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|From: Toast (GOLD!!) (Original Message)||Sent: 6/23/2001 10:44 AM|
Look no further!!!
After 20 years and never trying before, I've been quit for a full month cold turkey!
I'm thrilled and proud to have made it this far - one month! And like subconscious clock-work, last night I dreamt that I smoked not 1 but 4 cigarettes and was furious with myself for breaking my quit after a month. I was furious also about the nasty taste in my mouth.
My quit has been a challenge, but not because I necessarily crave to smoke, but rather the healing process has been a humdinger. As I've mentioned before, I've had anxiety problems since puberty. Smoking dampened them somewhat. Quitting has made me a walking hair-trigger. I've been to all my support folks - MDs, acupuncturist, massage therapist, energy workers, counselor, etc. - so, I'm not floating alone. Still, I confess to times when I've felt really awful and thought, "If smoking a cigarette would make me feel normal again ...." But I would rather feel cruddy now in waves that I know will eventually diminish, than keep smoking and wonder when the other shoe might fall.
I know my experiences are not the norm, so I don't mean to scare anybody. I just have to be honest about it and let folks know every quit is different.
Thanks to everyone for being there!
1 Month 11 Hours 44 Minutes 28 Seconds ago I decided to express how much I care about myself by putting down cigarettes. Since then, I have not smoked a potential 629 cigarettes, at a savings of $85.02.
Source: Ever seen GREEN Toast?????
You've come far, Melissa! Enjoy!