh I hear that, fishing season is about to kick off....I already found tins in my gear
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April 16th, 2018, 7:22 pm #57

Day 100

Thanks for the well wishes and congratulations. But, it honestly is just another day to me.

I like the fact that somebody had the bright idea to put the HOF at 100 days because it has an attainable feel to it. But, once you get here you just kind of look around and realize that today isn't any different than yesterday. And it is probably going to feel exactly the same tomorrow. But, I do feel better about tomorrow than I did 99 days ago. And, I feel better now about the possibility of making it a year than I did 3 months ago. So, maybe there is some magic, or maybe even some logic, to that 100 Day Hall of Fame number.

I think I am going to hold off on celebrating for now. It doesn't really feel like I have accomplished anything yet. But, I did do one thing for myself today. I felt like I earned it after 100 days. What did I do you ask?

I finally implemented the "ignore user" function.
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April 16th, 2018, 7:39 pm #58

Kybo wrote:Day 100

Thanks for the well wishes and congratulations. But, it honestly is just another day to me.

I like the fact that somebody had the bright idea to put the HOF at 100 days because it has an attainable feel to it. But, once you get here you just kind of look around and realize that today isn't any different than yesterday. And it is probably going to feel exactly the same tomorrow. But, I do feel better about tomorrow than I did 99 days ago. And, I feel better now about the possibility of making it a year than I did 3 months ago. So, maybe there is some magic, or maybe even some logic, to that 100 Day Hall of Fame number.

I think I am going to hold off on celebrating for now. It doesn't really feel like I have accomplished anything yet. But, I did do one thing for myself today. I felt like I earned it after 100 days. What did I do you ask?

I finally implemented the "ignore user" function.
Congratulations, sir. You have a pretty epic quit going on.

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April 16th, 2018, 7:47 pm #59

worktowin wrote:
Kybo wrote:Day 100

Thanks for the well wishes and congratulations. But, it honestly is just another day to me.

I like the fact that somebody had the bright idea to put the HOF at 100 days because it has an attainable feel to it. But, once you get here you just kind of look around and realize that today isn't any different than yesterday. And it is probably going to feel exactly the same tomorrow. But, I do feel better about tomorrow than I did 99 days ago. And, I feel better now about the possibility of making it a year than I did 3 months ago. So, maybe there is some magic, or maybe even some logic, to that 100 Day Hall of Fame number.

I think I am going to hold off on celebrating for now. It doesn't really feel like I have accomplished anything yet. But, I did do one thing for myself today. I felt like I earned it after 100 days. What did I do you ask?

I finally implemented the "ignore user" function.
Congratulations, sir. You have a pretty epic quit going on.

One day at a time, there are some great things ahead.

Keep winning.
Thank you, sir.

Oh and more thing I forgot to mention in my earlier post. In classic April '18 fashion, I actually got bumped off roll today on my 100th day. That, my friends, put the biggest smile on my face that I have had all day! roflmao
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May 4th, 2018, 7:16 pm #60

Kybo wrote:Day 93

Monday.....

Is it a blessing or a curse that I still find myself thinking about chew every day? I definitely can't say that I am having cravings, but somehow chew finds it's way into my thoughts several times a day. I find it to be extremely annoying, but I also think it helps strengthen my resolve a little bit. I feel like my inability to control my addiction is really what drove me to go cold turkey in the first place. So, as long as my brain keeps thinking about chew every day it is constantly reminding me that I can't have just one without totally losing control again. It really is an interesting dichotomy. I don't want to think about chew, but I am afraid that I will get complacent if I don't think about chew.




Day 118

I have noticed over the last week, or so, that the only time I really think about chew is when I suddenly realize that I haven't been thinking about chew. I have started noticing that I have been doing the things I used to do with a chew without even thinking about the fact that I used to do them with a chew. I am not sure if that makes sense. I am not sure what to make of this revelation. But, I do think it is worth noting here in my journal. The thoughts are definitely getting fewer and farther in between for me.

I kind of feel like maybe I am not thinking about chew so much because my salivary glands seem to have finally returned to normal. My mouth isn't watering all day or turning into a fountain every time I experience a past trigger. Don't get me wrong. I am not saying I am cured or any other bullshit like that. I just think maybe I have crossed another invisible bridge on the never ending road to recovery. That whole salivary gland issue has definitely been the toughest hurdle for me to clear. And I am happy to say that somewhere around 100 days is when I stopped fixating on my salivary glands every minute of every day. Maybe this has to do with the fact that I finally gave up the fake stuff, or maybe it has to do with my nicotinic acetylcholine receptors finally returning to normal. Or maybe it has to do with the fact that I finally stopped touching my salivary glands every twenty minutes to see if they felt different. Who knows?

