update on my marriage

update on my marriage

Joined: June 20th, 2006, 2:07 am

April 24th, 2012, 5:49 pm #1

well, looks like the storm is over (for now, I guess. Don't want to hope too hard in case the midlife crisis isn't quite done giving yet)

Sometime last week DH and I had a good talk. I also emailed him some points to consider and just when I came to terms with, yes, I would be fine-dandy without his love and help for the rest of my days, he comes around.

He still hasn't "friended" me on FB (I unfriended him, better this way than change marital status and create an upheaval among our friends--very few people know about this struggle we've been having) and told him that he can "friend" me when he decides to be my husband again. I was fairly mad at that point. heh.

He seems more at peace right now. More comfortable at home and with me too.

I hope that he and I can reconnect with the couple we were before kids entered our lives and life got so hectic and so stressful with making a living.

When I googled midlife crisis, it listed everything he's going through. everything. Even down to the typical triggers.

I hope that from here on out, he can feel better in his skin and life choices and me too.

Thank you all for your loving support and carrying me through this dark time. This place is a refuge for me.


hormonally, I am steadily marching towards menopause. My moods swing up and down so much that I am beginning to question my sanity LOL. Today is day 14 and the last day of prometrium, to bring on AF. The dr I saw said that if it triggers an AF, then I am producing my own estrogen. I see the Dr again in 2 weeks and I'll see what my blood tests told him. My last blood test on this had my estrogen really low and my fsh in the 70s. But that was with my GP. This Dr is specialized in this (his clinic is for midlife and pms--he's also a fert Dr, a friend saw him years ago)
That prometrium, wow. It really knocks me out. It's the pearls, by mouth, two in the evening. He told me to take it right before bed because it'll cause drowsiness and he wasn't kidding. I am sleeping better and I almost want him to give me more so I can finally get decent sleep at night LOL
btw, this cycle is long, I am on day 80? close to it anyways. He had done an u/s (14 days ago) and saw a lining and two follicles. Felt weird hearing about those follies.
xo
Julie


me:43, DH 44
FSH 26
DS: born by c-sec Apr15'03, 9lbs5oz 41wks gest. (after 4 years of ttc, starting in 1998)
DD born by c-sec Oct 13 2007, 8lbs13oz 39wk gest. (after just under 3 years of ttc)
~~DS was conceived naturally the cycle following a cancelled DE IVF, using my good friend's eggs. She was on the verge of hyperstimming.
~~DD's nat conception I attribute to using OPKs like a crazy nut, eating grapefruit daily and using preseed. also 5 cycles of TCM ending 2 cycles before that lucky cycle.
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Joined: November 8th, 2005, 3:01 pm

April 24th, 2012, 5:59 pm #2

Some things that pop into my mind ...

How do you feel about him deciding to come back ? You said that just as you were fine and dandy without him, he comes back. We're friends right ... so I can say what's on my mind ... it seems one-sided. I am glad glad glad that he is seeing some sense, I am just worried about you should he decide that, no actually this is not what I wants. Perhaps he saw something in the emails, something that woke him up to the twit he has been ?

Sheesh, 80 days ..... I am not quite there yet so a bit behind on current remedies etc. It sounds as if you will have some good answers though in a couple of weeks as to where your body is hormonally and future treatments (for your own well being). I imagine that must have been SO weird hearing about follicles - did it make you nostalgic for babies !!

Glad to hear from you JM
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April 24th, 2012, 6:15 pm #3

well, looks like the storm is over (for now, I guess. Don't want to hope too hard in case the midlife crisis isn't quite done giving yet)

Sometime last week DH and I had a good talk. I also emailed him some points to consider and just when I came to terms with, yes, I would be fine-dandy without his love and help for the rest of my days, he comes around.

He still hasn't "friended" me on FB (I unfriended him, better this way than change marital status and create an upheaval among our friends--very few people know about this struggle we've been having) and told him that he can "friend" me when he decides to be my husband again. I was fairly mad at that point. heh.

