You posted this one the day I quit! I think I remember reading it at some point during one of my brain fogs. I'm currently adding a post in my diary with my favorite links, read this one, added it to my list, and decided it needed to come up . . . just in case some newer-than-me newbie or lurker needs to see it.
Love, Peace, and Freedom! YQS C 3W 15h 39m 49s (-649 cigarettes)
I too am going on blind faith that you guys are telling the truth and that one day I will feel comfortable in my own skin. I wrote in my post today that i think I am hiding out in my house because nothing I do feels truely right. I'll just keep waiting One Day At a Time!
I have chosen not to smoke for 3 Weeks 10 Hours 4 Minutes 27 Seconds. Cigarettes not smoked: 685. Money saved: $85.68.
Thanks for bringing this up Bill. I still agree with everything I said . It's been an amazing journey.
A few weeks ago I bought a new car I drove around in it for another week before I realized it didn't come with either an ashtray or a lighter.
I'm sure there's nothing unusual about the lack of smoking accessories. But it certainly is a big change for me not to notice them. A few years ago I would have noticed on the test drive and been frantic. There was a time when I thought wing windows an absolute neccessitiy in an automobile.
Not smoking continues to bring pleasant surprises into my life. One of the biggest is the total ease of being without an active addiction to feed. Quitting takes effort in the beginning. Being quit is effortless. Deep comfort is a benefit I'm grateful for each day.
When will comfort happen for you? I can't tell you, in my case it snuck up on me when I wasn't looking. I can tell you this though, as long as you remember, just for today not a single puff no matter what, then comfort will be be yours.
Lorraine, Gold Club
P.S. New cars really do smell great!
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hi lorraine, your words are just what the doctored ordered. IDEAL for newbies, and for folks like me at just over 1 month. Tonight I had a bit of a shock when a psychological -dependency thought hit me. I was scared but held on thanks to Freedom. This really comforted me. A remarkable and compelling read. I loved the part where you took things at blind faith then it all came together. many thanks Lorraine. and thanks Joel for re-posting. mari,1 month and 14 days
You are the reason I wrote this. I wanted others to know that you do get past all the doubts, thoughts, urges and cravings. I still, obviously, stop by Freedom and read on a faily regular basis. It's good to be reminded what the initial struggle was like.
I read your post about meeting smoking friends for a drink and the feelings that produced and felt such empathy for you . By the time I read your post the crisis had already passed, so I didn't post to your thread because of Freedom's policy ( Bringing negative posts to the top after the crisis has passed[font=ARIAL, GEORGIA, 'TIMES NEW ROMAN', TIMES, SERIF] [/font] ).
You are doing this, your quit will grow into something you cherish as long as you remember, just for today, not a single puff, no matter what. I'm rooting for you.
Lorraine Gold Club
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Not one tastebud inside either lung, where we intentionally sucked smoke
No love for the 43 carcinogens in each puff
No love for any of the 4,000 non-flavor chemicals
No love for having waited too long and badly needing a fix
No love for having interrupted some of life's best moments to leave and feed
No love for paying our own money to slowly destroy our body's ability to receive and transport life-giving oxygen
No love for killing ourself 13 to 14 years early
Knowledge that 100% of cigarette flavor additives are still available in non-addictive form
Knowledge that the more than 200 neurochemicals we used nicotine to steal were each already ours.
Knowledge that arresting our chemical dependency and returning neurochemical control to us and life is as basic as no nicotine just one day at a time, to Never Take Another Puff!
An appreciation for the fact that every cessation related event we experience during this amazing temporary journey of re-adjustment is part of our healing at the physical (re-sensitization), subconscious (trigger re-conditioning) or conscious level (an opportunity to shed honest light on years of denial rationalizations, minimizations and blame transference).
An understanding that with each passing day the challenges will gradually become fewer, shorter in duration and generally less intense.
An understanding that should we experience a few days during early recovery without significant challenge that we will naturally drop our coping defenses, and when one is at last encountered it may feel more intense - a wonderful sign that the gaps between challenges are widening.
Our dependency is now under arrest.
Free and healing, the next few moments are doable!
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