It all just might have to do with the fact that I have been extremely busy lately. Things are definitely picking up at work and my younger daughter's Spring soccer season is in full swing. And now that it is finally warming up I also have to find the time to to mow several acres a week and take care of the pond and landscaping. Oh, and now my oldest daughter is home from college which means I have to start working out 3 times a week with her to help her build her strength back up after her ACL surgery.

Maybe I just haven't had the time to think about chew (or anything else for that matter).

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May 11th, 2018, 12:25 pm #61

Proud with you today....no more negotiating with the bitch.....it feels good....was just reading some earlier posts
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May 14th, 2018, 12:07 pm #62

Day 128

Just a few observations.

Man, do I feel good. I have so much more energy than I did six months ago. I can't help wondering if it is just the lack of nicotine/tobacco in my body that is making feel this awesome or if it is the result of all the lifestyle changes combined. I am definitely sleeping better than I have in years. I am eating a whole lot better and I am exercising like a mad man.

I still haven't weighed myself, but I am heading to the store today at lunch to purchase a new belt. I guess my old belt may have finally just stretched out, but the belt I have been wearing for the last year is no longer doing an adequate job of holding up my pants. And I must also say that it is definitely getting easier to button the ballroom jeans every morning.

I have never really been much of a sleeper. Six hours is about all I can hope to achieve on most nights. But, since I quit chewing and started exercising regularly I am now finding that I go to sleep a little earlier in the evening. As a result, I am now routinely getting about seven hours of solid sleep a night. The noticeable downside to this is I am not reading near as often before bed as I used to do. In the past, I used to churn out a couple books a week mostly by reading after everyone else went to bed. That gave me the opportunity to have a big fat chew and read at the same time. Now that I have chosen to live my life without tobacco, I find that reading books just isn't as entertaining for me. I can't say that it bothers me, though.

I will be leaving for my annual trip to the Great White North in 16 days. The thought of trying to make that trip nicotine free scared the shit out of me three months ago. Today, I am not even worried about it. I think I might still have been worried if I didn't feel so fucking incredible. I mean there is just no arguing how much better I feel now. That is all the proof that I need to tell me that I made the right decision.
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May 14th, 2018, 12:23 pm #63

I agree, I have not felt this good in decades....all of the above you mention, exercise, better food and sleep, weight loss...30 lbs so far, had to get a new belt, pants altered....whole nine yards....most notable aside from being less fat is sleep.....I sleep like a baby, not like a vampire
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May 18th, 2018, 1:59 pm #64

Day 132

I don't know why I am posting this other than to tell any newbies out there to not lose hope. You can beat this. Keep putting one foot in front of the other and face the battles one day at a time. Anybody can quit for a day. Eventually those days will start stacking up and you will look around and realize that it really does get easier. Everybody is a little different. For me, I noticed definite changes for the better around Day 4, Day 25, Day 68, and Day 100.

Quitting can be depressing. It is not your imagination. Tobacco has chemically altered your brain to make you more dependent . If that doesn't piss you off I don't know what will. I am living proof that you can beat this addiction if you put your mind to it. I chewed tobacco for 35 years and here I am today at 132 days quit and I feel like a million bucks. And it just keeps getting easier. My emotions have returned to normal. I can actually watch a sad movie again without my eyes watering like a prepubescent little girl who just lost her puppy. And I haven't yelled obscenities out the truck window at anybody for a couple of months now. So things are definitely trending upward.

For me, after the first three weeks this whole quit thing has been almost 100% mental. It hasn't really been much of a battle to be honest. I think I have found it to be easier than my past attempts because I truly wanted to quit this time. I believe that is the secret to being successful. You either want to quit , or you don't. If you don't really want to quit you are just going through the motions looking for an excuse to fail. If you truly want to quit you will throat punch that bitch every time she tries to show her face, no matter the circumstances. And I can tell you that I have beat that bitch with a tire iron so many times that she rarely even peaks over the wall when I go outside now.

