Time can't heal everything

Time can't heal everything

Logan Gaunt
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Logan Gaunt
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September 20th, 2016, 9:41 pm #1

Logan both loved and hated this place. There was nowhere that he both felt more at peace and more hatred within himself. This was a place he had come to for years, it was a sanctuary but it was also the place that he had become a monster. That he took something for someone that he could never take back. He had changed for the better, but that moment would live in his mind forever. The moment that he had destroyed someone....that he had turned into a monster that literally lacked a conscious.

He sat down against that tree, feeling as if something was calling him back there. Feeling as if maybe if he came here enough, he would be able to find it in himself to forgive himself. To accept it has happened and move on. Deep down though, he knew it would never happen. As long as he lived he would never forgive himself for that moment in time. It was less than an hour of his life, but it would haunt him forever.

Hearing footsteps, he looked up, angry that someone dare disturb him right now. Agony filled his eyes and almost as if something was punishing him, the object of his thoughts appeared. He released a long breath from his nose. "Mercy." He said quietly, not sure if he was imagining it or if it was once again a reality meeting her here. "Why must we always meet here?"

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Mercy Weasley
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September 22nd, 2016, 2:34 am #2

"Maybe the forces that be have a really cruddy sense of humor?" Mercy suggested as she slowly stepped out of the shadows. Summoning her brightest smile, she directed it towards him and wondered whether or not she was insane to not be afraid of him. He was a Gaunt but more than that, he had hurt her and yet she didn't even feel intimidated being in his presence. A niggling thought at the back of her mind caused her to wonder if the change in emotion had anything to do with the physical change she'd been undergoing these past few months.

Subconsciously she placed a hand protectively over her belly and wondered if the change was even remotely obvious. No one at school had said anything and she still felt as if she appeared small but maybe she was deceiving herself. Maybe she really was fat and round and people just didn't want to hurt her feelings. Maybe her illusion of a normal appearance had been compromised as a result of her-

Sudden change.

Merlin, why did she have to call it that every single time?

"Logan," she said, trying to keep her voice as nonchalant as possible. "Could I ask you a personal question?" Her hair was slowly turning pink and she tried really hard to ignore that as she mentally prepared herself to continue talking, at least until she had said all that she needed to.

"You believe in karma right?", she questioned. "Do you believe in the possibility of redemption?" Slowly she reached out for his hand, touching it lightly before slowly bringing it to and placing on her belly. "I'm asking because I- well, I'm not afraid of you and I just-" Her illusion fell making her stomach visible. "I don't want to be alone in this- and I-" She sighed.

"I don't really want you to miss this either."



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Logan Gaunt
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September 22nd, 2016, 3:32 pm #3

"I have no doubt of that." This whole situation was so weird. Yes, he had apologized to her, but that couldn't take away everything that he had done to her. It couldn't take away the pain, the virginity he had stripped her of, the loss of dignity she had. All of it made her feel horrible. None of it was something that he could ever forgive himself for, and yet...somehow it seemed as if she had. Which made her a far bigger and braver person than he could have ever imagined.

It made Ethan's friendship with her make sense. If she could survive what he did to her, and still managed to speak with him, well she was so much stronger than he had ever given her credit for. His name spoken from her lips caused him to look up quickly. There was something about her tone that made him snap out of his thoughts and turn every ounce of his attention to her. Almost as if every word that came out of her lips demanded attention.

His head tilted to one side as her hair went pink. Was this question that embarrassing? He moistened his lips with his tongue feeling as if something life changing was coming. Despite his feelings, he never expected her hand to put his hand on her stomach, and suddenly what she was talking about made sense.

His hand cupped her stomach and his eyes made their way to hers. She thought this was a redemption opportunity? He had caused this...by a hateful urge to break anything and everything up that she had with his brother. Not because he wanted her for himself, but because he had mistakenly believed that she wasn't the right kind of person for Ethan.

