Thanks Rick and JoJ. I really "get this" -- life goes on. You stop smoking, and partly you go back to your younger self, and the parts of you that were chubby at 16 may come back as well, also the feelings that nicotine had submerged beneath the addiction. Today was a day for me like Alex's day back then -- not a thought of smoking. Not missing, not wanting it, not anxious. And tomorrow? Who knows. One day at a time, I will remain a non-smoker, an ex-smoker, a could be smoker, who never again smokes as long as I NTAP, regardless of my feelings in the moment.
Best, Joanne free for 106 days.