He seems more at peace right now. More comfortable at home and with me too.

I hope that he and I can reconnect with the couple we were before kids entered our lives and life got so hectic and so stressful with making a living.

When I googled midlife crisis, it listed everything he's going through. everything. Even down to the typical triggers.

I hope that from here on out, he can feel better in his skin and life choices and me too.

Thank you all for your loving support and carrying me through this dark time. This place is a refuge for me.


hormonally, I am steadily marching towards menopause. My moods swing up and down so much that I am beginning to question my sanity LOL. Today is day 14 and the last day of prometrium, to bring on AF. The dr I saw said that if it triggers an AF, then I am producing my own estrogen. I see the Dr again in 2 weeks and I'll see what my blood tests told him. My last blood test on this had my estrogen really low and my fsh in the 70s. But that was with my GP. This Dr is specialized in this (his clinic is for midlife and pms--he's also a fert Dr, a friend saw him years ago)
That prometrium, wow. It really knocks me out. It's the pearls, by mouth, two in the evening. He told me to take it right before bed because it'll cause drowsiness and he wasn't kidding. I am sleeping better and I almost want him to give me more so I can finally get decent sleep at night LOL
btw, this cycle is long, I am on day 80? close to it anyways. He had done an u/s (14 days ago) and saw a lining and two follicles. Felt weird hearing about those follies.
xo
Julie


me:43, DH 44
FSH 26
DS: born by c-sec Apr15'03, 9lbs5oz 41wks gest. (after 4 years of ttc, starting in 1998)
DD born by c-sec Oct 13 2007, 8lbs13oz 39wk gest. (after just under 3 years of ttc)
~~DS was conceived naturally the cycle following a cancelled DE IVF, using my good friend's eggs. She was on the verge of hyperstimming.
~~DD's nat conception I attribute to using OPKs like a crazy nut, eating grapefruit daily and using preseed. also 5 cycles of TCM ending 2 cycles before that lucky cycle.
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<div></div><div>After all it sums up to one's state of mind.</div><div></div><div> </div><div>Like you, I've been there.</div><div>Just as I accepted life w/o my ex, he came back.</div><div>(If you follow my story, you'd remember that I'm twice divorced from the same man) </div><div>I would have stayed with him for ever if he wouldn't swing as many times.</div><div></div><div> </div><div>I hope you'll never go through separation again.</div><div>Adee</div>
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Joined: January 27th, 2003, 11:09 pm

April 24th, 2012, 7:13 pm #4

well, looks like the storm is over (for now, I guess. Don't want to hope too hard in case the midlife crisis isn't quite done giving yet)

Sometime last week DH and I had a good talk. I also emailed him some points to consider and just when I came to terms with, yes, I would be fine-dandy without his love and help for the rest of my days, he comes around.

He still hasn't "friended" me on FB (I unfriended him, better this way than change marital status and create an upheaval among our friends--very few people know about this struggle we've been having) and told him that he can "friend" me when he decides to be my husband again. I was fairly mad at that point. heh.

He seems more at peace right now. More comfortable at home and with me too.

I hope that he and I can reconnect with the couple we were before kids entered our lives and life got so hectic and so stressful with making a living.

When I googled midlife crisis, it listed everything he's going through. everything. Even down to the typical triggers.

I hope that from here on out, he can feel better in his skin and life choices and me too.

Thank you all for your loving support and carrying me through this dark time. This place is a refuge for me.


