My Computer Saved My Life

My Computer Saved My Life

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22 Mar 2001, 04:21 #1

When I told my husband a couple of years ago that I wanted to get a computer, he told me that we had made it into our mid fifties without one, why get one now. I had no answer for him other than I wanted the internet (had really no clue what the internet was) and besides, every one else our age was getting them. The more people I saw getting them the more I too, wanted one and so I figured I was a wage earner ......heck, I could buy my own computer and in a couple of months I did just that...and it has saved my life![/size] Being a smoker for 41 years, I thought that I'd live the rest of my life as one......tried to quit before but never lasted longer than 5 days before running to the store to buy a pack of cigarettes. Tried the patches too.....wore them at work and then got home and ripped them off as fast as I could, ran down the basement.....and smoked.[/size]

Around the end of '99, my husband and I said we had to quit, but how and when. It was discovered in august of '99 that he had three aneurysms forming..one abdominal.....two illiac (arteries into the legs). The doctors said he needed surgery after the first of the year before the aneurysms got any bigger and burst. An aneurysm is the thinning of a blood vessel that becomes worse until it bursts.....like a balloon being blown up until it pops. An aneurysm that breaks is instant death unless the person is lucky to get to the hospital before bleeding to death internally. There is no sign or clue that it is in you unless it found during an exam for another problem or it breaks.....smoking is blamed for a majority of aneurysms. Needless to say.....the vascular surgeon said smoking would have to cease....easy to say when you've never smoked....hard to do when you've spent your life smoking.[/size]

Hal said that if I quit smoking, so would he. Aw gee.....and if I continued smoking, well, so would he. We set Jan 1 for our start/quit date and I told everyone at work that after New Years' weekend, I would return to work smoke free. Before the New Years weekend, I bought 2 packs of cigarettes and 1 box of patches. They gave me dirty looks at work! Well Jan 1 came and went and we were still smoking. On the second of January, I was surfing the net looking for smoking articles when lo and behold.....a forum for people who were trying to quit!! Imagine that![/size]

I sat there mesmerized and read and read the posts of people just like me trying to kick the habit. My husband and I were not the only people in the world, who, that very day were trying to quit. Amazing. They had these neat things at the ends of their posts that told how long it had been since they smoked......it was the quitmeter they said and it was free....just had to download it to my computer. I did!!! I got the nerve to say that I, Linda, was never going to smoke again and then received all sorts of letters of encouragement from people I'd never met before. This was wonderful!! I had my quitmeter and I was going to beat this habit.[/size]

On January 3, at 11:45 am, I found a cigarette!! It was hiding in my drawer in my bedroom.....actually I knew it was there....was sort of saving it for a rainy day.
I smoked it! I stood in my bathroom just 13 hours into a quit and smoked a cigarette.....how could I??? Well, a cigarette is a cigarette and now I have to reset my meter back to ground 0. The people at the smoking board said....that's ok Linda...start again, and I did. I was so angry at myself, so disgusted at my weakness, so upset because the cigarette was here in my house. But because I was so upset.....I vowed it would never happen again.
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Online suppot has saved my life and my husband's. He did not come near my computer, but had I failed, so would have he. To be able to sit in your own home and scream and yell and cry and laugh with others that are going through the same thing was a modern day miracle. To know what to expect and what to do should I feel the need to smoke....was a keyboard stroke away. Help was always there for me. I read and read and posted and posted.....kept a very close eye on my quitmeter and smiled each day at noon when it made this silly quacking or honking noise letting me know another smokefree day has passed......I found whyquit.com and then Freedom and the days, slow to pass at first, now fly by faster than ever.[/size]

For all the new people here and for those of you that are having a little more difficult time quitting than others.....I say use online help to its fullest. People helping people is the most wonderful concept in the world. Look at AA or NA and the success those wonderful organizations have enjoyed over the years....people helping people. For those of us a little more confident in our quit....the greatest gift we can give to others is that which was given to us....encouragement and support.[/size]

Scream, holler, do whatever you have to do ........but remember the most important thing you can do for yourself is to ask for help and receive it......and then when you have succeeded, and you will.....give it back to others.[/size]

Yes.....my computer, that which my husband said I did't need, saved our lives.....for that, and for all the wonderful support I received, and for all the new friends I've made.....I will be forever grateful.[/size]

Linda....after 41 years of smoking...free since January, 3, 2000.[/size]
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11 Apr 2001, 11:31 #2

Thank you Linda
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11 Apr 2001, 18:11 #3

Remember me???