I have now moved on from the WWI trench style day to day battles that I had with Nicotine to more of a guerilla style conflict with Complacency. Nicotine is still there every day peaking over the trench wall looking for an opportunity for an all out assault. But she has learned the hard way that I am not going to go down without a hell of a fight. So, Nicotine and I have reached a sort of armistice. A kind of mutual respect, if you will. The war isn't over by any means, but we both now understand that neither side is going to give any ground. But now Complacency has also entered the field of battle. Her tactics are quite different from Nicotine. Complacency hovers off in the distance just out of sight. Lurking in the treeline waiting for the opportunity to strike. There is something out there waiting for us, and it ain't no man.

Keep your powder dry and your head on a swivel! IQWYT!










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May 23rd, 2018, 2:32 pm #65

Day 137

I just posted in Big Savings Wednesday and realized that quitting has now saved me over $500. And I actually think the price of Grizzly has jumped up again since I quit, which means I have actually saved more than that.

I leave for the Great White North one week from today! I got the boat out yesterday for the first time this year. She fired right up and ran like a champ.

I bought a new truck yesterday. I went in to the dealer last Thursday to get an oil change and the Sales Manager came up to me in the waiting room and made me a pretty nice offer for my truck. Over the next few days I haggled him down a few more thousand on a new truck. The end result is I got a brand new truck and lowered my monthly payments by $160. Yeah, I only had 2 more years to pay on my old truck, but I would have eventually bought a new one anyway. Plus, I got rid of one of the few remaining triggers that I still had.
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May 23rd, 2018, 2:55 pm #66

Nice on the new truck Kybo. One that has never nor will ever have tobacco in it! Celebrating vicariously through you...
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May 28th, 2018, 4:15 pm #67

Nice kybo!! Kong’s and queens of quit baby!
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May 28th, 2018, 4:15 pm #68

Kings and queens of quit!!
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June 11th, 2018, 12:38 pm #69

Day 156

I just returned from my annual fishing trip into the Canadian bush. I am not going to lie, the trip turned out to be a lot easier than I thought it would be. I just wasn't sure how my addict brain would handle being surrounded by guys that were chewing every day. That is a trigger that I have managed to avoid for the last five months. As confident as I am in my quit, I still had a little concern that once I was surrounded by chewing tobacco that I might be tempted to have "just one." But, I am proud to say that my experience was quite the opposite. I actually found myself having pity on the guys for still being addicted to the weed. And it turns out that watching other addicts feed their addiction every day seemed to somehow further strengthen my resolve.

On our way to Canada we stopped for the night in a small town in Minnesota. The hotel we stayed in had a small bar. Obviously, we decided to have a few beers in the bar before we hit the sack. The woman that was working the hotel desk was pulling double duty as the bartender. She was probably in her late twenties, quite cute, and was obviously about eight months pregnant. And she was chewing tobacco. That is right. Eight months pregnant and chewing tobacco. Addiction is a powerful thing that is not to be underestimated.

I took 6 cans of the fake stuff with me and never touched it. Didn't chew any gum or seeds or anything else. I found that I didn't need any of it. And you know what? I still had a great time in spite of the horrible fishing weather. I can now check the big one off my list. I have proven that I can enjoy a secluded fishing trip without any form of nicotine.

I will save the rest of my thoughts for another day.
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June 15th, 2018, 5:44 pm #70

Random thoughts from Day 160

It is freaking hot outside and I really need to mow grass when I get home today. There are so many things in my life that have improved drastically since I gave up tobacco, but mowing grass isn't one of them. Before I quit, I used to almost look forward to mowing grass because that was a guaranteed 2+ hours that I could be outside "enjoying" a big chew. Now that I have given up tobacco I have come to the realization that I really don't enjoy the heat and dust that is almost always involved with mowing the grass. I was using the fake stuff this Spring when I mowed, but I have since given the fake stuff up too. My mouth feels so much better now and I just don't see the point of the using SM/Bacc-off if I don't need it. And I definitely don't need it anymore. Maybe I just need to buy a bigger and faster mower.

Speaking of being "hot," I think I am going to have to start going shopping at lunch on Fridays more often. The MILF scenery was incredible today at the two stores that I visited on my lunch. 'boob' 'Popcorn'

In about 3 more weeks I will officially be able to say that this is the second longest I have gone without tobacco since I was about 13 years old. I once made it well beyond two years and apparently thought I was "cured" of my addiction because I thought I could have just one without any repercussions. I didn't come to my senses again until about 4,000 cans later on January 7th, 2018. The second longest I have ever made it was just short of 6 months. So, in three more weeks I will be passed 6 months. 'oh yeah'

