Desperate Addicts Parade: Have You Ever...

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16 Mar 2008, 21:33 #241

Just the other day I walked to a bus stop and stared at a whole cigarette lying on the ground. The addict in me was tempted to pick it up and smoke the dirty thing until I snapped the elastic band on my wrist which brought me back to the land of the living. Note: Lying beside the cigarette was a wrapper from Nicorette Gum. Go figure.
I have been quit for 1 Week, 3 Days, 21 hours, 2 minutes and 1 second (10 days). I have saved $114.20 by not smoking 380 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Day, 7 hours and 40 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 3/5/2008 12:30 PM

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16 Mar 2008, 22:48 #242

On Feb. 11th I completed presenting 63 cessation seminars in 28 S.C. prisons and much of what I heard from both inmates and staff belongs in this thread. These prisons had made all tobacco illegal and in maximum security prisons (what's called Level 3) the price for a single cigarette was usually near $8 dollars. At my first female prison I shared the $8 figure and one lady afterwards claimed that she was paid $40 for a single cigarette while boasting, "and her parents put the money in my account!"
At my very first prison the warden said that inmates were caught trading illegal drugs for tobacco, something he thought he'd never in his lifetime see. Inmates at lower level prisons doing roadside cleanup were often caught trying to get the butts inside. I used this in later presentations by asking inmates to reflect on what animal may have urinated upon them first. An ice breaker, it usually brought a laugh. Needless to say that Bibles were disappearing at an alarming rate as the thin paper was used to hand roll cigarettes.
At a number of prisons I heard reports of inmates selling themselves for cigarettes. At every prison there were stories that once the new policy went into effect that inmates were caught experimenting with smoking tea or coffee, but no story where any inmate did so twice.
One thing that really crystalized in my mind is just how similar tobacco becomes to other drugs of addiction once declared illegal. With a prison retail per price of nearly $1,600 per carton (10 packs x 20 cigarettes each x $8), which was usually heavily discounted if purchased by the pack, we saw a number of correctional officers and other staff members lose their jobs for getting caught attempting to supplement their modest wages by selling cigarettes.
At one prison they were flying remote controlled airplanes and helicopters and dropping cigarettes like bombs into prison yards. One warden took me into his office and showed a number of cards and letters received that very day that had attempted to bring into the prison loose tobacco that appeared to have been dumped into each. Out of 28 prisons, while nearly all x-rayed my shoes only two had me turn all my pockets inside out.
Initially I was a bit concerned about the fact that most of the prisons were scheduling seminars AFTER the policy went into effect but Joel was correct (as always) in seeing this as a positive not a negative. He assured me that many would be living in perpetual relapse and would value what they'd hear.
But I promise you, never once did I feel superior to what I was hearing as I did some rather horrible things during my 30 years in order to produce that next fix. They are things I'd rather not remember like going underwater on an FBM patrol with no cigarettes or money in order to force myself to quit and then spending the entire patrol living out of ashtrays or begging. How much lower can a man get than that? Still just one rule ... no nicotine today!
John (Gold x8)
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01 Apr 2008, 00:20 #243

Oh Bob, this is a great one! As I am still fairly new here, I hope that this goes somewhere near the top of the list of threads.... I experience a wide range of feelings and emotions reading through these.... Laughter, sadness, fear, anger, disgust, embarrasmment, and the list goes on. Truly, this should be read by all. Because we have all done that....
Loved it and thanks for the reminder of how desperate we were as addicts. Just for thought, here is my: Have you ever....

Have you ever twisted and turned in your car (parked in a small space where you can't really get out to actually see), trying to reach under seats hoping that you will find that one cigarette that will give you your fix until you get to the store? I have. I strained a muscle in my neck by the way, reaching under there and the smoke was about 5 weeks old. It was partially broken. But I smoked it. I smoked it with my finger on the broken part, trying to mend it somehow, as I puffed away. And the feeling of touching it under the seat was like... AH! relief... I knew I would find one somewhere under there!

WOW... That was then... This is now. I am 29 days nicotine free and I feel amazing!

