The smoking dream

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February 17th, 2006, 12:59 am #221

I had the weirdest smoking dream last night. Well, let me clarify it was not really a smoking dream but a non-smoking, nicotine addiction dream. I dreamed that I noticed a skin colored patch on my back and was shocked to realize it was a nicotine patch. I don't remember having ever used the patch before, maybe I tried one a long time ago, but obviously smoking was a better delivery device. Anyway, in my dream I freaked out, yelling who put this patch on me? Don't you all know I quit smoking and I've been doing fine without anything? I started yelling saying I've be re-addicted without my knowledge and now I have to re-set my quit meter and go through withdrawals all over again, I can't post on Freedom, and I've been sabotaged. The people around me were upset and replied you did, don't you remember? I said no, I couldn't have because I know I'm an addict, I wouldn't have done this and not remember. I woke up in a panic and looked at my shoulder just to make sure someone didn't sneak that patch on. What a relief!!! It was only another silly smoking dream! Whew!
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March 19th, 2006, 7:50 pm #222

I had the smoking dream for the first time last night. I'm 33 days into my quit.

It was SO vivid and intense! I was at a wedding, and a friend whose quit lapsed a while back (in real life!) was offering me cigarettes. Then before I knew it I suddenly realised I was smoking again. I was going through a bin, looking for a filter for my roll-up, but they were all used - filthy, stained and full of tar. I still took one and used it though...! I then felt the most profound sense of loss and sadness at the realisation I'd lost my quit. I knew I wouldn't get through the rest of the wedding without smoking, and found myself wondering how I was ever going to quit again.

When I woke up it took a few minutes to realise it had been a dream, and then it felt like Christmas! It was the biggest reinforcement I could have asked for; I was so happy to realise I still have my quit. In fact, it made me appreciate it more than I ever have - and it's easy to understand why. The reason is that the daily changes we experience as our quits progress are slow and incremental, and sometimes it's hard to see just how much we are changing. But upon waking from this dream (or nightmare), it's as if all the benefits of a 33-day quit are thrust upon you in an instant, and you feel them all at once!

It was a wonderful experience, and I hope and wish every one of you in the eary stages will experience it for yourself. Even if you don't, please take heart from my own ramblings: as much as you think you value your quit, its only when you believe you've lost it that its true worth comes home to you.

Smoking is one of the worst things in the world, friends. You don't want it back any more than you want back the last illness you recovered from. NTAP!
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April 16th, 2006, 3:10 am #223

Oh the smoking dream
I have pages of words and drawings about them. They were a lot during the first 8 months of my quit.
All over my life and due to a severely rough childhood I've always had nightmares and "fantabulous" dreams. Such stories!!! Fortunately I never had an insomnia in my life, but on the other hand sometimes I wake-up tired of morpheus.
When and right after I first quit (from Feb 2004 onwards) the dream (and nightmare) of a cig became a must of my "night travels". Of course I read a lot at Freedom and also Joel's NTAP e-book - Education made me consider those dreams as natural within the whole journey of a healing nicotine addict like myself.
Let me (briefly) share 3 of them.
the 2nd March 2004
Setting: My home presently
I was giving a birthday dinner to family and friends. I hated smoking and I wouldn't do it NO WAY!!
Suddenly a known character whom I disliked showed up outside my window flying by using those shoes that thow fire flames out of the heels (don't know the name of those). I said D., D. (my friend)!! HELP ME CLOSE THE WINDOW!! The character flying carried bags full of cigs that he could throw into my apartment. I got scared and the most scarry part was when I looked at my table and instead of food I SAW a giant ashtray loaded with sig butts and a foul smell. Then I woke up with the smell in my nose, scared but finally happy for being awake in my nicotine free home.
the 23rd March 2004
Setting: My home presently
I was taking care of my plants when a colleague of mine came in. SHE WAS SMOKING. Firstly I got scared, but then when her cig was about to finish I said hurry up, hurry up let me smoke the rest! When I was smoking that butt, my mother came and I THREW IT to the floor not to be noticed - The floor was starting to burn.
I woke up and bursted in tears.
1st September 2004
Setting: The sea presently
How could this be??? I was stuck; trapped inside and I woke up with the awful taste of SMOKE again
Next to those nightmares I felt so great and so incredibly happy with myself !!!! Vanity is the word for it. When going to work, when doing the house chores, when performing every usual activity.
I felt that the glory of Never Take Another Puff and the feeling of hating the chance of having a single puff was the positive definition of the word vanity - the only positive one that I could think of after knowing I was awake, FREE and smelling the scent of smokeless air.
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July 2nd, 2006, 12:38 am #224

Wow thanks, i was just posting about this in the patience thread. I dreamt i had smoked and was scared i blew my quit. It really rattled me when i woke up. I guess it is a good thing that that scares me, thanks, you guys are the best.

