Why Dont I feel Good?

ColbyRacer
ColbyRacer

6:13 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #1

Hello all,
here I am at day 7 and bummed out. I had another hard day of fighting the craves all day. I have been reading other peoples messages and they seem so proud of themselves and how great they feel after 1 week. I feel no better at all after 1 week. infact I feel down right lousy. Every day is a struggle for me. I have no interest in anything. Things I use to enjoy I cant stand to do right now. I dont even like my job which I use to love. I AM BORED out of my mind. I feel like I am having a harder time then most quiting. I know that may not be true but it feels that way. I dont feel like me anymore and very strange. All day I am fighting withmy self part of me says have just 1 smoke u deserve it look how hard u have worked reward yourself. Why suffer anymore is it worth all this? Who cares if u get lung Cancer when your gone you wont feel this horrible anymore. Arent I sick this is what I have listened to myself say all day. I am so gald from my heart that others have done so well after 1 week I just wish I could do as well as them and feel just a bit better.....ColbyRacer
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6:27 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #2

Hi ColbyRacer,
I'm glad that you posted and sorry that you're feeling lousy.
Everyone's quit experience varies and yours is difficult right now. I can remember difficult days..and difficult moments and I'm sure that most of the people at Freedom could say the same.
hat you are experiencing is temporary. Temporary! It takes time to withdraw physically...and it takes time to withdraw mentally.
It takes time to adjust to living without having the constant need to punctuate every half hour or so with a fix of nicotine. It's unsettling at first, I remember it well! But, it is worth it.
I know that you're reading messages on the board but are you reading from the library?
Have you read all of the articles that were recommended to you when you posted at day 5?
Spend as much time here reading as you can. If you're bored then READ.
Your brain needs to understand what you've done and and where you are going...The more you understand the better it will be for you.
Check this out:
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There is SO MUCH information there that was written for YOU!

Sal

Eleven months, three weeks
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6:30 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #3

The link didn't work.
Here you go:
Topic Index of Highlight Posts
Read, ColbyRacer, read!
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Devla13
Devla13

6:32 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #4

Hi, Colby

Perhaps it's time to embrace a crave rather than fight it. I found these posts really helpful:

Need a boost? Reach for your dreams!
Using Attitude to Reduce Anxiety
How we coped during our crave episodes (especially the third message)

Hang in there, Colby. I thought I was gonna die (or wished I would) a few times, but keep reading here, keep posting when you need to, and by George, it will get better if you never take another puff, one day at a time.

Janet

66 days ago, I quit smoking to save my life. BTW, I've also saved $297.65 by not smoking 1,322 cigarettes.
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janetd (GOLD)
janetd (GOLD)

6:43 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #5

Heya Colby! I remember when I first quit I thought I'd start to feel better pretty much right off the bat. What a disappointment. For me there was no such thing as immediate gratification. Before I felt better, I felt a whole lot worse. The first month of a quit varies quite a bit from person to person.

So I'll tell you something ... even though the first three weeks were pretty horrendous for me, going through that experience made my resolve just that much stronger. There is no way I want to ever go through the initial phase of a quit again.

Remember how you feel now, and note it in your diary. Take it One Day at a Time. If you need to vent, go beat up an old pillow or go into a big field and scream at the top of your lungs. Whatever it takes ... just don't lose your quit. Because it will get better.

yqs, Janet :)
Two Years One Month +
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tyger92000gold
tyger92000gold

6:45 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #6

Hi Colby,

We all relate to your suffering. I know that I have gone through the same fits of boredom. Just trust your adventure. It takes time to adjust to not smoking and it takes time for your body's biochemistry to adjust. Seven days is just beginning and you have already confronted the hardest things. Hang in there tough and strong, read and write, drink lots of water and take long walks! Whatever. Get through the day and commend yourself for being a tough guy! You'll do it it. You are on a journey back to how you were before you ever smoked a single cigarette.
joe
Eight months, three weeks, five days, 19 hours, 47 minutes and 0 seconds. 5416 cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,015.59. Life saved: 2 weeks, 4 days, 19 hours, 20 minutes.
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OBob Gold
OBob Gold

7:21 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #7

Why don't you feel good? The short answer is that you're right smack dab in the middle of the early healing process that comes with addiction recovery. Only a few people who make this decision feel good on day 7 of their quit. However, all of us who stuck with it discovered that what we felt on day 7 was not at all indicative of what it felt like to be an ex-smoker. Did you expect years of nicotine abuse to yield to comfort in 7 short days?

The truth is that none of us would be here as ex-smokers if being an ex-smoker is like what you're experiencing now. We took it on faith that it would get better, and found out that it not only got better, but that being a non-smoker is preferable to being a smoker.