I remember you..

I first made application to Freedom within the first 24 hours of my quit. But, because I was in such a state, I only filled in my first name and email address. The comment box was left to your imagination, hehehe. Anyway, you sent me an email back, I sent you a sheepish apology and you accepted me. Thanks Linda. I realise you probably wouldn't remember this, but I will always remember you. I actually stumbled on Freedom by accident. I wouldn't have come back if you hadn't of taken the time to tell me of my mistake and I would most probably be still smoking. See Linda, you were the first outstretched hand I saw and I grabbed it.
And for that, I will always remember YOU.
Lots and Lots of HUGS,
Love, Kelli
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11 Apr 2001, 23:49 #4

Oh my, Kelli....when I first started to read your note I thought....I did not let her in....she is angry at me. Unfortunately, so many applicants to Freedom do not state when they have quit or if they have quit cold turkey on their applications. This is so very important to us as we no longer debate these issues on the board as we did almost a year ago when everyone here was quitting a different way. We have had a few applicants upset because they were not admitted, but by keeping our standards high....relapse rates have remained low as we, for the most part, have quitters here, that have tried everything to quit and for the first time in their lives have found the answer to their dreams in a tough, no nonsense, board.

So darn happy to hear from you Kelli....you truly made my day. Keep up the great job....and by your being here and writing....you too, will, without a doubt, keep someone else from smoking.

yqs, Linda
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12 Apr 2001, 00:03 #5

Thanks Linda: I have been out of touch for a while. We had lost our DSL provider at work, and dial up on a large network of computers is difficult at best. Anyway I couldn't help but notice your post. I was one of the many people who joined the ranks on 8/3/2000. That fateful day for me and many others. I have talked before about the dreams of my untimely death and how I stubbled upon this group ( THE BEST STUBBLE IN MY LIFE!!!) I could go on and on, but I to feel that my cumputer saved my life too.

Great to be back and SMOKE FREE for Eight months, one week, one day, 8 hours, 28 minutes and 41 seconds. 5027 cigarettes not smoked, saving $942.73. Extra days above ground: 2 weeks, 3 days, 10 hours, 55 minutes.

Sye (Mike)
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12 Apr 2001, 12:51 #6

Hi Linda,I have not had much luck posting the last few days.I tried 3 times to write something just now.I`d been meaning to reply to your post since you put it up.You are one of those very special people that gives so much to everyone here.I especially like it when you are straightforward.I believe that my computer saved my life as well.Some people say that the internet is bad because there is so much filth on it.But for all the junk there is a lot more of the good things we wouldnt have without it.This support group is a shining example of that.Not only do we help eachother,sometimes having something to throw myself into is a good way to forget an urge to smoke.Its nice to think that one of these times when we reply to someone it may really help their quit.I know that you have helped me.I enjoyed your personal testimony in this post.Sure helps to know we arent alone doesnt it?thanks for getting a computer,amcanuck
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29 Apr 2001, 18:35 #7

Dear Linda,
Thank you for this post that so eloquently shares your personal motivation that gave you the "dig in your heels" determination to succeed. Often these stories are with me when I am away from my computer. You do not see me; I am with you. much love, Victoria.
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30 Apr 2001, 00:49 #8

Linda, aka GrumpyOMrsS:

Thank you very much for accepting me into this community, and for the personalized reply you sent me informing me I WAS A MEMBER AT FREEDOM! I noticed your subject title while signing in today. I am so glad I finally got this computer. One of the reasons I did was to be able to keep my fingers and mind busy so I would have a better success rate of finally quiting ciggerettes, as I cannot get out and about and have trouble doing things at home that require physical energy and therefore keeping my hands and mind busy on something else. I have been smoking since I was 15 yrs old. 46 now ... Oh My God! I just figured it out! I've been smoking for 31 years! I'm shocked. I have quit before, when I was well and still working, it lasted for 8 months. My downfall, as with every quit after, came down to going out, having a drink with friends and bumming a ciggerette. Which eventually would lead to me buying a pack. So, the nicodemon (appropriate name) was always there lurking. NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF is the only way I am going to be to able to succeed at this, I am sure. I'm am happy you got your computer and it not only save you, but your beloved husband as well.

