The Final Truth

Retraining the conscious mind

The Final Truth

John (Gold)
John (Gold)

July 23rd, 2002, 9:36 am #1

You made it! You learned to remain patient during the few minutes associated with wall-climbing type craves - you knocked them dead! You stuck with it for the full 72 hours it took to empty your blood of all nicotine - at last you were clean! Your healing and glory continued for the ten days to two weeks that it took your mind to adjust to chemically functioning without nicotine and all the other chemicals that arrived with each puff. You confronted and reconditioned each of your major psychological crave triggers, and you tasted your first day of total and complete comfort where you never once thought about having a cigarette, soooooooooo why are you still having days where you find yourself "thinking" about smoking nicotine? It isn't that you don't believe the law of addiction because you do. It isn't that you think you can take one puff and not experience full relapse because you've most likely "been there" and "done that" and know that it's true. So why are there still days during which you find yourself thinking about that "perfect smoke?"

A twenty year smoker who averaged a pack a day and took eight puffs per cigarette lit 146,000 cigarettes and sucked warm nicotine laden smoke into their lungs 1,168,000 times. Over one million puffs! Where do the memories of those one million puffs go after we quit smoking? Where are they now? How many of those one million puffs made our mind say "aaahhh" as they immediately helped restore our falling blood nicotine level? Where did all of our "aaahhh" memories go when we quit? Were they true? Did new nicotine bring us a sense of replenishment and stimulation thousands and thousands of times? Absolutely!

Although we often hated being smokers and our bondage, there is no denying that each of those 146,000 nicotine fixes helped, to some degree, to bring relief from falling blood nicotine levels that were beginning to deprive us of a level of dopamine to which we'd grown accustomed. Each of them were played a vital role in restoring us to a level of comfort upon which we had each come to depend. We created our own artificial sense of normalcy, our own addiction comfort level that each year required a bit more nicotine to achieve and sustain. Yes, each fix brought the addict in us a true sense of comfort (from the pains of our own addiction) and yes all those memories still remain, but one important thing has changed - our brain no longer has a chemical need for nicotine!

If you go back through old old Freedom threads and read all of the descriptions of relapses that occurred beyond week two, they almost all sound identical. They read like this, "I had a mouth full of smoke, I was dizzy and I coughed but I didn't get the sense of satisfaction that I expected." "It just didn't come!"

Those thousands of enticing memories in the relapsor's mind told them to expect a sense of relief and satisfaction" but their body had adjusted to life without nicotine and the "aaahhh feeling" was not there. Unlike when the memories in their mind were created, there was nothing missing and there was nothing that needed replenishing. So what happens next.

Well, sadly, most relapsors keep believing the once true memories still enshrined in their mind and keep searching inside the pack, or maybe the next pack, until their addiction returns in all its full blown deadly glory (along with the aaahhh feelings) and they can finally look in the mirror and say to themselves, "see, I was right, smoking did bring me a sense of relief!"

Until we fully appreciate that our memories of our "perfect smokes" were created during our endless cycle of our chemical dependency and that we must once again be active addicts in order to experience that same sense of relief, the memories of prior fixes will continue inviting us home! Yes, the memories are true but only for active addicts in need of their next fix!

One of the greatest challenges of psychological recovery can be in understanding who we once were and our true relationship to a true chemical dependency. Those aaahhh memories belong to an endlessly feeding nicotine dependent human who was in need a puff of nicotine. Isn't it time that you allowed yourself to let them go! Isn't it time to see each of them as evidence of your former bondage!
Breathe deep, hug hard, live long - John : )
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SandyBob GOLD
SandyBob GOLD

July 23rd, 2002, 9:00 pm #2

Great Post!

Thanks

SandyBob
5weeks,5 days +
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SKFox
SKFox

July 24th, 2002, 2:26 am #3

Since I've quit, I haven't had the "Ahhh" moment that you speak of, but when I read something like this, I have an "Ah Haaaa" moment.... the light bulb is on.... and it rings true and reinforces my quit. Thanks for the Ah Ha moment!!!



~Shauna

2 months, 3 weeks, 1 day, 11 hours, 25 minutes.
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SammymnGOLD
SammymnGOLD

July 24th, 2002, 5:12 am #4

Wow, what an important reminder of our never ending vulnerability! A definite print-then-keep! THANKS. Sam
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murphying (Gold)
murphying (Gold)

July 24th, 2002, 8:32 am #5

Good post John - just a reminder to me that there is just not one cigarette in this world that is worth giving up the way freedom feels!!

Ingrid
6 Months 3 Weeks 1 Day
Cigarettes not smoked: 10190.
Self esteem 100%
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Joanne Gold
Joanne Gold

August 26th, 2002, 1:23 am #6

Those aaahhh memories belong to an endlessly feeding nicotine dependent human who was in need a puff of nicotine. Isn't it time that you allowed yourself to let them go!
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John (Gold)
John (Gold)

November 12th, 2002, 5:25 am #7


Oh those aaahhh memories that may at times seem inviting were certainly true when created but they are the property of an actively feeding addict who was then in need of their chemical. As long as the world's nicotine supply remains outside of these bodies then the healing on the inside will continue : )
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SammymnGOLD
SammymnGOLD

December 28th, 2002, 4:29 am #8

The cure for days of impatience. Or at the very least, a really good salve.