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17 Apr 2008, 06:47 #244

Have you ever had your child reach up to hold your hand and instead get burned by the cigarette you were holding?

She still remembers it...

Now I have a grandchild who will never have that happen when she reaches up to hold my hand.

Gold x 5 and savoring my freedom

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06 May 2008, 19:02 #245

Have you ever tried to time your nicotine fixes at 90 minutes before your infant would be wanting to breastfeed, telling yourself that that way, most of the nicotine would be gone from your body? Of course, you conveniently overlooked the fact that because your infant was also used to getting nicotine, she would start crying well ahead of her "scheduled" fix via mother's milk? Who were you fooling?

Did you ever look at a pregnant woman smoking and think "that's horrible, when I get pregnant, I'll quit". And then you did get pregnant, but didn't quit? Twice?

Did you ever convince yourself you no longer liked or loved someone because you could not smoke around that person without drowning in shame?

Did you ever prefer to be with people only because you could smoke - but you had to convince yourself you actually prefered their company to that of non-smokers - otherwise none of it made any sense? Mmmm, junkie thinking...

Did you ever just miss out on so many good times with people you love because you wanted to be able to smoke?

Did you ever notice there is no end to the "did you ever's"? I've done all that I've written, and probably 99% of what has been written by other posters here, because I've been addicted to nicotine for the past 20 years.


An excellent thread for driving home the point on what addiction will make you do. Recommended reading from start to finish.

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07 May 2008, 07:51 #246

I was struck by the statement that "addiction made me do it." Inevitably WE all make our OWN choices, good or bad. If addiction had the hold we think/thought it does, then nobody would have ever quit doing whatever it is they were dependent upon. Addiction didn't make me do anything. It may be that addicts act in stupid ways, do desperate things, etc., but I take full responsibility for my actions, for my own stupidity. "Did you ever say" my addiction MADE me do it, as if it was holding a gun your head. Blaming "addiction" for our problems doesn't help one bit, at least for me, except it rationalizes our behavior, explains it away, excuses it: when we say "addiction made me do it" we displace responsibility onto some anthropomorphized phenomonon. Addicts do the doing. I did it in part because I was addicted, but it doesn't explain it all--it doesn't explain how so many people are able to stop doing it. I can stop it. That's what I think about it. Maybe I'm wrong?


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19 Jul 2008, 01:36 #247

this is an amazing and powerful thread. I just read through it all from start to finish.

Here goes...

Have you ever been told by your doc that you HAVE to quit smoking to address your breathing problems, sheepishly agreed, got up and got into your car, and had one lit by the time you put it in drive?
I have, I'm an addict.

Have you ever, and in fact countless times, used your asthma inhaler so that you could breathe well enough to finish that cigarette and 'enjoy' it without choking too badly on your chronic and phlegmy cough?
I have, I'm an addict.

Have you ever visited your father, who is on oxygen and can barely walk from one room to another without gasping for air, so that it breaks your heart every time you see him, and excused yourself to go outside and sit on the back porch in the dark and the cold so you could **** down a couple of cigarettes? All the while knowing, somewhere deep inside you, that it hurt him so to have to witness that?
I have, I'm an addict.

Have you ever woken up in the middle of the night with your breathing problems, and felt like you were getting only about 10% of the air you should be able to get, and, after laying there in the dark for awhile, still breathing so shallowly, decided that you couldn't sleep afterall, so why not get up and go out to the front room and have a smoke?
I have, I'm an addict.

Have you ever, all you women out there, gone out so late at night and in such dicey neighborhoods, that your heart beat so loudly you could hear it in your ears, and your eyes scanned the surroundings continually, on hyper-HIGH alert for predators, with the adrenaline pumping through you so strongly you felt the pressure of it in your head, and placed yourself at very real risk for sexual assault, so that you could achieve that all- important end, that vital need, to buy a pack of smokes to see you through until the dawn?
I have, I'm an addict.

All this and more! Butts from the garbage!!! Cigarettes drying in the oven!!!! Nabbing a long butt from a public ashtray!!! (and that still makes me sick to my stomach) Bumming from anyone - offering them a dollar for one "because you see I'm trying to quit!"

