I don't know if I have another quit in me. Doesn't matter! I certainly don't want to find out!
I'm not sure how many times I have quit over these 38..39 years. Way too many times to remember them all. Some only lasted an hour or two. Some lasted a day. Some lasted a couple of days. Some lasted a week. Some lasted a couple of weeks.
A few lasted a month or two. The longest quit I ever had was 11 months. That was about 14 or 15 years ago. I remember saying that if I ever put a cigarette in my mouth again it would be INSANITY!
That one was a good quit. I didn't gain weight, I became a health food nut and walked a lot! I wish that I could have had access to Joel's Library and Freedoms Board! Things might have been different. I would have known better. I would have really understood that that one little Puff is really thousands and thousands more! If I enjoyed smoking so much why was I always trying to quit!
The quit before this one lasted long enough for me to gain 35 pounds before I threw in the towel.That quit was never a very solid quit. I also remember saying after I relapsed that I was never going to quit again. It was just too hard and I just did not have what it takes to go through that again. Do I have another quit. I don't know!
This is my True Quit! This one is different. This quit was just as hard as the others. I went through all the withdrawal agony. But this time I understood what was happening. This time I had tons of things to read about this addiction and nicotine. This time I had hundreds of post to read from people going through the same pain and frustrations I was going through. This time I was reading posts about tragic things that were happening to people and they did not resort back to their drug to get them through it. This time there were people who had quit smoking that understood what I was going through and said that it had been that way for them too but they stayed quit. I know a lot of people who have quit smoking and most of them are kind of ho hum about it. When asked they just say they just stopped no big deal! I just always thought something was wrong with my willpower! I wonder now if they have just forgotten. I always thought my withdrawal was harder than others until I read the posts here. I am not alone. I always thought I would never be "normal" even in that 11 month quit I would get these craves caused by triggers. I just did not know what was happening ... I thought I would have them for the rest of my life. I thought I was different! I now know that things will get better because all of the golden oldies tell me it will. I choose to believe them. It is already getting much better for me!
This quit is my last quit because all I have to do is Never Take Another Puff!
It's that simple.Today I can choose the path toward a healthy life or I can choose the path toward a painful death. My choice is Life!
One month, six days, 9 hours, 6 minutes and 53 seconds. 1121 cigarettes not smoked, saving $154.19. Life saved: 3 days, 21 hours, 25 minutes.