|From: Joe-D0 (Original Message)||Sent: 1/6/2007 6:10 AM|
So, after four months of living smoke free, clean and happy as a clam, here comes another smoking dream just to make me upset with myself. I thought these things would pass in time and just disappear from my life but I guess for me it just isn't to be. This particular dream did have a positive side effect, and that is: "what I know today."
In the dream (which I forget the storyline,) I lit a cigarette and took a few drags.
As soon as I awoke I had the absolute realization that I was now entering another seventy-two hours of misery or I will smoke myself into the grave.
My second and almost simultaneous thought was; "although it was a dream, the truth is still the truth." To smoke one is to go out and buy the rest of them, the full regimen that I would need to die; I will not do that.
Coupled with this thought is the second part of the truth which is; "one drag is enough, it opens the door to my addiction and if I refuse to smoke more, I will endure another 72 hours of misery and three days of craves, triggers and me being nasty to others."
Not a pretty picture.
Thank God it was only a dream.
This too shall pass.
NTAP ODAT and TGIF
JoeDo - Free and Healing for Four Months, Twenty One Days, 22 Hours and 41 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 19 Days and 23 Hours, by avoiding the use of 5758 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $1,448.00. (Double that, my wife quit too)