Even in the short amount of time that I've been free from nicotrine (3 weeks) in comparison to all of the long term quits posting here, I've seen so much of the aforementioned junkie behaviour.
The most powerful weapon I have against nicotine is my ability to think. I see and hear people rationalize their addictions each and every day. I cannot believe I participated in the constant glorification of an inanimate object for so many years.
I try to avoid berating smokers with the evangelical zeal of the convert, yet they seem so stupid. Not stupid for becoming addicted, or being addicted- that's easy, anyone can do that, but the mentality amazes me. I see and hear this behaviour and I think "Mike, old boy, that was you about 3 weeks ago- looks dumb from here doesn't it?".
I hear the same weak and overstated props for addictions from people every day.
"I just like to smoke." "I have too much stress to quit right now." "Smoking makes me feel better."
After just 3 short weeks of nicotine free living, these phrases all seem so shallow, and empty. Dusty, shadowy defenses of a completely irrational thought process. Yet 3 weeks ago, I used them frequently. I- me, the guy who prides himself on his common sense, and judgement! My uncle said something to me once, one of the most important things ever said to me by a non-smoker in reference to smoking. He said: "You're an intelligent guy, I'm sure you'll quit." That phrase tweaked something in my heart years ago when he said it. The phrase itself wasn't that powerful, more so was his delivery. He, as a non-smoker, couldn't believe that any rational, intelligent person would willingly participate in behaviour guaranteed to bring about their certain demise!
As smokers, we constantly produced these props, and defenses, both to ourselves and others, to hide the fact that we are out of control addicts. We were ashamed of our habits, knew we were addicted, and unable to do anything to stop our self destructive behaviour. So we rationalized the **** out of our nicotine addiction.
Where I stood three weeks ago, I couldn't see this.
From here, I can't believe I ever missed it!
To those who stayed with me through my ramble, thank you- mike l.
Michael S Leech - Free and Healing for Seventeen Days, 15 Hours and 44 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 2 Days and 10 Hours, by avoiding the use of 706 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $143.12.