Lying to myself. Lying to the ones who love me. Hurting my little kitties with the second hand smoke (so ashamed of that, so very ashamed...)

Ohhhh man.

And now, soooo thankful to have found this site and all of you, and this philosophy, and Joel's videos...soooo thankful to be here at day 22 and strong in my resolve, despite any discomfort or curveball, to stay true to my quit. No excuses now, no addictive thinking to worm its way in to rationalize putting myself at risk any further than I already have.

NTAP, my choice! My joyful, difficult, life-giving choice! And not alone in that but here, joined with all of you!
pat, swimming now, getting near to green, at day 22.

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19 Jul 2008, 02:46 #248

Have you ever.......................smoked 5 mins after your wife delivered..... I have.....I am an addict.

Free and Healing for 14 Days, 21 Hours and 50 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 1 Day, by avoiding the use of 298 nicotine delivery devices.

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06 Sep 2008, 03:46 #249

So many disgusting things people have done all in the name of a smoke! Here goes...

Have you ever felt horribly guilty because your parents moved from Los Angeles to Miami when you were 13 because you almost died from asthma complications...and then you decide to smoke 10 years later?
I have, I'm an addict, and it will never happen again!

Have you ever had to stand outside in the middle of the night (after going out) and wipe down the driver-side door & windows of your car to make sure no one sees all of the ashes on the side of your car?
I have, I'm an addict, and it will never happen again!

Have you ever made your dad cry because you didn't know your parents were at your front door and your boyfriend couldn't warn you before they saw you?
I have, I'm an addict, and it will never happen again!

Have you ever sat in your car and felt sick from all the Ozium you had to spray in your car (while you were still in it!) because someone was about to get in your car who you didn't want to know you smoked?
I have, I'm an addict, and it will never happen again!

Have you ever embarrassingly offered a stranger $1+ for a cigarette?
I have, I'm an addict, and it will never happen again!

Have you ever felt a weird pain on your back, become paranoid that its the start of lung cancer, looked up on the internet to see exactly where your lungs are, and then still had a cigarette when you discover that your lungs aren't in that one spot?
I have, I'm an addict, and it will never happen again!


Rochelle - Free from smoking for 5 Months, 26 Days, 18 Hours and 40 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 12 Days and 11 Hours, by avoiding the use of 3596 nicotine cancer sticks that would have cost me $724.45 and my life.

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06 Sep 2008, 22:26 #250

I do love this thread!!

Have you ever..Visited a non-smoking relative, went outside in the middle of the night to smoke and locked yourself out?
I have, I am an addict.

Have you ever..Held a cigarette behind your back for a picture?
I have, I am an addict.

Have you ever..Smoked in your house with your baby sleeping in the next room?
I have, I am an addict.

Have you ever..Picked an area in a grandstand by where the smokers were instead of where you could see the best?
I have, I am an addict.

Have you ever..Wrapped your head in a towel and changed your clothes on a lunch break just to smoke a cigarette?
I have, I am an addict.

Have you ever.. Accidently dropped your cigarette pack in water and lined them up to dry them out?
I have, I am an addict.

Have you ever.. Lit a cigarette off an electric stove?
I have, I am an addict.

Have you ever..Fired up the wrong end, cut it off and smoked the cigarette later?
I have, I am an addict.

And the number one stupid thing I did..
I stopped on the way to the hospital when I thought I was having a heart attack to buy nicotine gum because I knew I was going to be there a while.

Today is a nicotine free day for me. I have become alot smarter without that nicotine in my system!!!!

Ann - Free and Healing for One Month, Twenty One Days and 25 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 3 Days and 14 Hours, by avoiding the use of 1040 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $242.40.

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08 Sep 2008, 06:45 #251

Every time I read this post, I remember when:

I first started smoking at the age of 17. I hadn't yet bought my own pack or lighter (I didn't realize I was addicted) and used to dig around my mom's ashtray trying to find the longest smokable butts and then furtively light them on various kitchen appliances. I once burnt my chin lighting a very short butt on the stove. I think I lost a few nose-hairs and eyelashes as well. Another time, I tried lighting a butt with the toaster (don't try this at home). The butt slipped in and started to toast. I stuck my fingers in to try to recue it but then let it go when Mom suddenly entered the kitchen and asked what the smell was. I pretended it was toast. She left and I saw the butt had caught fire so I turned the toaster upside down and started shaking it furiously. Now all the crumbs caught fire. I nearly burnt down the kitchen...