I have been thinking about whether I should write a HOF speech. Today is Day 160 for me and I still don't really feel like I have accomplished anything worthy of any kind of Hall of Fame. But, the success of my recent Canadian fishing trip has at least got me thinking about it. To me, that trip was the biggest test I have faced so far. And I came home from that trip totally convinced that I could continue to win every day for the rest of my life. Hell, I didn't even entertain the thought of having a chew on that trip. In fact, I was almost repulsed by the fact that I was thinking about how much I didn't want a chew. So, maybe I should write that speech. But, there is another part of me that says it wouldn't be right for me to write a HOF speech until I have at least surpassed the two year mark..
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June 15th, 2018, 6:41 pm #71

Kybo wrote:Random thoughts from Day 160

It is freaking hot outside and I really need to mow grass when I get home today. There are so many things in my life that have improved drastically since I gave up tobacco, but mowing grass isn't one of them. Before I quit, I used to almost look forward to mowing grass because that was a guaranteed 2+ hours that I could be outside "enjoying" a big chew. Now that I have given up tobacco I have come to the realization that I really don't enjoy the heat and dust that is almost always involved with mowing the grass. I was using the fake stuff this Spring when I mowed, but I have since given the fake stuff up too. My mouth feels so much better now and I just don't see the point of the using SM/Bacc-off if I don't need it. And I definitely don't need it anymore. Maybe I just need to buy a bigger and faster mower.

Speaking of being "hot," I think I am going to have to start going shopping at lunch on Fridays more often. The MILF scenery was incredible today at the two stores that I visited on my lunch. 'boob' 'Popcorn'

In about 3 more weeks I will officially be able to say that this is the second longest I have gone without tobacco since I was about 13 years old. I once made it well beyond two years and apparently thought I was "cured" of my addiction because I thought I could have just one without any repercussions. I didn't come to my senses again until about 4,000 cans later on January 7th, 2018. The second longest I have ever made it was just short of 6 months. So, in three more weeks I will be passed 6 months. 'oh yeah'

I have been thinking about whether I should write a HOF speech. Today is Day 160 for me and I still don't really feel like I have accomplished anything worthy of any kind of Hall of Fame. But, the success of my recent Canadian fishing trip has at least got me thinking about it. To me, that trip was the biggest test I have faced so far. And I came home from that trip totally convinced that I could continue to win every day for the rest of my life. Hell, I didn't even entertain the thought of having a chew on that trip. In fact, I was almost repulsed by the fact that I was thinking about how much I didn't want a chew. So, maybe I should write that speech. But, there is another part of me that says it wouldn't be right for me to write a HOF speech until I have at least surpassed the two year mark..
Note to self... go shopping at noon...

Nice intro update dude! Keep winning. It is balls burning hot here too, and tonight I have to mow my grass. Oh well.

Congratulations on 160 days of win...

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June 25th, 2018, 1:39 am #72

I have to get to Labor Day weekend to break my quit record.....solo quit record. I WONT FEEL RIGHT OR SATISFACTION until I get there...but then it's still ODAAT. I'd still say you've earned a HOF speech.....I say this because this quit feels stronger than anything I've attempted solo before.....stop and smell some roses bro then keep WUPPing.
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June 25th, 2018, 12:02 pm #73

Doofus wrote:I have to get to Labor Day weekend to break my quit record.....solo quit record. I WONT FEEL RIGHT OR SATISFACTION until I get there...but then it's still ODAAT. I'd still say you've earned a HOF speech.....I say this because this quit feels stronger than anything I've attempted solo before.....stop and smell some roses bro then keep WUPPing.
I agree this quit feels stronger to me too. I think it is a combination of a lot of things, but I have already cleared several hurdles this time around that I firmly believe would have "caused" me to fail in the past. The thing that gives the most hope right now is that I go several hours at a time without even thinking about tobacco. And I am not just talking about when I am laying around watching television. I will go hours doing things that I used to 100% associate with chew and not even think about the fact that I am doing whatever it is without a chew. I am getting to the point where I will almost be done with whatever it is I am doing before I even realize that I just did it without a chew. I mowed grass and weedeated for three hours yesterday and didn't think about chew until I was cleaning off the mower after I was done. And even then, the thought I had was, "Wow, I just spent 3 hours mowing and the thought of chew never entered my mind!"
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June 26th, 2018, 12:44 am #74

