Roma Bronze
Roma Bronze

July 31st, 2002, 10:19 am #11

Thanks Marty...this is exactly what I needed to hear at this moment.

~Roma Three weeks, three days, 20 hours, 19 minutes and 2 seconds. 496 cigarettes not smoked, saving $107.83. Life saved: 1 day, 17 hours, 20 minutes.
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grafix(Gold ))
grafix(Gold ))

July 31st, 2002, 10:52 am #12

The feeling of pride I still get twenty months later, makes any good day even better....

Great post Marty.... I thought I was the only one walking around with a huge smile...I can relate to everything you have said. Its a great feeling to be enjoying something 100% becuase the junkie didn't need the fix. IT does get better and better once you learn to go with the flow....

Chris

One year, five days. 5562 cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,816.95 Aussie dollars. Life saved: 2 weeks, 5 days, 7 hours, 30 minutes.
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Roger (Gold)
Roger (Gold)

July 31st, 2002, 11:20 am #13

Marty,

Super post. I can relate to many of your thoughts and feelings. My quit is in the adolescent period compared to yours. I am fortunate and blessed to feel the comfort I feel today. I can hardly wait until I am down the road a year or two.......It must be A Gold Paved Road.

Roger
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marty (gold)
marty (gold)

July 31st, 2002, 5:23 pm #14

In case any of you are inrigued by Hillbilly Dave's and John's comments... this was originally a post I made in a reply to Kiwi, and Dave suggested I create a new thread out of it. I hope Kiwi doesn't mind me re-using my personal reply to her
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misledfairy
misledfairy

July 31st, 2002, 8:25 pm #15

God luv ya Marty, that is such a nice calming post, it has nicely reminded me of how easy it would be to blame a "bad day" for wanting to smoke, I've been having a bad morning, you see in a few minutes I have to go and have a wisdom tooth out, I've never had to do that before, let alone face it without having a substantial amount of nicotene in my body, but seeing your words has calmed me down and reminded me that smoking does not have to be an automatic requirement to deal with things. Thank you, I better go now, there's a dentist chair with my name on it !!!!
Love Naymor xxxx
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Dida (Gold)
Dida (Gold)

July 31st, 2002, 9:04 pm #16

Hey Marty,
Been awhile since I posted to one of your bang-on messages......i often get that, too - oh, are you still not smoking? Usually I get this from the smokers....they're almost a little disappointed (it seems) but I suspect it's more akin to a little jealous. It is so true how I have so many days now when I don't think about smoking and then my activities and thoughts are gently reminded, not by triggers, but by those around me about smoking. I am so grateful to have kept this quit and know that complacency is deadly so I still remind myself in the mornings about, One Day At A Time. But this is a new life for me and one that I do not take for granted. The constant torment is gone and has gradually been replaced with gratitude and awareness so I guess that's what freedom is.....being released from the torture but ever aware of it's potential to slide easily back in. Thanks Marty.
Diana
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SammymnGOLD
SammymnGOLD

August 1st, 2002, 1:35 am #17

Dear Marty:

Gosh this is a great post, great inspiration, and great visualization of where we can go if we just never take another puff.

thanks for sharing, sammy (26 days, 12 hours, 41 minutes of acknowledging and respecting the power of addiction).
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childofnite GOLD.ffn
childofnite GOLD.ffn

August 2nd, 2002, 12:46 am #18

Congrats, Marty!!!! 20 months is fantastic!!
Your message basically explains that feeling I've been having lately - the big grin, the pride in myself. Ever since turning Gold last week, I have difficulty NOT being happy! Like you, thinking of smoking is like thinking of something I don't do - I loved your analogy of trying not to close your eyes while crossing a busy street, LOL!! I feel the same way!
I also beleive that this is something that is uniquely MINE. No one else can have my quit, only me. It is my biggest accomplishment, over my college education, over my upcoming wedding - those things I didn't need to work as hard at, LOL!!
You're right, Marty - these newbies need to understand it's not ANYTHING like the first few months. It's not as if we never smoked - we didn't have our minds wiped, of course - but it's as if smoking holds nothing for us anymore, but our strength and determination in being smarter than our addiction does.
Love & Hugs!!
Diana
I have been FREE for 1 Year 1 Week 39 Minutes 9 Seconds. Cigarettes not smoked: 4464. Money saved: C$1,618.32. Life saved: 1 Mo 3 Mins 15 Secs
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Sophy(Silver)
Sophy(Silver)