I am glad I have found the support here I know I am going to need to help me reprogram by brain and that it will be available to me for as long and whenever I need it - it seems you're never safe, no matter how long you have quit. And it's all only a computer loggon away!

Thank you once again
Cheryl
aka sunhineray
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03 May 2001, 17:52 #9

Someone looking for this thread - hope this helps them to find it. Cheers, Glenys
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19 Jul 2001, 00:54 #10

for all those who are thinking about quitting, but don't feel they can....please do not underestimate the power of online support. First and foremost in battling nicotine addiction, as with other addiction, is a clear and concise understanding of that addiction. The information gained here at freedom through Joel's library, Zep's whyquit.com and the posts of thousands of other members who have joined Freedom in their quest to kick the deadliest of the addictions is invaluable.

So first you must be determined to quit....wanting to quit is not enough...you have to say to yourself that you will DO it by hook or crook....then you must educate yourself on nicotine addiction, jump in and do intense learning during the first 72 hours and then, become a member of the the most wonderful and dedicated quit cold turkey site on the www where our members will be here to celebrate your victory with you and give you a gentle nudge when you think you are having a problem. And, oh yes, the most important rule of all to be successful once you begin your quit....NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF!!

Linda.....After smoking for 41 years...I have been smokefree for one year, six months, two weeks, one day, 49 minutes and 37 seconds. 11,220 cigarettes not smoked, saving $1,685.98. Life saved: 5 weeks, 3 days, 23 hours, 0 minutes.
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22 Jul 2001, 22:10 #11

Here Gormo, I thought you would appreciate this article too in light of how you feel about your computer experience.

Joel
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02 Sep 2001, 23:16 #12

The beauty of a serious online cessation education and support experience is that we can each take as much as we need. There are now almost 85,000 messages here at Freedom! Clearly enough reading to keep a Newbie busy for the better part of an entire year! Enjoy your journey home! It's nice being free! Thanks Linda : ))) YQB Zep : )
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02 Sep 2001, 23:29 #13

I wonder how many of us out there Linda has folded into her welcoming loving arms?
My nose gets red when I think of how tender and vulnerable I was those first few weeks, months,and how often her and the other managers, pulled me back from the edge with LOVE and EDUCATION! I won't ever forget.

Your sweet smelling Dionne, clean since Oct. 8th 2000.
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04 Sep 2001, 13:38 #14

Hey Linda,
What a great, great story! If your not from the South you should have been. Cause only Southerners tell'em that good! What an inspiration and a testament to a great many things in life...love, commitment, willingness, honesty, where-with-all, endurance, integrity. Im honored to be communing with you. Katie
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05 Jan 2002, 21:42 #15

I saw where Hilary referred to this one and since it was Linda's anniversary just a few days ago, thought it would be an interesting read for everyone.
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06 Jan 2002, 06:26 #16

Linda, I really love this story. I also give credit to my computer for having given me the opportunity to join this family of Quitters. I was just telling my son the other night that I did not think I could have quit if it hadn't been for on-line support. He is trying to quit so I emailed him the WhyQuit.Com address. I hope he reads and learns and become determined to quit. He is the only one of my 5 children that smokes. One of my sons-in-law just quit last month, the 10th I think. He doesn't have a computer.

Thanks again for sharing.
Nora
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21 Feb 2002, 22:02 #17

I felt I owed this to Linda. After all, she brought up much of my work this morning.

I've been very busy getting ready for a conference that I will be speaking at the next few days. It has drastically limited my time this week. I'll be checking in sporadically as time permits.

Until then, if anyone sees any issues raised that any of the library letters or past posts would properly address, feel free to bring them up at any time. Actually a number of our members are getting good at this. I see them going at the exact letters I would go for when questions are asked. I feel the board is in great hands even when any of the managers are tied up with other matters. Thanks to everyone who keeps the board focused on how important it is to always remember to never take another puff!

