I read the posts from 2003 to now in 2010. It is a timeless story and I appreciate it as I do the many others. A few thoughts.... I went through a lot of emotional growth the past year. When I quit smoking I also learned that REAL emotions and facing them was my biggest lesson yet to be learned. I did not know at the time but the reward was as huge as the physical rewards of being an ex. I had to adjust my attitude hourly at times and learning to do so has brought me to a me that I really like. Just as you "un-learn" a user's habits, you can replace them with positive thoughts and actions. Do not underestimate the value of incorporating this into your new life as an ex
If I was not dwelling in this skin I would not recognize myself.
There seems to be a recognizable likeness, from somewhere long ago but still better, happier and more in control than the me I have known in decades. Things that were dark, deceiving and controlling seem to have been extracted from my inner self and the basic truths left in their place. These truths are few but prominent, clear and comforting placed squarely in the center of my being. These truths consist of the following:
~Life's journey-I have no place to hide nor do I want to. I do not fear it and can readily adjust to whatever it brings me with grace and without a drug. (FFN taught me to live without a crutch or addiction)
~Health-I must face whatever disease I may encounter as everyone else before me has. I choose what I fuel and pollute my body with. I can choose good everytime, I control my body, it does not control me. (FFN taught me to accept what I cannot change and to VALUE my health even more, for me, my family and in honor of those who lost their fight)
~Love - it is the greatest gift and I have the power to give it to anyone I choose. Sometimes it saves others. And it is felt most when being given, not received. (FFN shows love for the addicted by being here, supporting us and showing us how to give back)
~Knowledge - I know that the important things in life cannot be bought, they must be felt, given, lived, shared and cherished. (FFN has given me the keys to living my life the way it was intended and probably a lot more of it!)
These are the things that drive me. Not an addiction. Not a habit, not a lie. You see, attitude is integral to recovery and healing, choose yours and watch it grow....
Thank you freedom folks for helping me get here.