Kybo wrote:
Doofus wrote:I have to get to Labor Day weekend to break my quit record.....solo quit record. I WONT FEEL RIGHT OR SATISFACTION until I get there...but then it's still ODAAT. I'd still say you've earned a HOF speech.....I say this because this quit feels stronger than anything I've attempted solo before.....stop and smell some roses bro then keep WUPPing.
I agree this quit feels stronger to me too. I think it is a combination of a lot of things, but I have already cleared several hurdles this time around that I firmly believe would have "caused" me to fail in the past. The thing that gives the most hope right now is that I go several hours at a time without even thinking about tobacco. And I am not just talking about when I am laying around watching television. I will go hours doing things that I used to 100% associate with chew and not even think about the fact that I am doing whatever it is without a chew. I am getting to the point where I will almost be done with whatever it is I am doing before I even realize that I just did it without a chew. I mowed grass and weedeated for three hours yesterday and didn't think about chew until I was cleaning off the mower after I was done. And even then, the thought I had was, "Wow, I just spent 3 hours mowing and the thought of chew never entered my mind!"
Yes, I've fished an all night a few times....normally that would have been to or 3 tins.....I've remarked at the dinner for breakfast....wow, didnt even think about a tin all night.
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July 4th, 2018, 3:37 am #75

Day 178

Last month I went in for my work physical. Everything was going great until the doctor stopped and started looking at a spot on my forearm. He wasn't a dermatologist, but he definitely freaked out when he saw the spot. He wanted to know how long it had been there and if it changed at all over the last few months. It was a fairly new spot and it had been changing ever so slowly. I had already noticed it and was watching it pretty closely, but it wasn't raised or bleeding or anything like that. The doctor told me I needed to see a dermatologist ASAP. I saw the dermatologist two weeks ago today.

The dermatologist also freaked out when she saw the spot. She did a punch biopsy on it (and on another weird spot on my leg) and sent them away to be evaluated. Needless to say, the last two weeks have been pretty stressful for me. I went in today to get the sutures removed and find out the results of the biopsies. The thing on my leg turned out to be benign and nothing to worry about. The spot on my arm turned out to be melanoma in situ. It scared the shit out of me when the words came out of her mouth. In all honesty, my life flashed before my eyes. But then she explained that melanoma in situ is basically stage zero melanoma. It was contained in the epidermis and hasn't spread at all. She wants to excise a bigger portion of my skin to be on the safe side, but she said I will be fine. I will just have a zipper scar on my arm and need to be checked regularly for more melanomas. OK, I can live with that.

She talked me into doing a full body scan while I was there to make sure there wasn't any more suspicious spots on me anywhere. I am not going to go into any of the details, but I will say that I was surprised at how thorough she was in her work. My wife rarely touches my junk that much any more.

I told her about my 35 year addiction to tobacco. So, she did a thorough check of my mouth and told me it all looked good. No sign of anything suspicious. Whew! What a relief.

I go back in a couple more weeks to have the excision done on my arm.

I know someday something is actually going to kill me. But that someday isn't going to be today, and it doesn't look like that something is going to be that spot on my arm. Thursday morning I am going to call the doctor that did my physical and thank him for insisting that I go see a dermatologist. He might have saved my life.

The amazing part of this story is that as much as I was stressed out the last two weeks I never even considered having a chew.

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July 19th, 2018, 2:44 am #76

Kybo wrote:Day 178

Last month I went in for my work physical. Everything was going great until the doctor stopped and started looking at a spot on my forearm. He wasn't a dermatologist, but he definitely freaked out when he saw the spot. He wanted to know how long it had been there and if it changed at all over the last few months. It was a fairly new spot and it had been changing ever so slowly. I had already noticed it and was watching it pretty closely, but it wasn't raised or bleeding or anything like that. The doctor told me I needed to see a dermatologist ASAP. I saw the dermatologist two weeks ago today.

The dermatologist also freaked out when she saw the spot. She did a punch biopsy on it (and on another weird spot on my leg) and sent them away to be evaluated. Needless to say, the last two weeks have been pretty stressful for me. I went in today to get the sutures removed and find out the results of the biopsies. The thing on my leg turned out to be benign and nothing to worry about. The spot on my arm turned out to be melanoma in situ. It scared the shit out of me when the words came out of her mouth. In all honesty, my life flashed before my eyes. But then she explained that melanoma in situ is basically stage zero melanoma. It was contained in the epidermis and hasn't spread at all. She wants to excise a bigger portion of my skin to be on the safe side, but she said I will be fine. I will just have a zipper scar on my arm and need to be checked regularly for more melanomas. OK, I can live with that.