August 2nd, 2002, 11:09 am #19

I've got an inkling of being where you are, Marty. I can't yet say that not smoking is so automatic a part of me as you describe. But I can say that when I'm having a bad day, one of the comforting things I tell myself is that, at least I didn't smoke -- and it is a comfort. And I'm so much better at dealing with triggers when they come up. One surprised me today, and within minutes, I realized that the smoking urge came from the fact that I was walking around where I used to take smoke breaks in a previous job, for the first time since I quit. And it was easy to reaffirm my commitment to quit and defuse that trigger. I feel more and more comfortable, and more and more secure in my identity as a nonsmoker. But each day I recommit to my quit, and taking it One Day At A Time.
Sophy, Day 83
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John (Gold)
John (Gold)

September 7th, 2002, 6:15 pm #20

As entrenched nicotine dependent humans many of us fed ourselves scores of rationalizations that allowed us cope with the situation in which we found ourselves. For example, it was really pretty easy to say we liked smoking when all we had to compare it with was the sensations of chemical withdrawal. How many of us even remembered what it was like inside our minds prior to nicotine taking control? I sure didn't.

As Marty points out above, it really is much easier being free and me than it ever was arranging life around that next nico-fix. There is no pot of gold at the end of the quit rainbow. It's better than gold! It's 100% "you" and it can't be bought, melted or coined! You're going home! Enjoy the journey! It can be one of the most rewarding adventures of your life! John
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Hillbilly(Gold)
Hillbilly(Gold)

December 13th, 2002, 8:55 pm #21

If you're in your first day or week or month, this is what you have to look forward to if you just hang in there. Everyone has to start the same way--on Day 1.
From there to the place Marty is talking about is just a matter of taking things One day at a time

It really is that simple.


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Parker GOLD
Parker GOLD

March 6th, 2003, 4:27 am #22

I first read this when my quit was just shy of 2 months old. At that time, I thought it was a beautiful picture of a quit, but did not believe that I would ever feel this way. I still felt plagued by daily thoughts of smoking.

Now on the verge of 9 months, this post makes sense to me. I'm haven't hit all the same levels, but can feel myself heading in that direction. A good, healthy, life-affirming direction.

Nurture your quit with everything you've got in you. Give it time to grow and mature. Comfort is there waiting for you...

Grateful for every day of my freedom,
Parker
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john Clown065
john Clown065

March 7th, 2003, 3:17 pm #23

My quitting nicotine has transformed my life, and I dread to think where I would be if I had relapsed, as I had done on all my previous attempts to quit. I now lead an extremely active lifestyle and enjoy to the full the benefits of having been nicotine free for the past two and a half years or so. Quite simply it is probably the most important thing I have done for myself so far in my life, and I never want to be in a position where I would have to quit smoking again.

Best wishes -John (Previously Clown065)
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John (Gold)
John (Gold)

April 23rd, 2003, 10:29 pm #24

If you're a new arrival reading posts like Marty's you're probably scratching your head. Each of us were so deep into our dependency that we lost sight of truth and reality. I know you think taking back your life is hard but it isn't nearly as challenging as spending the rest of your life as the chemical servant of nicotine. Patience, baby steps, just one day at a time and you'll soon begin to sense the calmness that resided inside your mind before nicotine took control. You're going home! John
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Shinelady Gold3282003
Shinelady Gold3282003

May 31st, 2003, 9:34 am #25

Just sitting here on Friday night looking for something inspirational to read on freedom and ...... I see that OBob has brought up this post from Marty. It's a wonderful, thought provoking , inspirational post. The one line that hit me like a ton of bricks was..

The thing I miss is the awful, sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that I used to get every night when I went to bed, the dread of what I was doing to my body, and the feeling of self-disgust that I wasn't doing what I knew I should do about it. When I smoked, even the best of days was ruined.