hormonally, I am steadily marching towards menopause. My moods swing up and down so much that I am beginning to question my sanity LOL. Today is day 14 and the last day of prometrium, to bring on AF. The dr I saw said that if it triggers an AF, then I am producing my own estrogen. I see the Dr again in 2 weeks and I'll see what my blood tests told him. My last blood test on this had my estrogen really low and my fsh in the 70s. But that was with my GP. This Dr is specialized in this (his clinic is for midlife and pms--he's also a fert Dr, a friend saw him years ago)
That prometrium, wow. It really knocks me out. It's the pearls, by mouth, two in the evening. He told me to take it right before bed because it'll cause drowsiness and he wasn't kidding. I am sleeping better and I almost want him to give me more so I can finally get decent sleep at night LOL
btw, this cycle is long, I am on day 80? close to it anyways. He had done an u/s (14 days ago) and saw a lining and two follicles. Felt weird hearing about those follies.
xo
Julie


me:43, DH 44
FSH 26
DS: born by c-sec Apr15'03, 9lbs5oz 41wks gest. (after 4 years of ttc, starting in 1998)
DD born by c-sec Oct 13 2007, 8lbs13oz 39wk gest. (after just under 3 years of ttc)
~~DS was conceived naturally the cycle following a cancelled DE IVF, using my good friend's eggs. She was on the verge of hyperstimming.
~~DD's nat conception I attribute to using OPKs like a crazy nut, eating grapefruit daily and using preseed. also 5 cycles of TCM ending 2 cycles before that lucky cycle.
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though I kind of agree that Victoria brings up a good point. I hope this really is what you both want, as you have been best friends for so long (despite what your relationship on FB declares) and you just both seem so good together. And perhaps this will be the start of something new and better, rather than a return to what was?

xoxoxo
MM
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Joined: February 16th, 2006, 6:45 pm

April 24th, 2012, 7:40 pm #5

well, looks like the storm is over (for now, I guess. Don't want to hope too hard in case the midlife crisis isn't quite done giving yet)

Sometime last week DH and I had a good talk. I also emailed him some points to consider and just when I came to terms with, yes, I would be fine-dandy without his love and help for the rest of my days, he comes around.

He still hasn't "friended" me on FB (I unfriended him, better this way than change marital status and create an upheaval among our friends--very few people know about this struggle we've been having) and told him that he can "friend" me when he decides to be my husband again. I was fairly mad at that point. heh.

He seems more at peace right now. More comfortable at home and with me too.

I hope that he and I can reconnect with the couple we were before kids entered our lives and life got so hectic and so stressful with making a living.

When I googled midlife crisis, it listed everything he's going through. everything. Even down to the typical triggers.

I hope that from here on out, he can feel better in his skin and life choices and me too.

Thank you all for your loving support and carrying me through this dark time. This place is a refuge for me.


hormonally, I am steadily marching towards menopause. My moods swing up and down so much that I am beginning to question my sanity LOL. Today is day 14 and the last day of prometrium, to bring on AF. The dr I saw said that if it triggers an AF, then I am producing my own estrogen. I see the Dr again in 2 weeks and I'll see what my blood tests told him. My last blood test on this had my estrogen really low and my fsh in the 70s. But that was with my GP. This Dr is specialized in this (his clinic is for midlife and pms--he's also a fert Dr, a friend saw him years ago)
That prometrium, wow. It really knocks me out. It's the pearls, by mouth, two in the evening. He told me to take it right before bed because it'll cause drowsiness and he wasn't kidding. I am sleeping better and I almost want him to give me more so I can finally get decent sleep at night LOL
btw, this cycle is long, I am on day 80? close to it anyways. He had done an u/s (14 days ago) and saw a lining and two follicles. Felt weird hearing about those follies.
xo
Julie


me:43, DH 44
FSH 26
DS: born by c-sec Apr15'03, 9lbs5oz 41wks gest. (after 4 years of ttc, starting in 1998)
DD born by c-sec Oct 13 2007, 8lbs13oz 39wk gest. (after just under 3 years of ttc)
~~DS was conceived naturally the cycle following a cancelled DE IVF, using my good friend's eggs. She was on the verge of hyperstimming.
~~DD's nat conception I attribute to using OPKs like a crazy nut, eating grapefruit daily and using preseed. also 5 cycles of TCM ending 2 cycles before that lucky cycle.
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for you. I hope this is merely the acting out of a midlife crisis and that you'll be able to weather the storm as long as this is what you want. I'd have a hard time taking someone back who acted like that, but only you know what is best for your situation.