I was mortified by these desperate acts but would have sooner suffered these humiliations than admit I was a desperate addict. What a strong grip nicotine has!!!!!!!


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17 Nov 2008, 22:37 #252

Ever tried to light a smoke from a hot lightbulb because you had no gas in your lighter?

That having failed, ever tried to light a smoke from just the spark from the lighter by continuously flipping the wheel?

Ever wondered what the funny burning smell in the car was, only to discover a hole in your clothes when you took them off?

Ever thought it was cool to be able to blow smoke rings?

Ever had the cig stick to your lips when taking it from your mouth, thus burning between your fingers. And then making your lip bleed pulling the cig off?

Ever looked at your cig and wondered exactly where the hot end had fallen off and whose coat it was stuck to the back of?
Or burnt your fingers trying to pick it up off a friend's carpet?

34 days

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18 Nov 2008, 05:26 #253

Have you ever been that sick that you could hardly breath but managed to draw back on a ciggie (but only just)
I have im a drug addict
Have you ever been out smoking when your 2 and 3 year old come over for a cuddle and you just push them away and tell them to come back later
I have im a drug addict
Have you ever been up and down the road looking for a strangers thrown out smokable Ciggie.
I have im a drug addict
Have you ever bought a pack after a relapse, had just two then thrown the packet out only to be in that same area one hour later looking all over the place to find them to have JUST one more
I have im a drug addict
Have you ever told your husband that you have quit and then spend the next month smoking behind his back, finding every excuse under the sun to go to the shops so you can have a smoke and then have to find a public toilet with a soap despenser so you can scrub your face and ever rinse your mouth with it.
I have im a drug addict
Have you ever been pregnant and tried to hide your stomach from people as to stood behind your car in a car park to get your fix. Couldn't smoke at home because no one else knows that you are smoking again
I have im a drug addict
Have you ever burnt nearly all the hair on you face trying to light a smoke off the stove
I have im a drug addict
Have you ever kept your distance from your own children spent most of the day on the outside looking in as they played and you stood outside smoking ciggies. Then to make it worse have the right to yell at them for making a mess of the house
I have Im a drug addict.

TO MY TWO BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN, Wren and Lior I promise to never abuse you like that again

Epigal 12 days

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18 Nov 2008, 22:16 #254

Wow, the memories!!! Great thread.

Ever set your (acrylic) finger nails on fire while trying to light a cigarette?

Ever sat at the Nurses station smoking while charting on your patient's?

23 days free........................

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13 Sep 2009, 22:56 #255

[img]file:///C:/Documents%20and%20Settings/Owner/My%20Documents/GIFS/bump.gif[/img]Almost a year since this thread has been circulated. Some powerful, pitiful and poignant portraits of addiction are penned. Sobering reading, for sure. Makes me so glad I have forgiven myself for my own pathetic actions I was guilty of when I was a smoker.

Have you ever spent more time outside smoking with the small number of smoking guests at your wedding reception, than inside enjoying the fellowship and fun? We did. We planned our honeymoon around places where we could still smoke. How limiting. How pathetic.

Only too well we remember the angst of being on the fence of indecision. Only too well we remember the relief at having finally quit. Now that our addiction desperation is in the past, "Let us all STAND TALL and be PROUD." as QS Melrose is known to say.

Wendy&RandyUsing our smarts!Healing our parts! for 3 yrs.2m & 2 yrs.9 m.[img]file:///C:/Documents%20and%20Settings/Owner/My%20Documents/GIFS/bump.gif[/img]

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26 Mar 2010, 15:52 #256

Have you ever dug in the nasty public ashtray at your apt complex and smoked people's butts to avoid going to the store and buying cigs so as not to be a smoker?  Have you ever bought a pack, smoked half and then torn up the rest, only to dig them out of the trash later to salvage a few puffs?  I have.  I'm an addict. 