You mentioned the comparison of what you're going through and what a cancer patient goes through. One of our members got to experience both. She qualifies to make the comparison. When she was going through the operations, the chemo, the hair loss, and the other hells associated with the treatment for her lung cancer, she was fond of signing off her posts with "and wishing I was going through withdrawal instead of this." It's instructive. Here's her story: Meet kim, a member of freedom

You only have our word that this gets better ColbyRacer. But, there are a lot of us here. Successful quitters, who discovered what life was like on the other side of the trench. We all crawled through it, and for most of us, it wasn't fun... but the other side's closer than you realize. Your choice on whether to find out what it's like... or return to using.

Some homework...

The monster under the bed

Success Stories: Before and After (have a look at the before and afters of members who went through what you're going through now, to find lasting comfort on the other side)

Tell a newbie how many seconds a day you still want a cigarette

Junkie thinking

Emotional Loss Experienced from Quitting Smoking

Recognizing Needs

None or all - I choose to smoke none because ...

I am different, I'll never be comfortable

Comfort

Thoughts that seem worse than the first days urges

"You said it would get better. It's just as bad as the day I quit smoking!"

The Urge Hits!

Bob (23 months, 4 weeks free)
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NeeseNonsmoker
NeeseNonsmoker

7:30 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #8

Colby,

I felt the EXACT same way after a week. It WILL get better!!! You can't go back now! The first week I actually went to bed as soon as I got home from work - I was so bored and yet didn't want to do anything but sit around. What you are experiencing is normal and you just have to wait it out. It will be worth it in the end, I promise.

The LAST thing you want to do is go back to square one!!! HANG IN THERE!!!

Denise - Free and Healing for Two Months, Three Days, 19 Hours and 24 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 4 Days and 12 Hours, by avoiding the use of 1296 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $292.42.
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valeriescleanGOLD
valeriescleanGOLD

7:43 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #9

Hi Colby! OBob has given you some reading. I strongly suggest you read all of the threads. You know, you always have the option to use nicotine if you want to- you aren't being deprived of ANYTHING. Obviously you were sick and discusted enough of cigarettes or you wouldn't have gone through Glory Week. I myself know I will NEVER take a puff again because I know I wouldn't want to have to deal with Glory Week EVER again so it does seem like you want to be free. Take it One Day, One Moment at a time if you have to- this gets easier! I promise! COMFORT finds EVERYONE that Never Takes Another Puff! Colby, you are at DAY 7!!!!! Give your quit TIME! Prove us wrong when we say this gets easier! IT DOES! I just celebrated my GOLD Milestone- I can garauntee I would of NEVER made GOLD if it felt like GLORY WEEK for and entire YEAR! Hang in there! You are doing this!

Valerie
1 Year and 1 Day....One Day at a Time!
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ColbyRacer
ColbyRacer

7:48 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #10

Bob
I wanted to clarify something that u posted saying I had said. You stated that I compared what I am going through to what a Lung cancer patient is going through. I in know way said anything like that. I said " Who cares if I get lung Cancer when your gone u wont feel this horrible anyway" It was mubble in my head. I in know way know what a cancer patient has gone thrrough I never tried to make any comparison on what someone with cancer is going through and what I am going through. I am very sorry about what Kim went through. I also am sorry if I offended anyone with my post. I was just talking about what I was feeling again I am sorry....Colby
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Toast (GOLD )
Toast (GOLD )

7:52 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #11

Hi CR and Welcome to Freedom!

You, my friend, are not alone. Not everyone feels GREAT! after 7 days. I was like you - felt out of sorts, uneasy in my own skin, just not right. Many times I wondered if smoking a cigarette would help me feel "normal" again. But I worked so hard, went through so much discomfort that the further I got from my quit date, the more invested I felt in seeing it through. I had to put a lot of trust in what the "oldbies" said here - that it gets better. I hung onto that for dear life during many walks around the block, spontaneous shower-takings, coffee-stir-stick-chewings, T'ai Chi'ings, house-cleanings, etc. It took a while, but I began to feel better. One day, I realized that it took me more than a few days or weeks to get accustomed to smoking, that it would take me more than a few days or weeks to get accustomed to not smoking again.

Is it worth it? Why would I have quit in the first place?? Is it easy? Not so much in the beginning, but much more as time passes. Does it really get better? Would I be here telling you now if it didn't?? (No!)

Hug your quit tight - it's the best gift you've ever given yourself!

Melissa
31 months
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OBob Gold
OBob Gold

8:07 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #12

Hi Colby.