Good luck and stay strong!

cy
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Joined: January 1st, 1970, 12:00 am

April 24th, 2012, 7:46 pm #6

well, looks like the storm is over (for now, I guess. Don't want to hope too hard in case the midlife crisis isn't quite done giving yet)

Sometime last week DH and I had a good talk. I also emailed him some points to consider and just when I came to terms with, yes, I would be fine-dandy without his love and help for the rest of my days, he comes around.

He still hasn't "friended" me on FB (I unfriended him, better this way than change marital status and create an upheaval among our friends--very few people know about this struggle we've been having) and told him that he can "friend" me when he decides to be my husband again. I was fairly mad at that point. heh.

He seems more at peace right now. More comfortable at home and with me too.

I hope that he and I can reconnect with the couple we were before kids entered our lives and life got so hectic and so stressful with making a living.

When I googled midlife crisis, it listed everything he's going through. everything. Even down to the typical triggers.

I hope that from here on out, he can feel better in his skin and life choices and me too.

Thank you all for your loving support and carrying me through this dark time. This place is a refuge for me.


hormonally, I am steadily marching towards menopause. My moods swing up and down so much that I am beginning to question my sanity LOL. Today is day 14 and the last day of prometrium, to bring on AF. The dr I saw said that if it triggers an AF, then I am producing my own estrogen. I see the Dr again in 2 weeks and I'll see what my blood tests told him. My last blood test on this had my estrogen really low and my fsh in the 70s. But that was with my GP. This Dr is specialized in this (his clinic is for midlife and pms--he's also a fert Dr, a friend saw him years ago)
That prometrium, wow. It really knocks me out. It's the pearls, by mouth, two in the evening. He told me to take it right before bed because it'll cause drowsiness and he wasn't kidding. I am sleeping better and I almost want him to give me more so I can finally get decent sleep at night LOL
btw, this cycle is long, I am on day 80? close to it anyways. He had done an u/s (14 days ago) and saw a lining and two follicles. Felt weird hearing about those follies.
xo
Julie


me:43, DH 44
FSH 26
DS: born by c-sec Apr15'03, 9lbs5oz 41wks gest. (after 4 years of ttc, starting in 1998)
DD born by c-sec Oct 13 2007, 8lbs13oz 39wk gest. (after just under 3 years of ttc)
~~DS was conceived naturally the cycle following a cancelled DE IVF, using my good friend's eggs. She was on the verge of hyperstimming.
~~DD's nat conception I attribute to using OPKs like a crazy nut, eating grapefruit daily and using preseed. also 5 cycles of TCM ending 2 cycles before that lucky cycle.
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and I hope that your dh gives you no more grief.

I had follies at an u/s last year, too! Age 51.5! But I was told they could be empty. :-/

Luckily, I haven't needed any hrt for several weeks, so I'm hoping this means I'm past the hot flashes. xxxxxxxxxx fingers crossed!




Keiki's Makuahine (Keiki's Mom) 51, dh 52
Keiki: b. 2002 after 3 months bedrest
Natural conception following ZIFT/chem. pg

Olivia: b. 1999 d. 1999
28-week preemie, ptl cause unknown
Natural conception after 1 mc

ttc since 1998
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April 24th, 2012, 7:54 pm #7

well, looks like the storm is over (for now, I guess. Don't want to hope too hard in case the midlife crisis isn't quite done giving yet)

Sometime last week DH and I had a good talk. I also emailed him some points to consider and just when I came to terms with, yes, I would be fine-dandy without his love and help for the rest of my days, he comes around.

He still hasn't "friended" me on FB (I unfriended him, better this way than change marital status and create an upheaval among our friends--very few people know about this struggle we've been having) and told him that he can "friend" me when he decides to be my husband again. I was fairly mad at that point. heh.

He seems more at peace right now. More comfortable at home and with me too.