He was going to be a father, all because of some hateful actions against her. He lightly rubbed her stomach, his eyes traveling back down to it. "I'm very sorry, Mercy." His voice broke and he looked up at her. "I'm not sure that I believe that there's any hope of redemption for me." He looked down at the ground, unwilling to remove his hand from her stomach. Not wanting to move from the pull that this child had on him already. "I do want to be a part of this...I don't want to miss this. But how could you possibly even stand to look at me after I did what I did?" As an afterthought, Ethan is never going to forgive me for this.

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Mercy Weasley
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September 23rd, 2016, 12:25 pm #4

Logan's hands on her stomach caused a swooshing sensation to swirl about her belly. "I think he likes you," she breathed, trailing his hands across her stomach so that he would be able to feel close to what she was feeling. "He's never been this busy before- I mean sure he just started moving last week but still-" She stopped talking knowing very well that they had other things to discuss outside of the baby who she really wished had a name so that she could discuss him with someone without alluding to the fact that she was indeed pregnant- Then again, maybe now that Logan knew-

She shook her head. Logan knowing didn't mean that the rest of the world could know as well. Ethan would not appreciate her being tainted in this way- not by his own brother. And she would not be able to live with herself if Logan got hurt again because of something he had done to her. She still stood by the opinion that he hadn't deserved the punishment he'd gotten and she'd stand by that opinion no matter how many people tried convincing her it was justified. Rape was wrong no matter what.

"Never mind Ethan," she told him. "I'm asking you to be in your son's life. That's it." Her eyes met his and held his gaze steadily. "I am in no way, shape or form asking you to marry me or even be with me in any particular way- I don't trust you nearly enough for that." Her hair had gone completely pink by now but she ignored how obvious her embarrassment was and soldiered on. "I just want you to go to appointments with me- Feel and see him moving and just- be there to hold him when he's finally here."

Her face took on a pleading expression and she sighed, trying to will it away so that she didn't seem as desperate as she felt. "I haven't told anyone about him and I don't know if I should- if I have it in me to and I've honestly never been this scared in my life Logan but-" She patted her stomach lovingly. "I want this baby- so bad you wouldn't believe. He's the silver lining that appeared under my darkest cloud and I know you were the reason for that cloud but that bad spot-"

"It led us to him and yes, I think you can be redeemed. Anyone can, it's the rule."


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Logan Gaunt
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October 8th, 2016, 12:34 pm #5

He wasn't sure what to think. If he were being honest with himself, he had mixed emotions. There was a part of him that was scared to death. That same part wanted to run away and never look back. The other part was completely awed at the fact that there was a tiny person that he created growing inside of her. Guilt was also heavy with that feeling. Guilt that he had done it in the first place, guilt that he was excited when it he the baby had come to be by him torturing her. "He? You're having a boy? We...is it alright for me to say that?"

There was a huge battle being fought inside his mind. Was he really the right person to raise a child? He wasn't exactly the best role model in the world. They weren't the most loving family in the world. Lia on the other hand was more than capable of being a mom. Perhaps it was selfish to even want a part in the babies life. Thanks to Silas, he was aware of exactly how much pain and humiliation he had put Mercy through.

Logan looked at her hard, almost wondering if she were in her right mind, or if this was all some kind of elaborate joke. However that wasn't the case, her face and actions were enough prove, besides, he had felt the baby move, she couldn't make that happen. Perhaps he was stupid, but he found himself nodding his head. "Okay, if you are sure, then okay." He didn't think that Ethan would hurt a hair on her head. "I need one thing from you, when Ethan finds out...don't try to stop him from anything that he does. He loves you..."

He couldn't even think about being in her position. "Whatever you want to do, it's your decision. I'm sure we could figure out something, if you needed something to...hell I don't know." Logan found himself smiling and shook his head. "You Weasley's are something else. I don't know how you can be so optimistic about things. Tell me, do you believe everyone is good?" He was quick to add, "I'm not mocking you. I'm genuinely curious."

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