But today, I'm free!! 

Krissy - Free and Healing for Twenty Five Days, 10 Hours and 56 Minutes by avoiding the use of 509 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $152.89.

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27 Apr 2010, 18:16 #257

~ Awesome Thread!!! ~

Have you ever given birth without 'drugs' cause you don't like 'drugs' and 'medicine'
then complained you couldn't smoke for three days while in the hospital?

Have you ever
given birth (3 kids and 9 yrs later) and told the nurse you were just too exhausted to get up and walk around right now,
then, when you found out they actually let you get dressed and go outside, THREE FLOORS DOWN and around the entire building to smoke
you were practically RUNNING to the elevator?

Have you ever sat outside the hospital (being the patient) and chain smoke cause you knew you were going to be getting your brand new baby for the entire night and you wouldn't be able to leave?

~and yes the hospital really did let us new mommys go outside TO SMOKE!!!~

*Funny thing* is I was just wondering why I even had my cigs with me ... then I realized it was so I could smoke as soon as I got outta there ...
while my husband put the baby in the car seat and fit the new car seat in the car and belted it in ... hey there was time to smoke TWO while he made sure the baby was safe!!!

Have you ever been in a wedding party and stuck a lighter and a cig in your bra and another cig in your bouquet, so you could smoke immediately after the ceremony ended? It's ONLY about an hour long ~ but I needed TWO!!!


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24 Oct 2010, 18:41 #258

Have you ever scraped up moldy rolling tobacco spilled behind a couch on someones front porch, cleaned out the rat droppings, crushed and worked a piece of brown paper bag until it was plyable and rolled your tobacco treasure up and smoked up while holding the brown paper together because it wouldn't stick?

Have you ever snuck a drag off of someones cigarette when they left the room and sucked spit bubbles, grossed out, then took another drag?

I did this and more as a teenager. I am a nicotine addict. But I vow to NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF.

I am John - Free and Healing for Eight Days, 11 Hours and 40 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 14 Hours.

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06 Dec 2010, 16:45 #259

Okay, the only way to maybe get this thread going again is to come 100% clean...

Have you ever made friends feel bad about their own quit just because you couldn't stand to smoke alone?
Hav you ever borrowed money from your family and friends and told them it was for food when you really were buying cigarettes and foregoing food for days on end?
Have you ever gone to clean your house and found, on your desk, a full ash tray that overflowed onto the desk, with about three soda cans also full of butts, with ashes all over the desk and computer keyboard, and one or two beer bottles completely FULL of butts, and about five or six buts that had fallen from the ashtray to to the table to the floor?
Have you ever stopped to think about your poor pet who was involuntarily present for all of those smokes?
Have you ever told someone you loved that "the world is full of non-smokers--if you feel so strongly about it why not break up with me and find one of them to date" and then had her actually do it the next day?
Have you ever destroyed what was once a pretty good singing voice by smoking non-stop for years?
Have you ever left a memorial service for a friend who had died of lung cancer just long enough to smoke two back-to-back, then returned and had to hug the decedent's two crying adult daughters while you reeked of smoke?

I have done all of these things. I am a nicotine addict. I promised myself 10 days and 8.5 hours ago that I would wake up every morning for the rest of my life and vow to not administer nicotine to myself that day, and go to bed each night that I was successful and smile, knowing that that gave me my best chance to NTAP. Thanks to everyone who posted to this thread over the past decade. It is the most powerful one I have seen and it helps to keep me on my guard when my quit starts to feel easy.


