by Melicious
16 Sep 2009, 14:44
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

<t>I have to admit (and I am sure many of you have guessed!) that this week I've been feeling terrible in my quit. I've been dreaming about smoking, waking up and arguing with myself "Why am I doing this to myself?" almost allowing myself to believe it's ok to just smoke already and get it over with...
by Melicious
09 Sep 2009, 19:45
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

<r><B><s>[b]</s>It's not easy being green!<e>[/b]</e></B> <br/> <br/> (Havin a Kermit the Frog moment) <br/> <br/> I'm Melissa, and I have stopped smoking cigarettes for 1 month, 8 days, 3 hours, 52 minutes and 6 seconds (39 days). <br/> I've not smoked 1371 cigarettes, and saved $370.67. <br/> I've...
by Melicious
01 Sep 2009, 20:16
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

<t>Definitely on the BUS!!! Happy as can be that I have made this journey - and I know it'll only get better and better! Thanks all of you for the well wishes - they make my day! <br/> <br/> <br/> I'm Melissa, and I have stopped smoking cigarettes for 1 month, 4 hours, 24 minutes and 32 seconds (31 ...
by Melicious
31 Aug 2009, 16:07
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: Successful Quitters one and ALL share your stats PARADE!
Replies: 314
Views: 18.2K

Welcome Ryanisfree!!! You can do it!!

25 years at two packs a day for me - and finally, 30 days without a puff - if I can, you can!

Stay close to these boards and all the reading material at Freedom - they come in handy during the rough days!
by Melicious
31 Aug 2009, 16:05
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

Thanks, namluke - can't wait to have one day where I don't think about them at all - I know it's coming, all be it too slowly for me! But one step at a time....I'm on my way! I wore green to work today too. :) I'll keep my guard up, and my dreams of gold!
by Melicious
31 Aug 2009, 14:15
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: Successful Quitters one and ALL share your stats PARADE!
Replies: 314
Views: 18.2K

I'm Melissa, and I have stopped smoking cigarettes for 29 days, 22 hours, 25 minutes and 5 seconds (29 days).

GREEN TODAY.

Amazing!!!
by Melicious
31 Aug 2009, 14:04
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

30 days today. I can hardly believe it. I didn't think I had that much fortitude! Thanks to this site, I've made it 30 days without a cigarette. AMAZING.
by Melicious
28 Aug 2009, 19:17
Forum: Navigating Withdrawal
Topic: Quitting With A Positive Attitude
Replies: 46
Views: 18.4K

Excellent reading for me today - thank you!
by Melicious
28 Aug 2009, 18:35
Forum: Emotions
Topic: Becoming An Ex-Smoker
Replies: 26
Views: 12.9K

This thread really hit home for me. Not there yet, but I know it's coming. The day I can say I've found "the zone" and am an ex-smoker. Thank you Freedom, I'd be lost without this site!
by Melicious
28 Aug 2009, 18:19
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

<t>Katy - nice to know I'm not the only one! One minute I am whining and unhappy, the next proud of myself. It's one heck of a roller coaster ride we are on. I will keep the faith - and thanks, Joe J Free.....I'm off to read more - it always helps, thank you!!!!! <br/> <br/> Here's to another weeken...
by Melicious
26 Aug 2009, 19:36
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

<t>Stress at work - BIG trigger for cravings, still. Riding them out, but gosh, when will they stop? I know I'm whining, but that's all I can think of doing today - keep reading, whine a little.....and of course NTAP. <br/> <br/> <br/> <br/> Melissa - Free and Healing for Twenty Five Days, 3 Hours a...
by Melicious
24 Aug 2009, 20:31
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: I am not going to smoke today PARADE!
Replies: 137
Views: 4.8K

<r>Welcome, tearbear - and THANK YOU - signing off with "I love me" made me think of how I am not really there yet...and how I want to feel that way everyday on my journey! I will begin by saying it every day to myself in the mirror. Best part of this website - everyone helps each other, even when I...
by Melicious
24 Aug 2009, 20:23
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: Smoke free 12 days and counting...........
Replies: 15
Views: 1.7K

