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John (Gold)
Joined: 18 Dec 2008, 23:57

04 Feb 2004, 21:07 #31


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04 Feb 2004, 21:59 #32

Thanks John,
So glad I dont have those nasty ashtrays anymore!
I know how lola free felt , in why is it getting worse...... I have felt that way in my earlier quits..... and I smoked again......It is like it was not do-able. This quit is so differant from my other quits. It wasn't easy, but (well I'm not sure if I really even understand the differance)It was do-able this time. I still believe it has everything to do with this site. But there is something else..... I just dont know what it is..... I could never judge another smoker for relapsing. I have relapsed too many times. Maybe I always thought I had time to stop again later. I dont know..... Maybe I wanted to smoke more than I wanted to quit..... I just know that today I am not smoking and My whole attitude about it is completely differant than that of any other quit I have tried. The easy part is just never take another puff, one day at a time.
This post of mine doesn't make a lot of sense.... I just know ...... I might not get another chance to quit again. So I am going to do what you tell me ...and I am going to cherish this quit!
I love being an ex-smoker!
I feel Free!
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John (Gold)
Joined: 18 Dec 2008, 23:57

25 Feb 2004, 22:12 #33

Recast Fear into Hope
Although fear is an important initial motivator it is not an enduring or sustaining motivation as your body is likely undergoing its most widespread healing ever. What will happen to your fear as your senses recover, the cough or wheeze disappear and all of the sudden you find an extra 30% functional lung capacity?
If your list of reasons contain lots of fear factors do not fret but instead gradually recast each of them into sustainable positive motives that build instead of decay. Instead of fearing the worst, dream about being all you can be and reaching for your best. Turn a fear of failing health into a dream of improving your health. By doing so, each time you notice your healing it will not deprive you of a bit more of your core motivation but will bring a smile to your face and add purpose to this wonderful temporary journey of adjustment!
Keep your conscious rational mind's dreams louder than your subconscious irrational fears that fear the unfolding amazing glory of again comfortably engaging life as you! The key to staying on this side of the bars and keeping our arrested dependency on the other is as simple as no nicotine! The next few minutes are doable! John
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John (Gold)
Joined: 18 Dec 2008, 23:57

15 Mar 2004, 20:26 #34

Cost as a Motive

Image How we look at and define the motivations we choose to elevate to the top of our list is important. Take the cost of smoking for example. If it only takes one powerful puff of nicotine to induce the onset of full and complete relapse what's the actual cost to relapse, one bummed cigarette? In fact it's far far more including a 50% risk of costing yourself about 14 years of life but as fixation anxieties begin to mount looking into the future and imaging smoking yourself to death can seem a bit hard to do. If cost is on your list below is the beginning of a relapse cost list that I invite you to build upon and keep close at hand in case the challenge should ever seem bigger than you.
  • The actual cost of buying enough nicotine for the balance of life so that you can attempt to die a comfortable nicotine addict with your blood serum nicotine level not to high and not to low.
  • The actual costs associated with obtaining your supply of nicotine (time, gas, vehicle wear and tear).
  • The cost in memories of interrupting life's finest events, gathering and moments so that you can go find an acceptable location to feed a never ending mandatory chemical need.
  • The cost in terms of daily tim devoted to planning and maintaining your addiction.
  • The cost in diminished quality of life as pulmonary or circulatory disease begins to substanitially impair breathing and/or bloodflow.
  • The medical costs.
  • Your emotional cost in self-esteem and self-worth in remaining nicotine's slave every hour of every day.
  • The neurochemical cost that defines "you" and "normal" as nicotine controls the direct and indirect flow of more than 200 of your body's neurochemicals including serotonin, adrenaline and dopamine.
  • The cost in years of life expectancy after choosing nicotine over life itself.
  • The emotional cost to your loved ones after having watched you smoke yourself to death knowing that you chose nicotine over them.
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John (Gold)
Joined: 18 Dec 2008, 23:57

22 Mar 2004, 08:41 #35

If you find yourself at or near the top of withdrawal's mountain and the challenge at times seems bigger than you, reach for your dreams. This temporary journey of adjustment is likely one of the best present you've ever given you. Embrace recovering "you" don't fear it. Slow deep breaths into the bottom of each lung, a nice cool glass of water and a tiny smile for the victory that today was yours! Baby steps! The next few minutes are all that matter and each is entirely doable. We're with you in spirit! John
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John (Gold)
Joined: 18 Dec 2008, 23:57

21 Jul 2004, 23:18 #36

Tearing Down theWall

The final phase of nicotine dependency recovery is in either allowing sufficient time to pass so that thoughts of wanting to smoke -- reflecting the mountain of denial garbage we constantly fed ourselves over the years -- gradually fade away and stop haunting and replaying over and over in the mind, or accelerating the process by seeing the arrival of each as a golden opportunity to set the record straight.