I definitely wasn't offended by your cancer comment. It's not uncommon for new quitters to express feelings along the lines of: "at least if I get cancer, I won't have to go through this any more" or "I'll probably get cancer anyway, so what's the use of quitting" or a variety of other variations on the theme.

My purpose in pointing you to Kim's story was not to put you in your place, or express any offense; but to:

a) bring a little reality to your own thinking. Things like cancer and dying, when thought of in the abstract, especially by somebody who's going through very real quit-related struggles, can seem less horrifying than they are. Because they truly are horrifying, and because a return to smoking would increase any of our chances of going through that, I felt it important to make it a little more real for you through Kim's story

b) illustrate the contrast between the difficulties associated with quitting and the difficulties associated with continuing to smoke through Kim's trademark signature (rather be going through withdrawal than this).

Please don't feel the need to apologize for anything you express here in regards to your quit and your relationship with nicotine. It is important that you express your honest feelings, in order for any of us longer-term quitters to be able to help you. Nobody here's going to be offended by the things you're going through. Many of us had the same thoughts you're having now.

From experience, we know that these thoughts (and others like them) can be overcome by confronting them with the truth at all times. We also know that, by confronting them, and overcoming them, any nicotine addict can find lasting comfort. It takes time... but it does happen. I urge you to spend some time on the Success Stories: Before and After thread... especially the early posts, of which a greater percentage show people who posted SOS's in their early quits, and survived the troubles to find the comfort everyone here is promising you.

I'm glad to see you're reading the replies and continuing to post. In many cases, half the battle is won by simply delaying a bad decision (relapse), and letting the crisis pass. In almost all cases, the long-term battle is won by understanding the nature of the addiction and the recovery process.

Remember. For the nicotine addict (all of us who are members here), there are 2 options. Smoke them all, or smoke none of them. Real comfort comes by pursuing the second option, and breaking the cycle of withdrawal and temporary relief that characterized our smoking lives.

YQB,

Bob
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DlunyGOLD
DlunyGOLD

8:09 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #13

Hi Colby! I don't recall welcoming you to Freedom so If I haven't then consider yourself welcomed and if I did then this is just icing on the cake.

Every quit is different. What was your motivating factor for quitting? Have you made a written list of your reasons for quitting? The nice thing about having that is that we can always consult that when we face rough spots in the road.

We care about you and your quit and want you to succeed. For me the first week wasn't easy, but it wasn't as tough as I thought it would be. I continue to read here often and I go back and read older posts and re-read Joel's Library as well to reinforce and to remind me of where I have been and also to see where I want to be.

Remember to take this recovery as a JOURNEY, not a destination. Sometimes you will take quantum leaps forward, sometimes baby steps, and sometimes it will feel as though you are going backward. Remember this too shall pass. Trouble does not come to STAY, it comes to PASS.

Our Gold members have posted and told you that if it stayed like it is for you now forever that they would not be gold and that is the truth! If it did not get any better over time I would not have 8 weeks clean myself. Have faith and remember that the next few minutes are so doable! One day at a time never take another puff! No nicotine today!

yqb, David One month, three weeks, five days, 10 hours, 8 minutes and 18 seconds. 1015 cigarettes not smoked, saving $76.17. Life saved: 3 days, 12 hours, 35 minutes.
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kerriq79
kerriq79

8:16 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #14

Hey Colby.
I really respect the fact that you writing your truth. It is also obvious that you really want to quit based on the fact you posted even a negative time.

I'm not much further along than you, ( I reach 3 weeks tomorrow), but I do think that if you feel crappy now, you will feel even more crappy if you have a puff. As for being bored out of your mind, you may want to take up a new hobby. With the money I'm saving on cigarettes I am starting a dance class next week! It will probably be obvious, I was smoker for so long!. Maybe you can take a class in something, like painting or writing or some sports activity. Heck, you could even become a trivia nerd. I have read that people often become depressed after quitting. Do you think it is some of that? It just seems you need to do something that will take your mind off quitting. Remember that smoking was not a treat to yourself, but a torture.

I pray for your strength, and hope you stick with it.

