I Quit Thousands of Times Then...

I Quit Thousands of Times Then...

Joined: December 18th, 2008, 11:57 pm

August 5th, 2000, 9:56 pm #1

I'd quit 1000's of times, then...
By Freedom's Goldest Quit
Poppa Jim

I have to wonder just how many times I quit smoking. I became addicted to nicotene, and never even realized until it already happened. The definition of addiction is simple; somewhere along the line I lost the power of choice over whether or not I would smoke. I remember many times when I hacked my way through one more, hating the taste or smell, swearing that it would be different when I quit.................. tommorow. I remember the emotional turmoil of another 'quitting' day started. Within minutes of waking, knowing I'd regret it, and I'd lighting up anyway. I remember the anguish of having spent a few hours or maybe even a day or so without one. I remember being totally obsessed with the idea of having one..... just one, it's all I need right now, and I'll stop again right away, just this one to take the edge off, to make it a little easier, to ease my way out slowly..... knowing that every rationalization was complete bull. That 'one' is all it ever took. As soon as I lit that 'one', any choice was gone. The day or hours spent was a wash. The obsession before that 'one' was intensified after, and afterward there was always the rationalization that I'd already had one so I'd start fresh...... tommorow. Today I realize that the first one might as well be one thousand. There's a difference between quitting, stopping, and surrendering to the addiction. I quit thousands of times, but could never stop. Someone who isn't addicted stops and doesn't even think about it. For me, just the thought of stopping engulfed my mind in the obsession for another. It was only when I surrendered to the idea that my addiction controlled me that I began to stand a chance at stopping. As an actively addicted person, stopping forever was always a distant dream. The happily-ever-after syndrome always failed because I'd forgotten how to live without cigarettes. I had to treat the problem the same way any other drug addiction is treated. I had to forget 'forever' and just stay with the here-and-now. I had to re-learn how to live life, and that meant taking things minute-by-minute sometimes. I had to keep believing that keeping away from that first one was all I needed to worry about. No matter what was happeneing, just a few minutes more and not have the first one. The minutes turned to hours. The hours turned to days. Weeks. Years Even today, there are times when someone lights up near me and the smell of it CALLS to me. I'll finish a meal, and the old, familiar urge creeps in. The addiction still tells me the same old lies. "Just bum ONE from somebody. One won't hurt." Lies. I do know this one truth. It gets easier. As time passes it's easier to recognize the addiction for what it is, and it gets easier to live my life without having that first one. I can't escape the fact that I'm addicted any more than I can reverse the emphysemia that resulted from my abuse of nicotene. But at the start of my day (and any time when the obsession sets in ) I can say a quick prayer to the good Lord for help to get past the need for that first one. And at the end of the day I can say a quick prayer of thanks that I could make it through one more day where I'm not killing myself by my own hand. Another addicted person's understanding of a Higher Power might be different than mine, but I can only suggest they find a way to work that Higher Power into their life on a daily basis. On a minute-by-minute basis if that is what they need. These simple principles are used by alcoholics and addicts to recover from dire, life-threatening circumstances. These principles state that the circumstances of addiction don't matter, it's what it does to someone. I've come to recognize that my Higher Power reached out to me through people teaching me these principles, and this has save my life. Now, in accordance with those principles, I repay that kindness in the way that those people taught me. Now I reach out to others and try to pass along a simple message. There is hope, and there is freedom. To get here, I had to find a Power greater than myself, because setting myself as the highest power in life left me with an addict for a god. The Higher Power that I see working in my life today helps me to LIVE life in ways I was truely meant to have lived it. All I can do is suggest. Try this for 90 days. If you aren't satisfied after that, I'll gladly refund double your misery. Poppa_Jim
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September 6th, 2000, 3:23 am #2

Thanks for bringing this up to the top again. It is VERY VERY GOOD.

