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|From: AmandaMarieChape0||Sent: 7/20/2008 8:13 AM|
|Thanks Bob... |
Man, I've been experiencing some convincing craves. These craves tell me:
"You have plenty of time to quit - you're so young."
"This is your first time back home for almost a year...you should quit after you've gone back west."
"Your sister just got arrested (and she did this morning) - you can smoke a simple cigarette."
"Wouldn't it be wonderful to sit outside a coffee shop and chat with someone over a cup of coffee and a cigarette???"
But, I know that I don't want TO BE A SMOKER. Yes, I want to smoke RIGHT NOW but I don't want to BE A SMOKER. I like what you said about having the trump card and that my addict mind doesn't control my wallet, hands or mouth. That's quite true.
But i am on the verge of relapse...been this way for three days. It was SOOO much easier the last time.