Imagine residing inside a mind chemically dependent upon a substance that addiction experts contend may possibly be the most captivating of all. Although it isn't likely that any of us then knew or realized that our brain had physically grown millions upon millions of extra acetylcholine receptors, that it had de-sensitized select critical brain pathways from an endless onslaught of nicotine, or that nicotine was in command and control over the flow of more than 200 of our body's neurochemicals, we didn't't need to know the details.

We'd each already felt the punishing anxieties of waiting too long between nicotine feedings. We knew we'd lost the autonomy to simply turn and walk away. Even though we'd tried to tune it out, we also couldn't't help but hear the dull roar of the endless stream of new study findings telling us that each and every puff not only destroyed more of our body's ability to receive and transport life-giving oxygen, but that with it came a greater accumulation of the 43 carcinogens present in each burning cigarette. We knew that a time-bomb was building in each of us.

Although clinging to the security blanket that all we suffered from was some "nasty little habit," deep down we knew we were hooked solid. So how did our conscious thinking mind cope with the sobering reality that our brain was a slave to its own senseless self-destruction?
Dignity's Denial

How did we look in the mirror each morning and maintain any sense of dignity, self-worth or self-respect while constantly being reminded that we were prisoners to dependency, decay, disease, and that today we'd move closer to completing the act of committing our own chemical suicide? It was easy - we learned to lie.

We each called upon our intelligence and conscious mind to help build a thick protective wall of denial that not only insulated us from the hard cold realities of daily dependency but behind which we could hide when those on the outside felt the need to remind us of who we really were and what we were doing. Our basic tools for building the wall were conscious rationalizations, minimizations and blame transference.

As soon as nicotine's urge commands began telling us that smoking was no longer an optional activity we each found ourselves forced to explain our involuntary obedience to them. Although nicotine's two-hour half-life inside our bloodstream was now the basic clock governing mandatory feeding times, we each became very creative in providing alternative justifications and explanations.

In our pre-dependency days we may have found honest pleasure in experiencing an unearned flood of dopamine accompanied by a nicotine induced rush of adrenaline but once the feedings became mandatory it didn't matter how we felt about them. Choice was no longer an issue. Even if we didn't fully appreciate our new state of permanent chemical captivity, many of us rationalized the situation based upon what we found ourselves doing.
Building Protection

"I don't do things that I don't like to do," we reminded ourselves. "I smoke lots and lots and lots of cigarettes, therefore I must really love smoking," instead of "therefore, I must really be addicted to smoking nicotine." Not only were our "like" and "love" rationalizations easier to swallow, they provided a conscious defense against those encouraging us to stop. Yes, the first bricks in our wall of denial were now being cemented into place, and made thicker with each empty pack.

Some of us hid from our dependency by blaming our chronic tobacco use on what we described as tobacco smoke's wonderful smell or taste. This rationalization brick not only ignored the over 600 flavor additives that the tobacco industry uses to engineer an amazing spectrum of smells and tastes, it ignored the fact that hundreds of other plants, products and people smell good too but we have never once found the need to light any of them on fire and **** them into our lungs in order to complete the experience. But if man ever decides to soak any in nicotine, stand back, as the nicotine addict will likely be burning them soon too.

One brick was our sense that we were each somehow able to control the uncontrollable. Some of us purchased just one pack at a time, playing the endless mind game that tomorrow would always be our last. Some intentionally never made a serious attempt so as to avoid having to admit dependency. Others rationalized that since they only smoked a little more than 5 mg. of nicotine daily (about 5 cigarettes) they were either less addicted than others, somehow better than other smokers, or not addicted at all. And then there are our closest smokers - like my grandmother - who constantly tried to convince us that the cloud of smoke rolling out of the bathroom behind her really wasn't there.

The most fatal control rationalization of all is the fraud of "just one," "just one little puff!" Although a primary maxim of addiction is that "one is always too many and a thousand never enough," instead of picturing all of them and the return of our entire dependency and the endless destructive chain of feeding linked to it, we rationalized countless relapses by lying to ourselves that we were stronger than nicotine and that we could smoke "just one." Why waste time entertaining the repeating thought reflected by this brick when we now know it be a lie?

Each time our wall was pierced we simply added another brick. There was our "you have to die of something" brick, our "there's still plenty of time" brick, and even the rationalization that went as far as to counter tobacco's 50% kill rate by asserting that it really meant that "there is a 50% chance that smoking won't kill me."