She talked me into doing a full body scan while I was there to make sure there wasn't any more suspicious spots on me anywhere. I am not going to go into any of the details, but I will say that I was surprised at how thorough she was in her work. My wife rarely touches my junk that much any more.

I told her about my 35 year addiction to tobacco. So, she did a thorough check of my mouth and told me it all looked good. No sign of anything suspicious. Whew! What a relief.

I go back in a couple more weeks to have the excision done on my arm.

I know someday something is actually going to kill me. But that someday isn't going to be today, and it doesn't look like that something is going to be that spot on my arm. Thursday morning I am going to call the doctor that did my physical and thank him for insisting that I go see a dermatologist. He might have saved my life.

The amazing part of this story is that as much as I was stressed out the last two weeks I never even considered having a chew.
Day 193

I had the spot on my forearm excised this morning. They basically cut a four inch long by two inch wide in the middle diamond shape in my skin and it looked like they removed everything all the way down to the muscle. I about shit my pants when the doc dropped what looked like a half inch thick by four inch long walleye fillet into the specimen cup on the table in front of me.

I turned down the offer for a prescription painkiller because I was honestly afraid it might somehow blur my resolve when it comes to my decision to quit tobacco. So, I am going to stick with Tylenol and Ibuprofen. The doc says the pain will subside after a few days. It is a strange pain. I am not sure if the pain is originating from the actual hole in my arm, or from the tightness of the sutures pulling on my skin. They had a really tough time getting that giant crevice closed up and the skin on my forearm is super tight and getting tighter by the hour as the area starts to swell. The doc warned me upfront that it was going to be a battle to suture because my forearm is pretty muscular and the skin was already tight before the surgery.

The highlight of the whole situation for me was when the nurse was prepping me for the surgery. She was making small talk and asked me if I had any kids. I told her I had two daughters, and she told me that I wouldn't be able to toss them up into the air and catch them for a few weeks after the surgery. I laughed and told her that they were both a little too old for that game. I told her my kids were almost 20 and almost 15 years old. The nurse then picked up my chart and checked my date of birth, and then said she would have never believed I was a day over 35. I think she was serious, but who knows? All I can say is that the smile stayed on my face right up until I could smell my flesh burning. Then that shit got real!

Tomorrow will be 194 days quit for me. I am going to wake up and post my promise just like I have every day since I joined KTC 180 some days ago. I just might have to type with only my left hand.
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July 21st, 2018, 5:45 pm #77

Try having a prostate biopsy.....had the finger test....thought they felt something.....turned out to be nothing butv3 months of limbo scared me shitless
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July 23rd, 2018, 11:43 am #78

Doofus wrote:Try having a prostate biopsy.....had the finger test....thought they felt something.....turned out to be nothing butv3 months of limbo scared me shitless
Ouch! I can't imagine. The waiting is the hardest part.

The last month has been a roller coaster ride for sure. I was stressed as shit for a few weeks over the biopsy. Then the pathology report came back and they told me it was nothing to worry about. Then I went in last week for the excision and the surgeon told me I wasn't out of the woods until the biopsy on the excision was declared clear. I am still waiting to hear back on that.

I obviously haven't been in a great mood lately. But, through it all I am still nicotine free. So I guess I at least have that going for me.
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July 23rd, 2018, 2:24 pm #79

Yeh, they make you sweat it out....3 months from finger test to prostate core sample result to tell me it's just calcium deposits and totally normal. It's a good wake up call, it happened back in January and had a lot to do with waking my ass up. Literally and figuratively, lol....you will be fine, if first biopsy good then the worse it could be is early stage....the key on melanoma is getting it early.....My father in law did not catch it early and it cost him his life......you are nowhere near that territory, easy for me to say I know but trust me....I learned more about skin cancer through him than I ever needed but those full body scans are life savers.
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July 25th, 2018, 4:31 pm #80

Congrats on the second floor brother, you are a rock in April and one Bad Ass Quitter!!!!!

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July 25th, 2018, 6:17 pm #81

Clear margins!!
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July 31st, 2018, 10:46 pm #82

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August 3rd, 2018, 7:13 pm #83

Random ramblings on Day 209
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I thought the scar on my arm was beginning to look a lot better, then I went to the bank today. I was about 15 feet from the teller when he said, "holy cow, what did you do to your arm?" Obviously I am going to need to come up with a somewhat believable badass story so that I can at least get a little entertainment out of this situation.