Thanks Marty, I can relate to that one. It's so easy to run away from things that are unpleasant or painful to live with, but what a wonderful feeling it is to take charge and do something about it. Wonderful post and I know it will hit the pit of the stomachs of many of us... Thanks.....

yqs, sue
Two months, two days, 3 hours, 41 minutes and 55 seconds. 2526 cigarettes not smoked, saving $364.79. Life saved: 1 week, 1 day, 18 hours, 30 minutes.
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John (Gold)
John (Gold)

June 30th, 2003, 9:52 am #26

The next few minutes are doable!
The minutes beyond them doable too.
Soon the doing is done, deep comfort begun,
as you arrive home to "you."
John
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Paige silver
Paige silver

July 1st, 2003, 3:57 am #27

Thank you Marty, for such an inspiring post! I've been having a rough couple of days, and reading what you had to say was just what I needed. Thanks for helping me to see what a bright future I have, and everyone here has, as a non-smoker. I know I need to get through one day at a time, but sometimes I have to concentrate on the bigger picture, too.

Blessings,
Paige
One month, one week, two days, 16 hours, 5 minutes and 43 seconds. 610 cigarettes not smoked, saving $129.64. Life saved: 2 days, 2 hours, 50 minutes.
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marty (gold)
marty (gold)

July 1st, 2003, 4:15 am #28

Oh boy, I haven't seen that post since I wrote it nearly a year ago !!!! And now that I've read it again, it rings as true for me today as it did then I still get a huge buzz at having succeeded in quitting. I still smile when I realize what I have achieved, and it still makes the worst of days so much better --- and I've needed that boost quite a lot in the past few months
I'm a lucky guy, and everyone here can become just as lucky as me All you have to do is ... wait for it .... all together now ...
NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF
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IrishLotus GOLD
IrishLotus GOLD

July 2nd, 2003, 9:03 pm #29

I have read this post before, but today, for some reason, it really is starting to feel "real". So real in fact, that I felt inspired this morning to go back to my very first post (The Blossoming Lotus) and look over the reasons I had for quitting to see if I could gauge my accomplishments thus far. The list reads as follows (concrete "accomplishments" are posted in red; the "result" of being over nine months nictoine free) :
20 Reasons Why I Chose to Live a Smoke Free Life 1. To fix that hole that has developed in the back of my throat that allows thick, goopy, nasty mucus to drip down my esophagus and make me cough (and cough and cough and COUGH!) and gag whenever I brush my teeth I stopped gagging after about two weeks smoke free and I hardly ever cough anymore...in fact, I haven't even had a cold since I quit!

2. To preserve my beautiful singing voice I am absolutely amazed at the things I can do with my vocal chords now. I always knew that I had a good ear for pitch, but ever since I began smoking, I started to "accept" the fact that I, for some reason (DUH!), just wasn't "talented" enough to really blow people away with my voice...well guess what?!?!? I have not only expanded my range tremendously but I have greatly increased my breath control and thus have been able to really "control" my voice for the first time in my life. I am absolutley exhilirated and I can't wait to audition for my next musical! We'll see about blowing people away!!!!!

3. So that I can breathe big, full, breaths Yoga has become a dream!!!

4. For sparkly white teeth and a beautiful smile Just about the time I stopped gagging when I brushed my teeth I began to notice a glowing new smile...and here I always though I was destined to have yellow teeth...BLAH!

5. For the $50.00 a week I will be able to save and use for things like a car and a computer Well, I haven't gotten the computer (yet) but I am happy to report that since I quit smoking I have been able to save enough money to purchase my first new vehicle which has allowed me to gain a whole lot of independence as well as to move in with my beloved boyfriend in South Jersey where you simply can't exist without reliable transportation. I am also very pleased to report that my new car still smells as purty as the first day I bought it and that when it rains I can keep the window up and STAY DRY!!!

6. So that I can actually taste all of the things I am missing due my severely damaged taste buds Ahhh yeah, food is DELICIIOUS! I didn't even know what I was missing!