We also have all of our "why we smoked" rationalizations. We told ourselves that it made the coffee taste better when in fact it deadened our sense of smell and drowned coffee's flavors in the 4,000 chemicals present in each burning cigarette. There was our "best friend" brick which asserted that a chemical with an I.Q. of zero was most loyal companion we'd ever had, even when smoking it had long ago deprived us of up to one-third of our functional lung capacity.

There was our boredom brick, our appetizer before every meal brick, our after each meal dessert brick, and the brick proclaiming the first cigarette of the day to be one of the best of all. Each such rationalization totally ignored the real clock driving the situation - nicotine's two-hour chemical half-life.

They ignored the fact that the average pack-a-day smoker will receive a command to smoke (an urge) about every thirty minutes regardless of which activity their denial wishes to credit. It ignores the fact that after sleeping through three to four nicotine half-lives we were left with nicotine blood-serum reserve levels that were somewhere down around our socks. Those first daily smokes should have been memorable.

Then there was our alcohol and stress bricks. Living in a world of dependency ignorance, very few of us knew that nicotine is an alkaloid and that both stress and alcohol are acid producing events. Instead of understanding how stress and alcohol can neutralize the body's nicotine reserves we rationalized that smoking reduced our stress and that we liked smoking more when drinking.

Let's not forget our romantic fixation bricks proclaiming that some of our best memories ever were based upon the presence of nicotine, and that somehow the moment or underlying memory would have been less significant if nicotine had not added dopamine and adrenaline to it. Wouldn't honest reflection have us asking how many of life's perfect moments were interrupted by a mandatory need to leave and feed, or by a mind pre-occupied with the need to do so?

And what about our quitting bricks? Pretending that we'd be quitting soon or going so far as to actually set a date would always make today's nicotine fixes far more bearable. When we failed to follow through or relapsed we could always reach for our blame bricks and lay the cause for our defeat upon family members that just couldn't handle the temporary anxieties associated with recovery. We could blame friends, a lack of support, a relationship, stressful times, financial hardship, other smokers, alcohol or even our job.
Natural Erosion or Conscious Intervention?

The only limit upon the bricks within our wall was our imagination. Have you ever noticed just how challenging it really is to coax a smoker out from behind their wall? After years of construction it tends to be a secure and comforting place to hide from those seeking to impose their will upon us.

It is not necessary that any of us set out to consciously dismantle our wall of denial in order to successfully keep our dependency arrested. But what it may help to realize is that the bulk of our "thoughts" of wanting to smoke nicotine are likely a reflection of the very wall that we ourselves created.

As each thought arrives, will spending a bit of time reflecting upon its origin and validity help shorten this temporary period of adjustment called quitting, and diminish the number of excuses available to justify future relapse?

The day and moment is approaching when you'll awaken to an expectation of going your entire day without once wanting to smoke nicotine. Oh, you'll still have thoughts now and then but with decreasing frequency, shorter duration and declining intensity. They'll become the exception, not the rule. It may even get to the point where you'll greet them with a smile as they'll be your only reminder of the amazing journey you've made.

They say that "truth shall set us free" but here at WhyQuit we have an even better guarantee. It is impossible to lose our freedom so long as we refuse to allow nicotine back into our bloodstream. The next few minutes are all that matter and each is entirely doable. There was always only one rule ... no nicotine today ... Never Take Another Puff!
Breathe deep, hug hard, live long! John (Gold x5)

John (Gold)
Joined: 18 Dec 2008, 23:57

16 Aug 2004, 07:30 #37

Can you recall the details of the daily grind of
living and planning life from the inside of a pack?
Do you remember your dreams of breaking free?
In times of challenge reach for your dreams!

John (Gold)
Joined: 18 Dec 2008, 23:57

26 Aug 2004, 22:22 #38

Data from a recent study tends to suggest that the importance of our initial motivations as a sustaining factor during recovery likely tends to decline as we move closer to and begin to embrace the calm and mental quit that gradually emerges over time. It seems to make sense too. Why would quitting reasons carry the same significance once the challenges begin subsiding?

You're going home and there's still only one rule that guarantees success for all if followed, no nicotine today ... Never Take Another Puff!

John (Gold)
Joined: 18 Dec 2008, 23:57

20 Sep 2004, 22:05 #39

The Joy of Smoking

Out on the town, you watch as your good friend Bill lights-up and **** down a deliciously deep puff, and then lays the pack on the table between you. Cindy, your talkative co-worker, blows smoke your way while gloriously waving her cigarette like a conductor's baton. Arthur and Denise, two smoking strangers, gravitate toward one and other and engage in lite-hearted conversation while guarding a store's entrance. While stopped at a light, a deep relaxing puff is inhaled by Ellen in the car beside you. "Oh but to again share in the joys of smoking," you think to yourself, "to puff, to taste, to blow, then relax." The joys of smoking? Joy? Joy?