I have been quit for 47 days.
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August 17th, 2006, 12:22 am #225

Even after 21 months, I had a vivid smoking dream the other night. I had the same "Oh, No!" moment I had with my first one - but it was only a dream.

Newbies - the point is that the Smoking Dream is not a sign that your resolve is slipping!! It's only a reminder that we are addicts.

Always remember - never forget - Never Take Another Puff.

Terry
635 days quit
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August 17th, 2006, 12:35 am #226

For me 'the smoking dream' (of which I have had many but I have always been someone who dreams a lot so maybe that's why) epitomises the extremes of emotion of the quitting experience itself - the devestating disappointment when we think we have broken our quit (similar to what we feel prior to the quit or some times during the very early days of denial) and then the enormous relief and jubilation when we realise it was only a dream!

Amanda xxx
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September 15th, 2006, 7:39 am #227

I had a smoking dream 2 nights ago. The guilt set in the dream after the first puff, I honestly don't remember a second or third. It was a fine way to "preview" the emotional cost of smoking again. No cigarrette that I ever smoked gave me pleasure for more than a couple minutes. The dream cig made me feel crummy for much longer (in the dream). The statement below is from the first post of this thread...

"As soon as they would finish describing their feelings, I pointed out one very obvious fact. They just dreamt they smoked and assumed that meant that they wanted to smoke. They woke up and upon further clarification, they describe the dream was a nightmare. This is not the dream of someone who wants to smoke; it is the dream of someone who is afraid of smoking."

I really appreciated reading this because it did a great job of reframing my reaction to the dream from guilt to great!
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September 15th, 2006, 7:54 am #228

I am so glad I found this. I had that dream last night. Well one sort of like it. I dreamed that my wife was cheating on me and I was going to leave her. Just so you know, she is the most faithful person I know. That broke my heart. I ran to the nearest gas station and bought a pack. I stood there and just looked at them, debating on if I should do it or not. One phrase kept poping in my head....one puff away from a carton. But I did anyway and knew with that one puff, I blew it. I was so upset I ended up waking up yelling. I told my wife I was upset, not of the fact that I had a dream about her cheating........but that I took that one puff. It was a nightmare. I haven't been able to get it out of my head. Thank you for bringing this topic back up. NTAP!!!!

Waylon
Nicotine free for 5 days 19 hours 13 minutes and 23 seconds. Not smoked 232 nicotine sticks and saved $32.50.
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September 18th, 2006, 1:11 am #229

Ha! I thought my dreams were CRAZY! Well, actually the last one was...

The first on was a few nights ago. In my dream I was out somewhere with friends, and I 'accidentally' lit up. lol....I remember being so disappointed in myself, but it was too late! I took a puff! Then I asked my friend 'did I fall asleep when I lit that, or was I awake?' She told me 'no, you were fully awake, you're a smoker again!'....I was so sad! lol...then I woke up and was glad it was only a dream.
Last nights dream was INSANE!! I dreamt that my fiance was trying to kill me! But luckily I grabbed a crow bar and killed him first! lol...I was crying my eyes out to my mom in my dream, and she says... "Here...smoke a cigarrette....you certainly need one after all that you've been through" and all I could think was "NO WAY! I don't care what just happened I am NOT smoking again!" Lol....My fiance then woke me up out of the dream because I was crying and wailing in real life! I was SO happy when I woke up and he was there and I wasn't smoking...lol
WEIRD dreams!! Scary real.....

Lynnzie
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September 18th, 2006, 5:16 am #230

I can't begin to tell you how good it feels to not be alone with these symptoms after reading the last two posts. Thanks, because folks, the hits just keep on comming!

I noticed that I never struggle with the decision to smoke in these dreams, I begin each one thinking that I am a smoker only to realize that I was a quitter after one puff. This of course followed by instant remorse. This time was different because I smoked several cigarrettes. The period of time between the behavior and recalling that I was breaking a quit was extended and the act of puffing was not sufficient to remind me. The scare/guilt factor was intensified because I did not just slip by a puff, I slipped by all the puffs! I wonder if this is a sign of danger or if my subconcious just wanted to offer a demonstration of the law of addiction.
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Joined: January 16th, 2003, 8:00 am

September 18th, 2006, 5:30 am #231

As Joel says above:
In regards to smoking, no matter what you do in your dreams, you will be OK as long as you remember in your waking state to Never Take Another Puff!
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September 19th, 2006, 1:07 am #232

2 nights in a row!
Yet again, I get hit with the smoking dream, just like the previous night, it involved several cigs before realizing my quit status. Thanks for the reminder Sal. Just like the frequency and intensity of cravings during the first week, I am less effected by this dream each time it happens. It's getting easier. In fact, I can handle this dream. Being a smoker was the real nightmare. Be it every night or twice a night, I don't care, because my real world lungs are enjoying fresh air! NTAP!

