Hey Grumpy Ol Linda,
I must say that this is the first time I've come across this post in my 2 months on this board, and it's one of the most important to someone like me. I was telling a friend yesterday that early on in my quit, the emotions were like spikes up and down, seeming out of the blue, changeable at the drop of a hat. Tears, anger and anxiety, Oh My! Now, they are still cycling, but the waves are smoother and longer and not as extreme.
I realized that I'll never feel "normal" again - if by "normal," one means what I felt like as a smoker. I'm building a new "normal," one that's more confident, more self-loving, more healthy, and absolutely smoke-free. Someone like that will have different emotions and reactions to things than someone who felt criminal smoking in front of others or indoors, self-recriminating for not being able to breathe going up steps, antsy to get away from meetings to get a fix, very annoyed to discover only one butt left in the house before bedtime, deflated for not seeming to find the courage or strength or will power to give up cigarettes even for a few hours.
So, to all you newbies out there who resonate with these ideas, let me tell you: it DOES GET BETTER! The junkie thinking that whispers in your ear that you'll feel "better" or "normal" or "right" or "able to get through _____" if you were to just smoke again CALMS WAY DOWN and sounds as silly as it really is as you go along!
No smokes in 2 Months 2 Weeks 3 Days 11 Hours 33 Minutes 21 Seconds!
Not smoked 1569 cigarettes!
Not spent $211.90 on them!
Reclaimed 1 Wk 3 Days 21 Hrs 36 Mins 17 Secs of my life!