Nora
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September 6th, 2000, 7:40 am #3

There are not enough times one could read this and not be moved. We're all there with the addiction. Let's hope we can go on like Poppa Jim. Thanks for posting it again. Joyce



Two weeks, one day, 17 hours, 46 minutes and 54 seconds. 393 cigarettes not smoked, saving $68.86. Life saved: 1 day, 8 hours, 45 minutes.
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September 6th, 2000, 7:49 am #4

I read in a book once that "one cigarette is too many and ten thousand are not enough". How true those words are! I'm going to work as hard as I can to stay smoke free. Thanks for these words of inspiration, Jim!

debbie
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September 26th, 2000, 6:40 am #5

Thanks for posting,, it was very timely for me, as they all seem to be. Later Christiana
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October 17th, 2000, 1:41 am #6

Thank you Poppa Jim. Oh how true . . .
Jitterbug One month, one week, six days, 23 hours, 20 minutes and 41 seconds. 879 cigarettes not smoked, saving $169.29. Life saved: 3 days, 1 hour, 15 minutes.
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December 9th, 2000, 12:42 am #7

Thanks for bringing this one back to the top Joanne. And a great big thank you to Poppa Jim for writing it...how true it is.

I think we quit, quit, quit until it finally clicks and we surrender to our addiction and find a way to overcome.

Amy

I have been free for One day, 2 hours, 8 minutes and 8 seconds. And have not smoked 32 cigarettes, have robbed Phillip Morris of $4.54. I have added: 2 hours, 40 minutes.
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December 22nd, 2000, 9:30 pm #8

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January 15th, 2001, 3:19 pm #9

It's time for a visit from Pappa Jim
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March 14th, 2001, 11:38 pm #10

An awesome read! God Bless Poppa Jim



A bit of a side note:

Wow....in looking at Amy's stats in this thread in comparison to her stats in today's parade...a whole lotta freedom goin' on!
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May 3rd, 2001, 9:15 am #11

Thanks for bringing this one up and a big THANK YOU to Poppa Jim for writing it.
I'm sharing this one with my wonderful mom.

-Theresa, Two weeks, two days, 2 hours, 15 minutes and 15 seconds. 273 cigarettes not smoked, saving $44.46. Life saved: 22 hours, 45 minutes.
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May 8th, 2001, 8:02 am #12

Thanks ... needed to hear that especially today with smoking Friend over and that addicted part of my brain making up SO MANY EXCUSES FOR ME TO TAKE A SMOKE!

THANKS SUNSHINERAY
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May 8th, 2001, 8:31 am #13

Hey Sunshine -you read this- and read it again and again and again -if you need to - I do - I printed it out and stuck it to my notice board.

And please remember there is NO EXCUSE/REASON to have a cigarette - remember sunshine hang onto your Freedom! don't throw it away for the sake of a cigarette which WILL NOT give you any sense of relief anyway!! Sorry but you've come too far!

We are in good hands........

yqs Maz
NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF!!
Three months, two weeks, three days, 10 hours, 36 minutes and 26 seconds of FREEDOM!!
2686 cigarettes not smoked, saving $859.87. Life saved: 1 week, 2 days, 7 hours, 50 minutes.
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May 9th, 2001, 1:17 pm #14

Thank you Poppa Jim, I have been jealous of a friend who had a very low addiction, only smoked at night, socially and has had no weight gain and no problem quittingj(so it seems) AAAARRRGH!! My addiction was just that, AWFUL!! Thanks for this post, I think back on how many times I would set a date to quit, and not make it past 7am, I hate NICODEMON so much that I am more and more determined never to take another puff!!! 2m 1w 4d 27m...TLC Heather
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March 20th, 2003, 2:12 am #15

"I had to re-learn how to live life, and that meant taking things minute-by-minute sometimes. I had to keep believing that keeping away from that first one was all I needed to worry about. No matter what was happeneing, just a few minutes more and not have the first one. The minutes turned to hours. The hours turned to days. Weeks. Years."