Since I have now made it to the 2nd floor I have another $400 to spend on frivolous shit. I spent the first $400 I saved from days 1-100 on a badass BBQ grill/smoker. I am still thinking about buying a drone, but damnit I almost have enough to buy a decent rear tine tiller. I could sure use one of those. But, a drone might be fun.

I really do feel pretty damn good. I can honestly say I haven't had anything I would call an actual crave in six months. Sure, I still think about chew every once in awhile. And occasionally my mouth will just start watering for no damn reason. But that is it. Well worth the price of admission if you ask me.

The weirdest part of my quit is that I have basically lost all interest in reading books. Before I chose to quit I was averaging about 2 books a week. I usually waited until everyone else went to bed and then I would throw in a chew and read until I went to bed. After I gave up chew I stayed away from reading for awhile to avoid the obvious trigger situation. But now I just find that I have zero interest in reading altogether. I would almost rather just sit and stare at a wall. I don't think I have read 2 books in the last 6 months.

I finally found something useful to do with our old iphones. When my family upgraded our phones last year I decided to keep the old phones since there wasn't anything wrong with them. Then last week I stumbled across an app called Presence Video Security. This is a free app that you can download on your old phones via your wifi network that turns your old smartphones into security cameras complete with motion detection and a small amount of free cloud storage. I have to admit that I have been totally impressed and I haven't spent a dime on any of it. I now have an iphone 5/camera set up inside the window next to my front door that covers my porch and all the way down my 200 foot long driveway. The motion detection feature picks up cars almost as soon as they turn into my driveway and sounds a small audible alarm from the phone as well as recording 20 seconds of video and sending me a push notification and an email with a link to the video clip. I also have a phone/camera set up inside a window in the back of the house that covers my barn and part of the pond. The cameras aren't much use at night because they don't have night vision, but they do trigger motion from headlights and flashlights. Plus, you can log into presencepro.com and remotely monitor your cameras whenever you want from an app on your current phone or from any pc. And all of the camera phones run on wifi so you don't need to activate the old phones on a cellular network. It obviously isn't a top of the line home security system, but it is free if you have your old smartphones lying around.
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August 3rd, 2018, 10:25 pm #84

Man I'm really curious, what's in the mouth of that northern pike now?
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August 3rd, 2018, 11:24 pm #85

Athan wrote:Man I'm really curious, what's in the mouth of that northern pike now?
I hang a Sammy 100 in the mouth of one and Chatterbait minnow in the mouth of the other one. Those are the lures I caught them on. 'oh yeah'
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August 20th, 2018, 3:44 pm #86

Day 226

Darker Skin Linked to Nicotine Dependence

Stumbled on this article today. I found it interesting, but I thought the conclusion might be a little naive.

The author seems to think the more melanin from environmental sources in your skin, the more predisposed you are to nicotine addiction. He came to this conclusion by measuring the darkness of a person's skin on their foreheads and on their inner arms. The thinking being that the darkness of your inner arm is mostly genetic versus the darkness of your forehead being a combo of genetics and sun exposure. The author found, "the darkness of the forehead was positively correlated to the number of cigarettes smoked per day as well as nicotine dependence, while darkness of the inner arm did not demonstrate this link." So, his conclusion appears to be that the amount of melanin in your skin determines your addiction level to nicotine.

You can read the article for yourself and draw your own conclusions. My first thought when I read the article is that people who work in an office setting aren't going to smoke as many cigarettes as a person who works outside for a living. Common sense would tell you that the guy that works outside is going to have a better opportunity to smoke more cigarettes than the guy that sits in a cubicle 8 hours a day. And, the guy that works outside is also going to get more sun exposure which is going to make his forehead darker. The more nicotine you put into your body the more dependent your body becomes on nicotine.

This study kind of reminds me of the studies in the past that have determined that people that drink diet sodas weigh more on average than people that drink regular sodas. So, the conclusion must be that diet sodas make you overweight. The conclusion couldn't possibly be that people that are already overweight are drinking diet sodas as part of their attempt to lose weight.
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August 21st, 2018, 9:16 pm #87

Kybo wrote: Day 226

Darker Skin Linked to Nicotine Dependence

Stumbled on this article today. I found it interesting, but I thought the conclusion might be a little naive.

The author seems to think the more melanin from environmental sources in your skin, the more predisposed you are to nicotine addiction. He came to this conclusion by measuring the darkness of a person's skin on their foreheads and on their inner arms. The thinking being that the darkness of your inner arm is mostly genetic versus the darkness of your forehead being a combo of genetics and sun exposure. The author found, "the darkness of the forehead was positively correlated to the number of cigarettes smoked per day as well as nicotine dependence, while darkness of the inner arm did not demonstrate this link." So, his conclusion appears to be that the amount of melanin in your skin determines your addiction level to nicotine.