<t>WELCOME! You are in the right frame of mind, and at the right website - I've found the best help and support here, it's saved me from my addict mind a number of times now. I am not much farther along than you are, but I can tell you it will get better day by day! Congrats on the best decision you...
by Melicious
24 Aug 2009, 20:12
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

<r>Glad I could bring some smiles to those who have given me so many here when I needed them! I'm a Red Sox fan to the core...no worries about that, Katy - we can root against the Evil Empire (the Yankees) together. AMAZING game your fellas had against the Mets - Pedro has always had a piece of my h...
by Melicious
24 Aug 2009, 10:01
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

Miracle on Yawkey Way :)

<r>What a weekend! Tests and stress....and NTAP - not so easy, but I made it! <br/> <br/> First, a typically tense visit and conversation with my sister - as I watched her pull away from my house, the urge to light up was crazy....hoping those stop soon, too! I made it through. <br/> <br/> Then I sp...
by Melicious
22 Aug 2009, 14:00
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

<t>Three weeks today without nicotine. It's almost September. Which is close to October - my 41st birthday. I NEVER thought when I turned 40 - even after years of saying "I quit drinking at 30, so I'll quit smoking when I turn 40!" that I would really find the fortitude to do it. It was just a way t...
by Melicious
20 Aug 2009, 13:12
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

<t>I can just stare in amazement for hours at my Quit Counter! Now my biggest struggles seem to be isolated to driving / my commute (Rt 128 in Boston - nuff said!) and the not sleeping thing. Getting a little better, I'm trying to tire myself out a bit more before bed. I mean work leaves me beat, bu...
by Melicious
16 Aug 2009, 15:44
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

<t>Hi, all - <br/> Thanks for all the support - I knew if I had a crave this was the place to go to get over it! They happen less and less, but the sleeping thing; I get to sleep fine, but I wake up so often I never seem to get a deep sleep, know what I mean? I'm treating myself to a nice lazy day t...
by Melicious
15 Aug 2009, 16:12
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

2 weeks. Amazing! Still a hard road, but one day at a time. Sleep still not much, but a little better.
by Melicious
13 Aug 2009, 09:22
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

Sleep....I just want to sleep.....
by Melicious
12 Aug 2009, 18:21
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

<t>Megga - You aren't kidding! I am looking forward to staying indoors, snug and warm, during those ice storms, blizzards and below zero wind chills this winter - rather than allowing this hideous addiction to make me go outside to get a fix every half hour. Crazy what my mind makes me think is perf...
by Melicious
11 Aug 2009, 14:49
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

<t>Thank you, all of you, for these replies and for reaching out to me. I really needed them this morning (as my usually supportive boss just lectured me on how nicotine addiction is only a compulsive behavior / bad habit I should be easily free of (so, when I told everyone at work to help SUPPORT m...
by Melicious
10 Aug 2009, 14:49
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: My Journal
Replies: 60
Views: 2.6K

My Journal

<t>I've posted in a few other topics, but it was suggested I also start a journal. <br/> <br/> Coming up on 9 days free of cigarettes. I am amazed, honestly. My hands are no longer shaking and I don't feel like crawling out of my skin anymore. But every hour is still a challenge, especially my long ...
by Melicious
07 Aug 2009, 13:10
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: How LONG? How MUCH? How MANY? - PAarDE!
Replies: 70
Views: 2.8K

PSS - I was a 2 pack a day smoker for 25 years, one quit attempt in the past lasted only 18 hours or so. Not sure what else to share. :)
by Melicious
07 Aug 2009, 13:08
Forum: The Message Board
Topic: How LONG? How MUCH? How MANY? - PAarDE!
Replies: 70
Views: 2.8K

<t>Hi - <br/> <br/> Melissa L. (aka "Melicious") here. I'm on day 6 of my new found freedom today. The first three days of torture keep me from letting my craves get the better of me. I cannot go through that again, period. I was a physical and emotional wreck, and if you knew me, you would know tha...