I hope that he and I can reconnect with the couple we were before kids entered our lives and life got so hectic and so stressful with making a living.

When I googled midlife crisis, it listed everything he's going through. everything. Even down to the typical triggers.

I hope that from here on out, he can feel better in his skin and life choices and me too.

Thank you all for your loving support and carrying me through this dark time. This place is a refuge for me.


hormonally, I am steadily marching towards menopause. My moods swing up and down so much that I am beginning to question my sanity LOL. Today is day 14 and the last day of prometrium, to bring on AF. The dr I saw said that if it triggers an AF, then I am producing my own estrogen. I see the Dr again in 2 weeks and I'll see what my blood tests told him. My last blood test on this had my estrogen really low and my fsh in the 70s. But that was with my GP. This Dr is specialized in this (his clinic is for midlife and pms--he's also a fert Dr, a friend saw him years ago)
That prometrium, wow. It really knocks me out. It's the pearls, by mouth, two in the evening. He told me to take it right before bed because it'll cause drowsiness and he wasn't kidding. I am sleeping better and I almost want him to give me more so I can finally get decent sleep at night LOL
btw, this cycle is long, I am on day 80? close to it anyways. He had done an u/s (14 days ago) and saw a lining and two follicles. Felt weird hearing about those follies.
xo
Julie


me:43, DH 44
FSH 26
DS: born by c-sec Apr15'03, 9lbs5oz 41wks gest. (after 4 years of ttc, starting in 1998)
DD born by c-sec Oct 13 2007, 8lbs13oz 39wk gest. (after just under 3 years of ttc)
~~DS was conceived naturally the cycle following a cancelled DE IVF, using my good friend's eggs. She was on the verge of hyperstimming.
~~DD's nat conception I attribute to using OPKs like a crazy nut, eating grapefruit daily and using preseed. also 5 cycles of TCM ending 2 cycles before that lucky cycle.
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...as long as you are happy, I'm happy for you.

I agree with the others, esp. Victoria, MM and Cy, but you are a smart and strong woman, and I am confident that you are turning, or will turn, this turn of events into a positive chapter of your marriage/life. Whatever the outcome, you now know that you are stronger and more resilient than you realized, and that's a priceless life lesson not just for you, but for your kids.

My best to all of you--for many more better days ahead!!

xoxox,
k.
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April 24th, 2012, 9:23 pm #8

well, looks like the storm is over (for now, I guess. Don't want to hope too hard in case the midlife crisis isn't quite done giving yet)

Sometime last week DH and I had a good talk. I also emailed him some points to consider and just when I came to terms with, yes, I would be fine-dandy without his love and help for the rest of my days, he comes around.

He still hasn't "friended" me on FB (I unfriended him, better this way than change marital status and create an upheaval among our friends--very few people know about this struggle we've been having) and told him that he can "friend" me when he decides to be my husband again. I was fairly mad at that point. heh.

He seems more at peace right now. More comfortable at home and with me too.

I hope that he and I can reconnect with the couple we were before kids entered our lives and life got so hectic and so stressful with making a living.

When I googled midlife crisis, it listed everything he's going through. everything. Even down to the typical triggers.

I hope that from here on out, he can feel better in his skin and life choices and me too.

Thank you all for your loving support and carrying me through this dark time. This place is a refuge for me.


hormonally, I am steadily marching towards menopause. My moods swing up and down so much that I am beginning to question my sanity LOL. Today is day 14 and the last day of prometrium, to bring on AF. The dr I saw said that if it triggers an AF, then I am producing my own estrogen. I see the Dr again in 2 weeks and I'll see what my blood tests told him. My last blood test on this had my estrogen really low and my fsh in the 70s. But that was with my GP. This Dr is specialized in this (his clinic is for midlife and pms--he's also a fert Dr, a friend saw him years ago)
That prometrium, wow. It really knocks me out. It's the pearls, by mouth, two in the evening. He told me to take it right before bed because it'll cause drowsiness and he wasn't kidding. I am sleeping better and I almost want him to give me more so I can finally get decent sleep at night LOL
btw, this cycle is long, I am on day 80? close to it anyways. He had done an u/s (14 days ago) and saw a lining and two follicles. Felt weird hearing about those follies.
xo
Julie