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07 Dec 2010, 06:20 #260

Thanks Ben for bring that up to the top of the pile again, there is so much great reading on this site - very edgy and intelligent. I guess we all confront our demons in one way or another when facing drug withdrawal, and it makes for some very insightful and poignant writing. In my weeks of reading here it hadn't occurred to me to reply to an old but interesting topic so that it would be on page one for us newbies - will do so now. What a great topic! Will add some of my own once I've read the whole thing. Tess 

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09 Dec 2010, 23:08 #261

Thanks Ben for bringing this up again - it's ages since I first found this, then lost its whereabouts.
I think it would do me good to wallow in some of the despicable things that my nicotine addiction made me do. So here goes:-

The first 2 quits ended when I had family members who smoked staying in my house. I thought I was secure enough at that time so I allowed smoking in the house but didn't realise that when they left packets of cigs around I would turn into a sneak thief! I started waiting until they had gone to bed and then helping myself. I would only take one cig. if there were plenty left in the packet so it wouldn't be missed. I would have a few crafty puffs during the day but save most of the cig for last thing when I would take my dogs for a walk in the woods. The first deep drag made me so giddy I actually fell down! did that stop me? **** no! I just couldn't wait until the next day to steal another.

My 3rd quit ended when I started stealing cigarette butts from the ashtrays I was cleaning up after my AA meeting! one wealthy lady would only take 2 puffs before stubbing her cigarette out - those butts were like gold! How low can a girl sink?

A lot of my clothes had small burns in them from when hot bits of ash dropped off the end of a cigarette. I remember covering up one such a hole in my favourite jacket with a pretty brooch.

My last canine family was a mother and her 2 pups; she died of old age, having seen both her sons die prematurely of cancer. I will always wonder how much my smoking contributed to that and feel dreadful guilt. My present 2 dogs have lived half their lives with a smoker but I hope their second half will remain un-polluted.

I first decided to quit when by daughter was around 14. I chose that time because that is the age when the youngsters here tend to start smoking and I wanted to set her a good example. I couldn't do what my Mum did and lecture me about not smoking while continuing the habit herself. I survived for nearly 3 years that time but then started again as mentioned above. For many weeks I got away with it but one day I was returning home from the shops in my car, smoking a sneaky cigarette, when I got caught in a traffic jam and saw my daughter, who should have been in school but was out on some errand with a bunch of her class-mates. To my acute embarrassment, she spotted me first and shouted out loudly "Mother - you're smoking again!". OMG should have been the other way round, not teenage daughter ticking off middle-aged mum.

I am not by nature dishonest, or a thief, but my nicotine addiction was stronger by far than my moral sense of right and wrong. Thank God it is all in the past and I can live clean and honest and with integity.

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10 Dec 2010, 17:30 #262

Have you ever watched your sister die of cancer from smoking for 4 months and still continue to smoke
Have you ever lied to your dying sister telling her you would quit and still continued to smoke - broken so many promises I can't count
Have you ever lied to your children, your husband, your friends and still continued to smoke
Have you ever made a deal with God - and didn't live up to your end of it
Have you ever been so jealous of someone smoking that you ran to the store, bought your pack and sat in a corner with you smokes getting even
I have - I'm an addict each and every day - NTAP -

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05 Jan 2011, 22:09 #263

I have bad teeth. I used to think it was genetics, but I'm pretty sure dousing my mouth with poisonous gas 20 or more time a day didn't help anything.
A few months back I had to have another tooth pulled. I have had many pulled and would get a "dry socket" every time. When I told the dental nurse this - She said, "...that's what you get if you want to smoke during the first three days." Dry sockets HURT, so this time I pinched one nostril shut and stuck the cigarette up the other nostril. Then I could inhale my fix through my nose without loosening the clot in my mouth. This is disgusting and felt disgusting and tasted disgusting.

I thought I was so smart because this was the first time in my life I didn't get a dry socket.

I AM AN ADDICT and I have been quit for 5 Days, 14 hours, 57 minutes and 11 seconds (5 days). I have saved $17.34 by not smoking 73 cigarettes. I have saved 6 hours and 5 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 12/30/2010 11:00 PM

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02 Feb 2011, 23:32 #264

Have you ever not had a lighter been running late for work so you lit your cigarette on the stove, then before disposing of your cigarette you grabbed a fresh cigarette and lit the new cigarette with the old one for fear that you wouldn't find a lighter in your car?  I have because I am an addict.

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07 Feb 2011, 16:36 #265

and grabbed some butts out of  public ashtray cause you had no money to pay for them at the time , and trying to do it as fast and inconspicuously as you could , so anybody near you wouldn't believe they saw you do  what you just did....

Well I did.