, Sarah (5 3/4 months)
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JoeJFree Gold
JoeJFree Gold

May 1st, 2005, 1:24 am #9

One of the greatest challenges of psychological recovery can be in understanding who we once were and our true relationship to a true chemical dependency. Those aaahhh memories belong to an endlessly feeding nicotine dependent human who was in need a puff of nicotine. Isn't it time that you allowed yourself to let them go! Isn't it time to see each of them as evidence of your former bondage!
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JoeJFree Gold
JoeJFree Gold

July 11th, 2005, 11:34 pm #10

No matter for how long nor how much tobacco you have consumed you have the ability to readily rid yourself of this self-inflicted opression. After roughly 3 million puffs, I can now look forward to a life of Freedom From Tobacco use & Nicotine Ingestion.
All because some guys on the internet took the time to explain how I could be forever free if I just Never Took Another Puff!
YOU CAN BE FREE TOO!! DO IT NOW!
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astra2785
astra2785

January 19th, 2006, 5:48 pm #11

My quit is just over two weeks old, and this is exactly what I needed to hear tonight.

Maija
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LizzyB
LizzyB

June 26th, 2006, 10:58 pm #12

As a recovering, former relapsed smoker (6 1/2 days nicotine free, yay!), I can say that the first cigarette after 4+ years quit tasted like Luther's Boot. It was horrible. I smoked the whole thing wondering why I was smoking it. (Answer: tequilla and complacency.)
I woke up the next morning feeling worse than any hangover could possibly feel - because I wasn't hungover. I'd inhaled poison the night before. My head was killing me, I felt nausous, my lung felt as though I'd sucked up broken glass.
There was no ahhhhhhhh feeling. It was more like, "aauugghh!!!" What have I done to myself??
So why'd I go back for the second - 100,000th one?
Because one puff = all of them.
Starting again would be just like starting from the beginning - just as horrible-tasting, just as nauseating, just as cough/gag-producting. It wasn't the smoking that gave you the "ahhhhh," it was the sitting back, clearing your mind and taking a deep breath.
Try that instead.
Never go back. Never give up. Never take another puff!!

Lizzy - Free and Healing for Six Days, 11 Hours and 27 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 18 Hours, by avoiding the use of 227 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $39.69.
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JoeJFree Gold
JoeJFree Gold

July 5th, 2006, 7:42 am #13

Although we often hated being smokers and our bondage, there is no denying that each of those 146,000 nicotine fixes helped, to some degree, to bring relief from falling blood nicotine levels that were beginning to deprive us of a level of dopamine to which we'd grown accustomed. Each of them were played a vital role in restoring us to a level of comfort upon which we had each come to depend. We created our own artificial sense of normalcy, our own addiction comfort level that each year required a bit more nicotine to achieve and sustain. Yes, each fix brought the addict in us a true sense of comfort (from the pains of our own addiction) and yes all those memories still remain, but one important thing has changed - our brain no longer has a chemical need for nicotine!

If you go back through old old Freedom threads and read all of the descriptions of relapses that occurred beyond week two, they almost all sound identical. They read like this, "I had a mouth full of smoke, I was dizzy and I coughed but I didn't get the sense of satisfaction that I expected." "It just didn't come!" JohnP (from Original Post).

It Would Be Awful!!!

No thank you, I can't have a cigarette - already had my "Bucket Full".

Simply choose to remain how you ought to be - Free. JoeJ
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no4thewin
no4thewin

July 23rd, 2006, 10:19 am #14

"Those aaahhh memories belong to an endlessly feeding nicotine dependent human who was in need a puff of nicotine. Isn't it time that you allowed yourself to let them go! Isn't it time to see each of them as evidence of your former bondage!"





I'm so happy I read this. I get it now. Thx once again.
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JoeJFree Gold
JoeJFree Gold

August 23rd, 2006, 7:05 pm #15

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twinzdad1
twinzdad1

October 23rd, 2006, 7:14 am #16

I'd just like to give a shout out to my quit twin, JoeJFree-Gold. I am happy to report that I am also approaching double gold. I could not have done it without WhyQuit. Keep on providing that inspiration to the newbies and lurkers.

Twinzdad
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JoeJFree Gold
JoeJFree Gold

March 24th, 2007, 5:16 am #17

For AJ:
All because some guys on the internet took the time to explain how I could be forever free if I just stayed with my decision to Not Take Another Puff, for the rest of Today!
YOU CAN BE FREE TOO!! DO IT NOW


I want one...


How would you deal with the following situations? Is chemical addiction ever a solution?


Is relapse a natural part of the addiction process?
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JoeJFree Gold
JoeJFree Gold

May 15th, 2008, 1:56 am #18

Is it any surprise that we often think of or encounter an association to an activity that many of us repeated more than a MILLION Times.

THINKING vs. WANTING - there IS a difference

The Final Truth remains the same.

We don't need nicotine to live, never did & never will.
After a Million or so puffs of poison (in my case 3 Million) is it any surprise that it may take awhile to recover our natural normal life rythmn? When we each choose to end the addiction cycle abruptly it takes One day at a time , Patience , and some Reading and growth to recondition our psychological thought patterns. We do eventually overcome our addiction use mindset the same way we became caught in the addiction use rut - by repetition of choosing to not do something we never were supposed to do in the first place. The physical addiction is left behind quite quickly as long as we keep the one rule of no nicotine for the rest of today. We do recover our right minds, by learning and loving to live again as we have always meant to live - clean of nicotine and free to be.......just plain 'ol you or me.......Joe J free 40 months
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starbirder.ffn
starbirder.ffn

August 20th, 2008, 9:46 pm #19

"If ya wanna be really good at something what do ya do?
Yeah, that's right you practice, practice, practice.
Repetition creates consistency, ensures muscle memory, grooves your mental reactions, AhHah!
.....JoeJ

"You Just Gotta Wanna" Big Al J on reaching Gold
Star 1 Year, 1 Month, 6 days
Always addicted, but now calm and comfortable without the constant need for nicotine, I now choose-not to use!!!
You can too......just practice!!!
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