me:43, DH 44
FSH 26
DS: born by c-sec Apr15'03, 9lbs5oz 41wks gest. (after 4 years of ttc, starting in 1998)
DD born by c-sec Oct 13 2007, 8lbs13oz 39wk gest. (after just under 3 years of ttc)
~~DS was conceived naturally the cycle following a cancelled DE IVF, using my good friend's eggs. She was on the verge of hyperstimming.
~~DD's nat conception I attribute to using OPKs like a crazy nut, eating grapefruit daily and using preseed. also 5 cycles of TCM ending 2 cycles before that lucky cycle.
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I am glad to see you and your husband continue to work on things to find the best decision for your family. I do hope you enjoyed at least for a split second, your time away.
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April 25th, 2012, 1:30 am #9

well, looks like the storm is over (for now, I guess. Don't want to hope too hard in case the midlife crisis isn't quite done giving yet)

Sometime last week DH and I had a good talk. I also emailed him some points to consider and just when I came to terms with, yes, I would be fine-dandy without his love and help for the rest of my days, he comes around.

He still hasn't "friended" me on FB (I unfriended him, better this way than change marital status and create an upheaval among our friends--very few people know about this struggle we've been having) and told him that he can "friend" me when he decides to be my husband again. I was fairly mad at that point. heh.

He seems more at peace right now. More comfortable at home and with me too.

I hope that he and I can reconnect with the couple we were before kids entered our lives and life got so hectic and so stressful with making a living.

When I googled midlife crisis, it listed everything he's going through. everything. Even down to the typical triggers.

I hope that from here on out, he can feel better in his skin and life choices and me too.

Thank you all for your loving support and carrying me through this dark time. This place is a refuge for me.


hormonally, I am steadily marching towards menopause. My moods swing up and down so much that I am beginning to question my sanity LOL. Today is day 14 and the last day of prometrium, to bring on AF. The dr I saw said that if it triggers an AF, then I am producing my own estrogen. I see the Dr again in 2 weeks and I'll see what my blood tests told him. My last blood test on this had my estrogen really low and my fsh in the 70s. But that was with my GP. This Dr is specialized in this (his clinic is for midlife and pms--he's also a fert Dr, a friend saw him years ago)
That prometrium, wow. It really knocks me out. It's the pearls, by mouth, two in the evening. He told me to take it right before bed because it'll cause drowsiness and he wasn't kidding. I am sleeping better and I almost want him to give me more so I can finally get decent sleep at night LOL
btw, this cycle is long, I am on day 80? close to it anyways. He had done an u/s (14 days ago) and saw a lining and two follicles. Felt weird hearing about those follies.
xo
Julie


me:43, DH 44
FSH 26
DS: born by c-sec Apr15'03, 9lbs5oz 41wks gest. (after 4 years of ttc, starting in 1998)
DD born by c-sec Oct 13 2007, 8lbs13oz 39wk gest. (after just under 3 years of ttc)
~~DS was conceived naturally the cycle following a cancelled DE IVF, using my good friend's eggs. She was on the verge of hyperstimming.
~~DD's nat conception I attribute to using OPKs like a crazy nut, eating grapefruit daily and using preseed. also 5 cycles of TCM ending 2 cycles before that lucky cycle.
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I have to tell you how impressed I am with how you have handled this and what a lucky man your DH is. I hope he realizes that not all women would be nearly as patient as you have been through all this, you have a such a big heart and you must love him beyond words because I am not sure I would have stuck it out. I am relieved for you and love hearing your sense of calmness and happiness. Really thrilled for you and your family.
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April 25th, 2012, 1:21 pm #10

well, looks like the storm is over (for now, I guess. Don't want to hope too hard in case the midlife crisis isn't quite done giving yet)

Sometime last week DH and I had a good talk. I also emailed him some points to consider and just when I came to terms with, yes, I would be fine-dandy without his love and help for the rest of my days, he comes around.