Rick - Free and Healing for One Month, Seventeen Days, 7 Hours and 1 Minute.
(That's 48 Days!)
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September 19th, 2006, 12:34 pm #233


Freedom is just the best place ever!


Last night I had a very vivid dream that started from the point that I had already smoked. What an absolutely horrible and frightening feeling. The sense of loss of my quit was unfathomable and the thought of no longer being a part of whyquit.com was emotionally devastating. What an absolutely glorious relief to find out it was only a dream.



Tonight I felt the urge to visit Freedom - I haven't been here in quite some time (even my two year milestone came and went) and lo and behold! One of the first items on the board is a message from Joel about smoking dreams.

I'm off again to continue my blessed and grateful nicotine-free life. I am never complacent and hold on to my quit with all of my life - because it is life itself!
The one thing I just can't do enough is thank Freedom for helping me to reclaim mine!


Cheers in eternal quithood to you all, Joanne

adding to my life for *2 years, 2 months, 1 week, 6 days, 1 hour and 33 minutes. 16101 cigarettes not smoked, saving $7,084.57. Life saved: 7 weeks, 6 days, 21 hours, 45 minutes.
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September 20th, 2006, 3:34 am #234

Finally a smoke-mare free night of sleep. I believe that spending time in this thread helped out. Its funny how just as I declared that I could handle them, they go away for a night.

Rick - Free and Healing for One Month, Eighteen Days, 9 Hours and 33 Minutes.
I have saved $200.47 by not smoking 889 cigarettes.
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Joined: January 16th, 2003, 8:00 am

October 10th, 2006, 3:50 am #235

Smoking dreams still occur for me every now and then and I am always greatly relieved to wake up and realize that I am still an ex-smoker.
The fact that I am over 3 and a half years away from my last puff does not make a dream any more or less meaningful - it is just a dream (YAY!). I am still free.

Sal
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November 1st, 2006, 6:19 am #236

Had my first smoking dream last night ... and what stuck out most to me was the sensation of terror that I had when I looked down and saw the pack of cigarettes in my hand ... I remember feeling angry and flabbergasted at myself! I actually threw the pack at the wall ...

When I woke up this morning ... the sweet smell of fresh air, and the --knowing-- that it was just a bad dream was soooooo wonderful. I am so glad to not be a smoker anymore.

Been kicking my addiction's butt since 9/7/06 ... that means 55 days!
And it gets sweeter and sweeter every day ...
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November 18th, 2006, 10:57 am #237

My father who actually quit cold turkey over 20 years ago still has smoking dreams on rare occasions. My mother tells me that when he has these he actually physcially breaths like he's smoking too. But as consulation, my father also has swimming dreams (virtually every night) where he "breath's and blows" as if he were in a pool doing the freestyle stroke. Taking a big gulping breath, and slowing hissing it out. :)

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December 5th, 2006, 8:31 pm #238


Video and audio versions of this topic
Video Title Dial Up High Speed MP3 Audio Length Created
Dreams of smoking 2.38mb 7.10mb 2.92mb 06:28 11/10/06


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December 5th, 2006, 9:41 pm #239

It never ceases to amaze me that everything I need to stay quit is within this site!! I had my first "smoking dream" last night, after 4 months! When I woke up, I thought I needed to go online and read the thread about holiday triggers, because I had just started my Christmas cards last night and that must have been what prompted the dream.

To my amazement, the first thread on the boards today was this thread. I watched the video too. Thank you Joel. It was a nightmare and I know I do NOT want to go back to smoking. Actually, when I think about the dream, I don't remember seeing myself smoking the cigarette, but I do remember the temptation, and then seeing not one but two butts...no wait, now there were three and then half cigarettes...then more. Okay, okay I get it....there is NO SUCH THING AS JUST ONE!! The whole dream experience just knocked my socks off...guess it's the insanity of smoking and I am so grateful that I do not want to smoke and am blessed to have this resource. The videos are great Joel.

Again, the tools are all here and it still amazes me that when I come to WhyQuit and Freedom, I get exactly what I need to stay quit!

