Hi, all. Had another wake up at 4:30 am fearing de won't work night. We plan on cycling for the first time ever starting late fall (no oe, since I was diagnosed with pof at age 36). I'll be doing out of town shared risk.
I can't shake the feeling that I have something else wrong...though my ultrasounds and hsg were normal last year and I have no signs of immune issues. Has anyone had this feeling? Is there anything I can do medically to help assuage this? I went to therapy a few times when first facing the pof diagnosis, but all they kept saying was don't count your chickens, cross that bridge, etc. Lo and behold, pof was right and the worst to date was true.
The hardest part was that when I was first dealing with infert, I woke up late at night fearing my eggs were bad. And now here I am.
Hi Macrita- I understand your fear as infertility comes as a shock to all of us, especially at your relatively young age.
I do not have as much experience as some of the well versed ladies on this board, but wanted to say that some of this process is a leap of faith.
Most of us would prefer to do some extensive, but fast research to rule out issues in advance of very costly procedures. On the other hand I find some clinics prefer to cycle first, ask questions later- naturally at the expense of the patient's resources.
I ended up approaching my GP who is also an endocrinologist to run several panels after a OE spontaneous pg ended in m/c. Unfortunately, nothing was conclusive and after that we went ahead with our first DE round.
I noticed you mentioned you were planning a shared risk cycle. My DH and I chose to do this too, as it felt like better bet and gave us some security. I have followed a few women on these boards through cycles and really noticed a lower amount of stress on some of the women who were involved in a guarantee or shared risk program (sorry if I seem like and advertisement at all...I am not). And when it came to our first round and initial BFN, while very sad, at least we felt we had 3 more shots and a guarantee at the end if we had to resort to Plan C, adoption for us.
My DH and I have since been through our second DE attempt and happily find ourselves at 9 wks pg. My second round, while I hope you will not have to get to round two, was easier to approach and I tried to be less tense about the whole process and feel that may have attributed to my success. I guess it was the leap of faith and if all else failed, I could try yet again.
I encourage you to have your RE or an endocrinologist run some tests. Try to get yourself in a calm place in your life. And because some of it is very much out of our control, when you do cycle- try to be as peaceful as possible.
Now I hope some women who have more experience on the medical ins and outs of cycling can give you some input on pre-cycle testing!!
Best to you!