Thanks so much for the posts. They really help. As for my mom, she went off the ventilator yesterday afternoon, which
is amazing, as it looked pretty bad when she first was taken to the ER the night before. Back to the hospital in a bit to see what the day brings.
As for me, for those who shared a bit about their difficult roads, know that your stories make me feel less like everything bad is just happening to me. I know so many other who got pregnant and here I am still struggling after so almost 10 years. I've done 10ivfs with my own eggs, and then, this is my 4th donor cycle that I'm on. I got pregnant on my first donor cycle and have a very wonderful 6yo son. But the rest of the cycles have been been riddled with obstacles which seem either the result of bad luck or infinitely avoidable.
I'm continuing my meds just to make sure I give myself the greatest chance for my current slowly rising beta scenario (Ariadne thanks for sharing how you went on and off your meds -- it made me feel less ridiculous!). I'm trying to gain perspective from everyone's story and look beyond the moment and to imagine the possibility of a good ending, if not for this cycle, then with the remaining two embryos. Otherwise, it's probably just me and my little guy. Would like it to be more but he is so terrific and we will find a way.
Will check in with the result of my beta tomorrow after I get word. With thanks. -z
I posted our journey to DS below. Like you, we want a sibling for DS. We are currently waiting for donor embryos to try for a sibling, but I am getting older (almost 49) and DS was such a miracle after so many "failures" that I am trying not to get my hopes up and accepting that he may be our only child. This is a hard road and I am sorry you are going through it. I will be thinking about you as you make your journey through this cycle and the future.