7. So that my index and middle fingers are no longer stained yellow My fingers (and face) returned to a healthly pink glow about a week or so after I quit.

8. Mmmmmmmmm……lots and lots of sweet kisses (no more ashtray mouth) Well, my boyfriend still smokes, but I am definitely more confident in the smell of my breath now that I have quit. Even if he stinks I know I am tasty!

9. To prove that I am strong enough to beat a little piece of paper filled with 4,000 chemicals Who woulda thunk it? The confidence and increased self-esteem that I have experienced as a result of reaching this goal is absolutely beyond belief. I now feel as if the impossible is possible...and that is a feeling you just can't beat!

10. To make my life longer and more satisfying I have already begun to cherish each and every day of my life. In fact, I really treasure every breath these days, and that is a blessing in and of itself.

11. For all of that extra energy that comes along with good blood circulation and oxygen in my brain Not to mention all of the extra time I have gained now that I don't have to waste it puffing away! Woo hoo!

12. So that I can start taking birth control and keep my body healthy for when I am ready to have a baby I am also very happy to report that I was able to start taking the pill and it has added a very lovely "flexibility" to my love life...nough said.

13. To stop this constantly irritating itch in my throat Gone!

14. Because each breath is precious Amen to that!

15. It's the first step in getting my act together Now this is really the reason I wanted to pull up my first post. This past week I really "hit a wall" reagrding my weight gain, and I have been making an effort to really commit to a healthier eating plan as well as a consistent exercise program, and I am proud to report...so far so good. This new "program" includes cutting out alcohol (which has been a big sticking point for me, especially since I quit smoking...it has been a bit of a crutch) and now I feel as if I am REALLY starting to get my act together. I am sure I will have a "TRIUMPHANT" report for all of you on my year anniversary in September!

16. So that I will smell as pretty as I am Just like a blossoming lotus!

17. To avoid getting premature wrinkles So far so good!

18. Because my boyfriend treats me like a goddess, and I should treat myself that way too Finally starting to feel like a goddess and that I DESERVE all the good things in life! Incredible!

19. To add YEARS to my life! Yesiree Bob!

20. BECAUSE I CAN! Well, what do you know....

Today I feel so good about myself. I am free. Thank you.

YQS-

Lotus

Feeling the Healing for 9 Months 1 Week 1 Day 7 Hours 3 Minutes 33 Seconds. Cigarettes not smoked: 8438. Money saved: $2,109.71.
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CookiesGold
CookiesGold

July 2nd, 2003, 9:40 pm #30

It's sooooo very doable.
Cookie
I have been quit for 8 Months, 2 Weeks, 5 Days, 7 hours, 49 minutes and 53 seconds (262 days). I have saved $1,836.27 by not smoking 10,493 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Month, 5 Days, 10 hours and 25 minutes of my life.
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Lyverbyrd
Lyverbyrd

July 26th, 2003, 10:48 pm #31

Wow....Lotus. I so want to feel the way that you do!
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Robin Lady Di
Robin Lady Di

August 1st, 2003, 3:33 am #32

That's a good question because my 19 day old quit is the most important thing I have going on. It's so new to me that it's most often the subject of my thoughts. I know as time goes on my preocupation with quitting will be replaced by other realities but for now I am embracing my quit and giving it all the attention it needs. It's a new friend to me and we need to spend time getting used to each other. My quit is my lifeline to a better tomorrow. I be glad when we are better acquainted and can share some silent time together but for now we talk a lot. I have a lot to learn about dealing with life without using cigarettes as my crutch. The best thing about my quit is knowing I can stay quit.
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John (Gold)
John (Gold)

September 12th, 2003, 8:46 pm #33



Did nicotine's two-hour half-life inside our body ever allow us to really relax and really rest? Imagine the extremely joyous times in life never again being interrupted to tend to the needs of our addiction. The constant sense of calmness and comfort awaiting you is "you" and you'll never have to smoke to stay there!

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Joel
Joel

November 29th, 2003, 3:08 am #34

A new member was looking for some positve posts.
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OBob Gold
OBob Gold

January 8th, 2004, 8:03 am #35

The future is out there for you to grab.
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