thanks for bringing it up Big Al,
thank you for writing it linda,im sure glad it was asthma too.
you are so right that as smokers we have to be frightened into quiting,
i experienced this last week when i nearly lost my quit, during an urge i had no fear of what smoking would do to me, and it happened to be the worst crave id had since id quit, because i had been comfortable for so long, i let boundaries slip, and fear fall away. the biggest mistake was not keeping fresh in the mind the very worse case senario that smoking can do to you.(or those who love or depend on you)
For mothers like me we have to always remember, if something doesnt happen to us it could happen to our children, i have to live with the guilt that my son has asthma most likely because i smoked when i was pregnant, he was low birth weight, had under developed lungs, and i smoked around him for the first 4 years of his life.
this did not stop me though, junkie thinking makes you blame anything else but yourself. he hasnt had a chest infection since i quit, theres the proof to me, i had spent 4years in and out of hospitals with him, inhalers, nebulizers ,oxygen, steroids.
one night lying in bed i thought i was going to have a heart attach, couldnt move, i had already had surgery over bad circulation, it scared the life out of me, i quit at that moment only because my life had flashed before me, wasnt it selfish that i had to wait til i got a fright , yet my son had to go through 4 years of slow choking and gasping before i would stop.
i am lucky too, and fearful yet again.