Joel
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19 Jul 2002, 00:00 #18

We hear so many bad things about the internet but it also brings with it the potential to transport each of us to empowering tools like Freedom, and allows to communicate with cessation experts like Joel, who has dedicated his entire adult life toward helping those chemically dependent upon nicotine break the bonds that bind them. If you're just visiting we encourage you to bookmark our site (www.WhyQuit.com) and continue your education.
None of us are stronger than nicotine but then nicotine is just a drug which has zero intelligence. With a bit of indepth understanding it can be brains over bronze every time! If you're here reading with us now, you already have the desire!! Knowledge is power! Welcome to Freedom, we've been waiting on you! John - a very comfortable ex-smoker!
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09 Jan 2006, 03:39 #19

The one letter that I have saved at the address I use for this group is the one that Linda sent welcoming into Freedom. It represents my step into my new life, the step that I took because my computer saved MY life.

If I had not stumbled onto www.whyquit.com and found facts and truth and How To Quit and Stay Quit...I would be 3 years further into emphysema and who knows what else.

Congratulations, Linda, and thank you for all of your contributions!

Sal
Two years, eleven months, three weeks, six days, 12 hours, 35 minutes and 25 seconds. 26220 cigarettes not smoked, saving $5,244.12. Life saved: 13 weeks, 1 hour, 0 minutes.

(Hey Joe, methinks I'll be celebrating you at a certain party quite soon!!)
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09 Jan 2006, 11:29 #20

Hi Sal and Joe:

Well you did it. You both managed to catch my attention with this old post and pull me back to the board following a couple weeks hiatus from my computer while recouping from knee surgery. Thank you for your comments and congratulations to both of you on your upcoming anniversaries. It seems like yesterday you were both taking your first tentative steps toward recovery and look at you now. Not only have you done it, but you are also showing countless others the way. This is what online support is all about.

While the title of this post has always sounded corny to me, the message within, captures my feelings on the importance of online support and there is nothing corny about that. All of you reading this, please use your computer to learn, to understand nicotine addiction, to ask questions when you are in doubt. Use your computer to its fullest. The wealth of information both at Freedom and Whyquit.Com is mind staggering, sobering and wonderful. If you do that, then you too will be able to tell your grandkids how your computer saved your life and maybe even tell them if they read and learn about this deadly addiction, their computers will one day save their lives as well.

Again, many thanks for your kind words.

Linda

Hal and I are 6 years free after smoking for 41 years and loving every minute of our freedom.
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03 Oct 2006, 03:44 #21

Since this string is mentioned in I quit thousands of times then... seemed a good time to hear from another of Freedom's Goldest Quitters - Linda (aka GrumpyoMrsS).
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04 Jan 2007, 08:00 #22

Congratulations Linda & Hal!!
Two of the nicest folks you'll ever meet, trust me.
YQF - JoeJ
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06 Mar 2007, 08:47 #23

Thought of this old favorite when I saw someone mention being grateful for the internet.


JoeJ Free for 2 years and then some there by choosing not to use nearly 20,000 deadly dose devices and keepin over $4 Grand in my pocket where it belongs! However, the biggest saving is in the 68 days of my lifes time I've reclaimed by deciding to NTAP!
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18 Mar 2007, 20:29 #24

I saw a post from a new member who said that she was working on her first computer. Made me think of Linda's post here.
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06 Jul 2007, 09:41 #25


I took a couple of days off from work. It occurred to me how absolutely amazed I was that I can take a couple of days off, with nothing particular to do except R & R .... and that R & R if free from chains AND I actually relish, enjoy, cherish, and am having a GREAT time reconnecting after a goulish 1 1/2 year project at work! I reflected on what saved my live almost 3 years ago....this post is a very cherished post to me. As you can see, I come back to it often!

Take heart and know you are FREE if you NTAP!

Katie - After 40 Years! Free and Healing for Two Years, Eight Months, Seventeen Days, 12 Hours and 38 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 58 Days and 12 Hours, by avoiding the use of 16856 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $3,512.37.
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