Yesterday, Bill stepped in a pile of dog dung but failed to notice until he turned around and was puzzled by the strange brown tracks across his sky blue carpet that seemed to lead to his right shoe. Bill's sniffer has been almost useless for over 20 years. A pack and a half a day smoker, he has experienced two cases of pneumonia over the past 3 winters, with the last one putting him in bed for 6 days. Struggling for each breath, Bill still managed to smoke a couple each day. His doctor has pleaded with him to quit but after a half dozen failed attempts, discouragement fills his mind.

Cindy's two teenage sons are onto her almost daily about her smoking. They can't walk anywhere as a family without her cigarette smoke finding the boys. When it does, they make her want to crawl into a hole as they both start coughing and gaging as if dying. When smoking, they never walk together, it's either ahead or behind for lonely mom. She dreads the seven hour drive to her parent's house next week, but she can no longer make excuses for visiting only once in 3 years. Cindy knows that they'll pass three rest areas along the interstate but it will be difficult to fib about having to go to the bathroom at all three. Two will have to do.

The date for the trip arrives. She skips making breakfast to ensure that the boys will demand that they stop to eat along the way. Cindy shakes her head after coming back in from loading up the car. Not only does she have a cigarette in her hand, the ashtray on the table is smoking one too. Before leaving town she stops to fill up with gas while managing three quick puffs, as she feels far more secure after stuffing two new packs into her purse.

Arthur, a 54 year old two pack a day smoker, has large cell lung cancer in the right lobe. The slow growing tumor is now almost five months old and a little bigger than an orange. As he sits rolling coins to purchase his next 46 mg. of mandatory daily nicotine needed to stay inside the comfort zone, he does not yet know he has cancer. Although he has twice coughed up a small bit of bloody mucus, he quickly dismissed it both times. Frankly, he just doesn't want to know. There is a bit of chest pain but that's nothing new, as chest tightness has occurred on and off for the past couple of years. Additional thick bloody mucus will soon scare Arthur into a doctor visit and a chest x-ray. The delay will cost him a lung. Over the next two years he will battle hard to save his life. In the end Arthur will lose. His fate is the same as what half of all smokers will experience - nicotine induced death.

A workaholic, Ellen has done very well financially. Her life seems to have everything except for companionship. A three pack-a-day smoker, she constantly smells like a walking tobacco factory and often turns heads and noses when walking into a room. A serious chain-smoker, she tells those around her that she enjoys her cigarettes. Deep down, she knows that she is a drug addict and believes that she just can't quit. Her car windows, house blinds and forehead continually share a common guest - a thin oily film of tar and other chemicals. Ellen has a date next Friday, a two pack-a-day smoker named Ed. They'll find comfort in sharing their addictions.

Denise started smoking at age 13 while her lungs were still developing. Constantly clearing her throat, month by month her breathing capacity continues to slowly deteriorate. Smoking lines and wrinkles above and below her lips have aged a once attractive face far quicker than its 32 years. Considered "cool" when she became hooked, the government recently banned smoking in all public buildings, her boss just posted a new non-smoking policy at work, and the headline in the local paper she is holding is about the city proposing a ban on smoking in the park across the street. Feeling like a hopelessly addicted social outcast, a single tear begins working its way down her cheek.

Fifteen pounds over weight to begin with, a year ago Denise successfully quit for almost 2 months by exchanging cigarettes for a new crutch called food. She threw in the towel when she had outgrown her entire wardrobe. Three months following relapse, and still depressed over her defeat, all the new weight remains with her. Already on high-blood pressure medication, she is about to become a regular user of anti-depressants.

The joy of smoking? Joy?

Fortunately for Denise, a caring friend will tell her about a free online nicotine cessation education and support forum called Freedom. There, Denise will dedicate herself toward understanding the core principles underlying her almost two decades of chemical dependency upon nicotine. She will successfully arrest her addiction, develop the patience and outlook needed to navigate her temporary period of adjustment called "quitting," reclaim her self-confidence, and develop the mental skills and healthy body needed to successfully tackle all of her unwanted pounds, just one pound at a time.

All that matter are the next few minutes and each is entirely doable. There will always be only one rule that 100% guarantees success for each of us - no nicotine today, Never Take Another Puff!
Breathe deep, hug hard, live long! John (Gold x5)

John (Gold)
Joined: 18 Dec 2008, 23:57

19 Dec 2004, 16:49 #40

Dreams > Desire > Power > One Day at a Time > Victory > Freedom!