VICKI - Free and Healing for Four Months, Two Days, 15 Hours and 27 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 8 Days and 15 Hours, by avoiding the use of 2493 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $563.78.
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Joined: January 7th, 2009, 7:32 pm

December 18th, 2006, 11:25 am #240

I had a bunch of these dreams in the first couple of weeks, then they went away, but I just had another one last night. The dreams are all different except the smoking. Every time it happens exactly the same way. I start smoking, without even realizing it. About halfway through I freak out and realize what I am doing. I feel devastated, and I feel that it is so horribly cruel and unfair because I didn't consciously relapse I accidentally relapsed…then I wake up and the fog clears and I am really happy to be smoke free, but they always shake me up. I really hate them, but it's better than actually smoking.

Brandon - Free and Healing for Two Months, Six Days, 6 Hours and 55 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 7 Days, by avoiding the use of 2019 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $384.61.
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January 6th, 2007, 10:17 pm #241

From: Joe-D0 (Original Message) Sent: 1/6/2007 6:10 AM

So, after four months of living smoke free, clean and happy as a clam, here comes another smoking dream just to make me upset with myself. I thought these things would pass in time and just disappear from my life but I guess for me it just isn't to be. This particular dream did have a positive side effect, and that is: "what I know today."

In the dream (which I forget the storyline,) I lit a cigarette and took a few drags.

As soon as I awoke I had the absolute realization that I was now entering another seventy-two hours of misery or I will smoke myself into the grave.

My second and almost simultaneous thought was; "although it was a dream, the truth is still the truth." To smoke one is to go out and buy the rest of them, the full regimen that I would need to die; I will not do that.
Coupled with this thought is the second part of the truth which is; "one drag is enough, it opens the door to my addiction and if I refuse to smoke more, I will endure another 72 hours of misery and three days of craves, triggers and me being nasty to others."

Not a pretty picture.
Thank God it was only a dream.
This too shall pass.
NTAP ODAT and TGIF

JoeDo - Free and Healing for Four Months, Twenty One Days, 22 Hours and 41 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 19 Days and 23 Hours, by avoiding the use of 5758 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $1,448.00. (Double that, my wife quit too)
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February 10th, 2007, 1:56 am #242

Too funny! I had a crazy smoking dream last night! I was smoking for a few weeks. It was utterly bizarre! Must be a full moon.

Ten months, one week, five days, 1 hour, 56 minutes and 5 seconds. 12723 cigarettes not smoked, saving $3,499.34. Life saved: 6 weeks, 2 days, 4 hours, 15 minutes.
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February 11th, 2007, 4:52 am #243

Thanks so much Roger. After I had my dreams/nightmares about smoking and wrote about them I felt much better!
I feel even more confident now that I know the reasons behind the dream! Yay for my lungs healing!!!!


LaDonna. nicotine free for 12d, 17h and 51mins. I've not smoked 191 cigarettes and have saved $57.38. I will enjoy 15h and 55mins more of my life! Thank You Freedom!
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February 11th, 2007, 8:22 am #244

Joel starts off this thread informing us:

"The smoking dreams are common if not universal among ex-smokers."

I for one have had many of them thus far in my journey here at Freedom and I agree with one and all they are very vivid and I dare say nightmarish.

However, I believe the smoking dream experienced by those of us who participate in this worldwide community of Freedom From Tobacco IS very different form the rest in one very significant way! We not only wake up feeling the guilt of having smoked, we believe we have lost our privledge to participate here as well.

While still in my dreams, junkie thinking is telling me simply wait 72 hours after you fininsh however many you have smoked in that particular dream and every thing will be just fine. Reminders of active addiction.

This may sound crazy but I actually have come to somewaht enjoy this now infrequent dream for me because now I wake up with a smile on my face knowing it was just a dream and that it can not hurt me. I also believe it is a vivid reminder to stick to your resolve to Never Take Another Puff!

Welcome to all of you in the early stages of your journey here. Read, read and read some more you will find is very good advice. Educate yourself here and enjoy your Freedom! Just one simple rule, No Nicotine Today.

Attitude is everything, keep it positive, move forward and live life to its fullest. NTAP

Denny B - After 38 years - Free and Healing for Ten Months, Sixteen Days, 7 Hours and 20 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 39 Days and 4 Hours, by avoiding the use of 11281 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $2,857.86.
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May 30th, 2007, 2:16 am #245

I'm on day 37 of not smoking and I'm not having using dreams but I am having VERY weird dreams...Just really weird and they have just started in the last week or so...Has anyone experienced these? Is it because of quitting smoking?

Suzanne - Free and Healing for One Month, Seven Days, 21 Hours and 15 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 3 Days and 6 Hours, by avoiding the use of 947 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $256.13.
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