Joined: September 13th, 2009, 11:17 pm

November 2nd, 2014, 1:28 am #11

I don't want your sympathy or your I'm sorry. It did not work out for me yet AGAIN and this time I was 16 wks and great HB at 13 wks and nothing at 16 wks. I am leaving and will probably not come back even though we have 6 frozen embryos. My OE kids are now 10 and 6 and I have been trying since they were 4 and 11 months. I GIVE TOTALLY UP.......... I feel like a loser that will NEVER succeed. I wish we could afford a surrogate....
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. This is so unfair. You are not a loser. You are a very strong woman who has been through so much. Please come back whenever you need support and cyber hugs.
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Joined: July 10th, 2009, 8:18 pm

November 2nd, 2014, 4:21 pm #12

I don't want your sympathy or your I'm sorry. It did not work out for me yet AGAIN and this time I was 16 wks and great HB at 13 wks and nothing at 16 wks. I am leaving and will probably not come back even though we have 6 frozen embryos. My OE kids are now 10 and 6 and I have been trying since they were 4 and 11 months. I GIVE TOTALLY UP.......... I feel like a loser that will NEVER succeed. I wish we could afford a surrogate....
Blows, sucks, stinks, whatever adjective you care to use. I know you've struggled and worked so hard to get this far and it is just not fair why success has to be so darn hard for some of us to achieve. Many of us have had horrible struggles too so while it's a terrible "club" to be in, we can understand wholeheartedly your pain and frustration. The green board was created for these folks and while it hasn't been that active lately, if you care to totally vent over there, I am sure many of us will check in there too to support you. I know there are no words to make it better, but know that you are being thought of and that you are not alone in this fight. Huge hugs to you.
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Joined: November 27th, 2011, 4:22 pm

November 2nd, 2014, 7:07 pm #13

I don't want your sympathy or your I'm sorry. It did not work out for me yet AGAIN and this time I was 16 wks and great HB at 13 wks and nothing at 16 wks. I am leaving and will probably not come back even though we have 6 frozen embryos. My OE kids are now 10 and 6 and I have been trying since they were 4 and 11 months. I GIVE TOTALLY UP.......... I feel like a loser that will NEVER succeed. I wish we could afford a surrogate....
There are simply no words for how much this sucks. I hate that you're going through it.

You are in my thoughts.
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Joined: August 22nd, 2008, 3:29 pm

November 3rd, 2014, 5:44 am #14

I don't want your sympathy or your I'm sorry. It did not work out for me yet AGAIN and this time I was 16 wks and great HB at 13 wks and nothing at 16 wks. I am leaving and will probably not come back even though we have 6 frozen embryos. My OE kids are now 10 and 6 and I have been trying since they were 4 and 11 months. I GIVE TOTALLY UP.......... I feel like a loser that will NEVER succeed. I wish we could afford a surrogate....
I don't understand why these things happen but I do believe after having lost a few pgcies as well that my soulbabies came to teach me great lessons and while they never took a breath, they brought more to the world than if they had lived a lifetime. As a result of their "being," I became more compassionate, loving and patient as a result of losing them. I changed as a mother. You will have to find your own beliefs over why this has occurred and understand with time how it will impact your life but know you are never alone. There is a wonderful group of compassionate and caring women with open arms on this board.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

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Joined: October 8th, 2008, 7:27 pm

November 3rd, 2014, 11:14 am #15

I don't want your sympathy or your I'm sorry. It did not work out for me yet AGAIN and this time I was 16 wks and great HB at 13 wks and nothing at 16 wks. I am leaving and will probably not come back even though we have 6 frozen embryos. My OE kids are now 10 and 6 and I have been trying since they were 4 and 11 months. I GIVE TOTALLY UP.......... I feel like a loser that will NEVER succeed. I wish we could afford a surrogate....
It's crap, totally crap - and devastating. I echo what Lovethebeach said about the green board - 'Still trying to conceive' - this place saved my life, my sanity and helped me succeed when I just wanted give up after my DE miscarriage.
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Joined: February 16th, 2010, 2:25 am

November 4th, 2014, 11:13 am #16

I don't want your sympathy or your I'm sorry. It did not work out for me yet AGAIN and this time I was 16 wks and great HB at 13 wks and nothing at 16 wks. I am leaving and will probably not come back even though we have 6 frozen embryos. My OE kids are now 10 and 6 and I have been trying since they were 4 and 11 months. I GIVE TOTALLY UP.......... I feel like a loser that will NEVER succeed. I wish we could afford a surrogate....
Wanted to let you know that you're in my thoughts. Sending you hugs.
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Joined: May 20th, 2008, 4:36 am

November 5th, 2014, 5:36 pm #17

I don't want your sympathy or your I'm sorry. It did not work out for me yet AGAIN and this time I was 16 wks and great HB at 13 wks and nothing at 16 wks. I am leaving and will probably not come back even though we have 6 frozen embryos. My OE kids are now 10 and 6 and I have been trying since they were 4 and 11 months. I GIVE TOTALLY UP.......... I feel like a loser that will NEVER succeed. I wish we could afford a surrogate....
I have no words, just sending cyber hugs. We are always here for you and take good care of yourself. I too wish I could afford a GC to have another one.
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Joined: June 5th, 2011, 4:39 pm

November 7th, 2014, 1:41 am #18

I don't want your sympathy or your I'm sorry. It did not work out for me yet AGAIN and this time I was 16 wks and great HB at 13 wks and nothing at 16 wks. I am leaving and will probably not come back even though we have 6 frozen embryos. My OE kids are now 10 and 6 and I have been trying since they were 4 and 11 months. I GIVE TOTALLY UP.......... I feel like a loser that will NEVER succeed. I wish we could afford a surrogate....
I am grateful for all your empathy and kind words. Tomorrow is my D & C. The only good thing is I feel better this wk for the first time in 4 months.

We do have 6 frosties left and I will transfer them in the future.

I don't think I will be coming back to the boards for a while, if ever. I am burned out and really can not support others appropriately. The whole reason for these boards is to give and receive support and I feel like my participation will only be to receive and I don't feel comfortable with this one sided relationship.

Good luck to everyone who is pregnant and those that are currently TTC. I wish everyone the absolute best.

Goodbye for now,
FB
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Joined: September 16th, 2011, 1:39 am

November 7th, 2014, 3:23 pm #19

We are always here if and when you are ready to come back. Please take good care of yourself.
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