He still hasn't "friended" me on FB (I unfriended him, better this way than change marital status and create an upheaval among our friends--very few people know about this struggle we've been having) and told him that he can "friend" me when he decides to be my husband again. I was fairly mad at that point. heh.

He seems more at peace right now. More comfortable at home and with me too.

I hope that he and I can reconnect with the couple we were before kids entered our lives and life got so hectic and so stressful with making a living.

When I googled midlife crisis, it listed everything he's going through. everything. Even down to the typical triggers.

I hope that from here on out, he can feel better in his skin and life choices and me too.

Thank you all for your loving support and carrying me through this dark time. This place is a refuge for me.


hormonally, I am steadily marching towards menopause. My moods swing up and down so much that I am beginning to question my sanity LOL. Today is day 14 and the last day of prometrium, to bring on AF. The dr I saw said that if it triggers an AF, then I am producing my own estrogen. I see the Dr again in 2 weeks and I'll see what my blood tests told him. My last blood test on this had my estrogen really low and my fsh in the 70s. But that was with my GP. This Dr is specialized in this (his clinic is for midlife and pms--he's also a fert Dr, a friend saw him years ago)
That prometrium, wow. It really knocks me out. It's the pearls, by mouth, two in the evening. He told me to take it right before bed because it'll cause drowsiness and he wasn't kidding. I am sleeping better and I almost want him to give me more so I can finally get decent sleep at night LOL
btw, this cycle is long, I am on day 80? close to it anyways. He had done an u/s (14 days ago) and saw a lining and two follicles. Felt weird hearing about those follies.
xo
Julie


me:43, DH 44
FSH 26
DS: born by c-sec Apr15'03, 9lbs5oz 41wks gest. (after 4 years of ttc, starting in 1998)
DD born by c-sec Oct 13 2007, 8lbs13oz 39wk gest. (after just under 3 years of ttc)
~~DS was conceived naturally the cycle following a cancelled DE IVF, using my good friend's eggs. She was on the verge of hyperstimming.
~~DD's nat conception I attribute to using OPKs like a crazy nut, eating grapefruit daily and using preseed. also 5 cycles of TCM ending 2 cycles before that lucky cycle.
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OMG - I totally know this man....I married him too!

What attracted him to you in the first place was the challenge - someone aloof perhaps to his existence - unaware of his initial overtures? The first words I ever said to my DH were..."Why don't you kiss my a$$?" Apparently those five words were like a branding iron on his heart! In 25 years of our relationship - I have learned that tears and pining after him are not as effective as ignoring a conflict and moving forward as if his actions carry no weight.

During a conflict, there is an initial shockwave and a void - a desperation that our world has been knocked askew...we will cry out and give off the signals of our own needs for things to remain the same - a state of being that is in complete opposition to what attracted that man in the first place. He was never attracted to someone with needs....he was attracted to someone who had NO needs.

"...and just when I came to terms with, yes, I would be fine-dandy without his love and help for the rest of my days, he comes around."

The unbiased translation of the outsider who has been there too - "...and just when you restored yourself as a vital and strong woman aloof to his whims and antics, you became desirable again as a challenge!"

You are on a hot wire my dear...it's a delicate dance of cat and mouse - wanting to throw yourself after your heart but remaining just a hint out of reach...enough to maintain his interest.

Isn't love grand? I am glad for the reconciliation - and while I do not wish to borrow trouble, I offer my thoughts as something to hold on the back burner as you may need it in your future arsenal.

XOXOXOXOXO



[size=300]EllenA[/size]

dx'd high fsh at age 30
ttc 6 years
5 failed clomid cycles
2 failed IVF cycles
#3 IVF/ICSI worked out fine
FET 2 years later didn't work out
Proud mom of an amazing miracle boy.
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