You can read the article for yourself and draw your own conclusions. My first thought when I read the article is that people who work in an office setting aren't going to smoke as many cigarettes as a person who works outside for a living. Common sense would tell you that the guy that works outside is going to have a better opportunity to smoke more cigarettes than the guy that sits in a cubicle 8 hours a day. And, the guy that works outside is also going to get more sun exposure which is going to make his forehead darker. The more nicotine you put into your body the more dependent your body becomes on nicotine.

This study kind of reminds me of the studies in the past that have determined that people that drink diet sodas weigh more on average than people that drink regular sodas. So, the conclusion must be that diet sodas make you overweight. The conclusion couldn't possibly be that people that are already overweight are drinking diet sodas as part of their attempt to lose weight.
In a related story, scientists discover nicotine usage leads to syphilis.
But only in rats who smoke after sex.
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August 23rd, 2018, 2:31 pm #88

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August 23rd, 2018, 4:50 pm #89

Doofus wrote:Getting close to un chartered quit waters.....never been past 7 months in 30 years....222 qlf
I have been farther than this once. But, it feels different this time. I don't know why. Perhaps it has something to do with you posting the same message over and over on everybody's intro pages. Who knows? 'winker'
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August 23rd, 2018, 7:05 pm #90

Kybo wrote:
Doofus wrote:Getting close to un chartered quit waters.....never been past 7 months in 30 years....222 qlf
I have been farther than this once. But, it feels different this time. I don't know why. Perhaps it has something to do with you posting the same message over and over on everybody's intro pages. Who knows? 'winker'
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August 25th, 2018, 1:29 pm #91

quitNWinay wrote:
Kybo wrote:
Doofus wrote:Getting close to un chartered quit waters.....never been past 7 months in 30 years....222 qlf
I have been farther than this once. But, it feels different this time. I don't know why. Perhaps it has something to do with you posting the same message over and over on everybody's intro pages. Who knows? 'winker'
Lol!!!
I have to spread my gospel to the legions, lol.....plus I like seeing my name dominate page 1 of posts:)
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September 5th, 2018, 2:22 pm #92

Day 242

Addiction is a really interesting bastard if you stop to think about it. Yesterday it felt like I was back on day 4 for no apparent reason. I had a splitting headache for several hours, it felt like my eyes were going to pop out of my head, and my salivary glands were aching like crazy. Then, I tossed and turned half the night just like those early days of nicotine withdrawal. It got to the point where I was trying to think if there was any way that somebody could have slipped nicotine into my food/drink. But, I honestly wasn’t around anybody that was even smoking yesterday. That is the first time I have experienced anything like that since my days were in the mid twenties. I feel fantastic again this morning, even though I didn’t sleep worth a shit last night. Weird stuff, indeed.

Early on after I gave up nicotine my biggest battles were with triggers that my mind/body associated with chewing tobacco. As the days, weeks, months and seasons passed I conquered each of those triggers one at a time. Hell, I hardly even think about chew any more when I am fishing or mowing the grass. Now I find that about the only time the bitch sneaks into my mind is when I am doing nothing. Call it complacency, call it boredom, call it whatever you want. I call it the next challenge. And the bright side is that these challenges seem to get easier and easier to conquer every single day.

I look back now and I can remember hoping in my early days that the vets were telling the truth when they said, “it gets better.” Well, my friends, I am here to tell you that it truly does get better. And it truly does get easier. Just keep posting roll and putting one foot in front of the other. Eventually you will look around and realize that everything is better and that quitting does get easier. You will have a few bad days here and there just like I had yesterday. The key is to never forget who you are or where you have been.

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September 7th, 2018, 10:52 pm #93

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September 14th, 2018, 3:17 pm #94

does anybody know if there is a way to change the background color on this new format?  This gives me a headache.
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September 14th, 2018, 3:20 pm #95

Kybo wrote: does anybody know if there is a way to change the background color on this new format?  This gives me a headache.
right? not super stoked on the new layout...Everything seems rather...large confusing and bright...
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September 14th, 2018, 4:27 pm #96

poof
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September 15th, 2018, 2:27 am #97

Seems appropriate:

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September 15th, 2018, 2:31 am #98

poof
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