MareBear, thanks for digging up this little gem -- I'd never read it! Lots of wisdom and hope in here.

Parker - 9+ months
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October 4th, 2005, 8:04 am #16

I remember many times when I hacked my way through one more, hating the taste or smell, swearing that it would be different when I quit.................. tommorow. I remember the emotional turmoil of another 'quitting' day started. Within minutes of waking, knowing I'd regret it, and I'd lighting up anyway. .........


I've come to recognize that my Higher Power reached out to me through people teaching me these principles, and this has save my life. Now, in accordance with those principles, I repay that kindness in the way that those people taught me. Now I reach out to others and try to pass along a simple message. There is hope, and there is freedom. To get here, I had to find a Power greater than myself, because setting myself as the highest power in life left me with an addict for a god. The Higher Power that I see working in my life today helps me to LIVE life in ways I was truely meant to have lived it. All I can do is suggest. Try this for 90 days. If you aren't satisfied after that, I'll gladly refund double your misery.
Poppa_Jim
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July 1st, 2006, 5:14 am #17

.........All I can do is suggest. Try this for 90 days. If you aren't satisfied after that, I'll gladly refund double your misery. Poppa_Jim
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November 3rd, 2006, 10:39 am #18

Try this for 90 days. If you aren't satisfied after that, I'll gladly refund double your misery. Poppa_Jim
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December 14th, 2006, 8:01 pm #19

It's been a long while since I posted, but this one caught my attention today. I was thinking only yesterday about how in January I approach the two year mark. Yes, I'm still quit and extremely happy about it. It is interesting how sometimes I am still caught off guard by one of those fleeting thoughts as outlined before. Even after nearly two years of "smoking sobriety" I get the occasional little voice in my ear. Fortunately it is never enough to convince me to trade up my easy breathing for a return into smoking misery. There is something wonderful about not having to fumble every other shop for a cigarette, not having to join the queue of outcast miserable smokers huddled together out in the freezing cold wind while others sit inside the cafe, warmly sipping on their coffee. It is brilliant not keep putting the phone away from my mouth so I can hack-hack away without deafening the person I'm talking to with my smoker's cough. I have almost forgotten. Almost, but not quite. I always want to hang on to the tail end of those memories so I never again make the mistake of taking another puff.
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December 14th, 2006, 9:28 pm #20

Hello Poppa Jim,

Thanks for the inspiring post - if you can do it so can I!! This MUST be my last quit - you have helped. If I am tempted I will remember the "double your misery" message.

You have done so well.

Sharry x
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February 26th, 2007, 11:05 am #21

From: Joel. Sent: 12/22/2000 8:30 AM
Again, since Linda has brought up my works minimizing the time I need to go looking for topics I am looking for memorable posts from others that haven't been around for a while. Anyone know where the string My computer saved my life may be?
Joel
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September 13th, 2007, 3:53 am #22

This is an AWESOME post & just what I needed to read today. Don't quit...
surrender! Suzi
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August 23rd, 2008, 8:23 am #23

I had to forget 'forever' and just stay with the here-and-now. I had to re-learn how to live life, and that meant taking things minute-by-minute sometimes. I had to keep believing that keeping away from that first one was all I needed to worry about. No matter what was happeneing, just a few minutes more and not have the first one. The minutes turned to hours. The hours turned to days. Weeks. Years
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February 27th, 2009, 5:54 pm #24

From: Joel. Sent: 12/22/2000 8:30 AM
Again, since Linda has brought up my works minimizing the time I need to go looking for topics I am looking for memorable posts from others that haven't been around for a while. Anyone know where the string My Computer Saved My Life may be?
Joel
One of the oldest strings from the old FFT place back again and still vital as when I first read it!
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August 27th, 2009, 9:26 am #25

This is so right on for me I have nothing to add. Thank you, Poppa Jim, for writing this way back when to inspire me today and years to come.
ann
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