Cheers,
Kerri
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Shinelady Gold3282003
Shinelady Gold3282003

10:17 AM - Jan 03, 2004 #15

Hi Colby,
I see you have received lots of advice already. I won't try to give you more, but I just want to say that I felt about the way you do at this point. It takes time to adjust, but I promise you that if you stick with it.... it gets sooooooooo much better. This journey is so worthwhile. The one thing that helped me to rationalize what I felt was to think about how I would feel hours, days weeks from now if I gave up my quit... Yes, I would regret it. I can assure you that if you stick with it, you will never live to regret that. Hang in there Colby, you can do this... What you are feeling is normal and it will get better....
yqs, sue
Nine months, five days, 3 hours, 23 minutes and 42 seconds. 11205 cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,619.21. Life saved: 5 weeks, 3 days, 21 hours, 45 minutes.
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Ivana
Ivana

4:24 AM - Jan 06, 2004 #16

Hi Colby,
Are you still hanging in there? Today is my 5th day and I can say that I'm still suffering too. I'm determined though! I've failed so many times before and, darn it, THIS time I'm going to DO IT!
This weekend, everytime I thought I was going to cave, I took a nap! It was quite luxurious - I was sleepin' most of the weekend.
At any rate, I don't know how long it's going to be hard, but I'm going to win this time. The weirdest thing is happening, too..... I'm overweight, and I was worried about the possibility of gaining more, but.....the funniest thing has happened! I have much less desire to eat! I actually smoked while I ate certain things.....while I drank coffee, while I ate sweets, ice cream, etc. And now I don't want those things anymore. Who knows, maybe I'll end up skinny at the end of all this.
I'll say one thing, though, even though I'm still suffering, I feel GREAT to have DONE this. I'm on top of the world for taking charge of my life for a change.
Good luck to you and let me know if you're still suffering. You can give me a heads up, as you're a few days ahead of me.
Ivana
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Michelle72482
Michelle72482

4:44 AM - Jan 06, 2004 #17

Hello Colby. I know EXACTLY what you're going through. At day 7 I was a wreck!! I felt the same way you are feeling.....bored, nothing seemed fun anymore, I felt VERY grouchy (just ask my family!) I remember looking forward to going to bed just so I could sleep (this was difficult the first week too) and not have to think about it. It WILL end, I promise! I remember people would tell me that and I'd think "Yeah right"! I thought everybody else was having an easier time than I was but they went through these stages as well. I was one who smoked approx. 25 cigarettes a day and looked forward to smoking, although there were times when I would say to myself "this isn't even enjoyable, so why do I do it"?? I did it because I am an addict! I have been quit for 3 months plus and let me tell you, and you can mark my words...It gets so much easier as time goes by. I can't stress that enough. I know it seems like time is probably standing still right now but you will find that it will start to fly and you'll actually lose track of your time you've been quit. At first I was counting day each day...two days, 3 days etc....and then on the 30th of Dec. I turned bronze and guess what? I didn't even think about it until 5 in the afternoon..so see, it does get better. Please hang in there.
Michelle
free and healing for 3 months and 6 days.
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Ronsdone1
Ronsdone1

6:24 AM - Jan 06, 2004 #18

Colby, Hang in there dude. You are over the worst physical part. Its now your addict mind you have to re-train. What you are REALLY feeling, I suspect, is insecure. You don't know how to act in that clean body of yours. Hey, I'm hating the tummy cramps and nightly heartburn, but these things too shall pass. I actually considered calling my doctor to get something for the spazmodic belly I seem to have, but I decided to wait a few more days. Point is, you are not alone, there are plenty of people here who will rip out your liver and feed it to the maggots of you smoke again, and I promise to forever curse your lawn with grub eating moles. DELAY, DELAY, DELAY. One is too many, a thousand not enough. IT WILL PASS!
God Bless and good luck.
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jcdgl
jcdgl

9:35 PM - Jan 15, 2004 #19

Hi colby
I just read your post. It is about 10 days old now so I hope that you will even know there is a new reply. I am 8 days and 12 hours. Yesterday I stayed home from work because I was exhausted. Today I feel better but still not perky. I have a dull headache almost all the time. I am still thrilled that I have not had a cigarette but wondering if you started to feel better.
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Beverly Gold
Beverly Gold

2:01 AM - Jan 16, 2004 #20

I am so sorry that I missed this post and I am very hopeful that you are feeling better. It looks like you received lots of advise. I know it is tough at times. It sure is for me. I can only go on faith of what I am told here by the ones with longer quits and that is that it does get better. I am over a month quit and I still have my moments. But, I promise if you hang in htere, they get fewer and farther between. It is getting better for me. Everyday, I think about smoking less and less. I am proud for that. We are all pulling for you. Sorry for the delayed response, I am not on as much as I'd like to be. Beverly---free and healing for over one month now. Feeling better everyday that I don't TAP.
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balto
balto

12:20 PM - Jul 13, 2009 #21

I just wonder if any of you posted in this post, complained about your first quit week, is still around? Today is my 6th day and I feel terrible, tire, and nervous. I suffered from panic & anxiety attack years ago but haven't had one for a long time, but yesterday I had a full blown attack. I will get there, I will get there. Someday it's going to be better.
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