Desperate Addicts Parade: Have You Ever...

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September 23rd, 2002, 5:13 pm #21

Oh, these posts ring so many bells ..... OK, here are my two (euro)cents:
Have you ever made yourself literally sick in the morning because you chainsmoked 3 or 4 cigarettes right after you got out of bed? Well, I have, several times, because I am an addict.
As a student on a tight budget, did you spend more than a third of your income on cigarettes? Have you ever actually spend the last money in your pocket on cigarettes rather than on a sandwich? I have, because I am an addict.
Have you ever, during previous attempts to quit, picked up a fight with those closest to you so that you can have an excuse for relapsing within the first day? I definitely have.
And I also have, in true addict style, searched many times for smokable butts in ashtrays and in the garbage bin.
But I have not had to do any of this over the last month and a bit
Irina
4 weeks 6 days 6 hours +++
857 cigarettes not smoked
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September 23rd, 2002, 5:55 pm #22

Have you ever....?

Well, I've crushed and dumped my packet into the bin at the University that I've worked at, on the way to my office in the morning. Then scrambled my way through the associated rubbish on top of it (squeezing my hand through the slot on the side of the bin) on the way home to get that crushed pack, all the time being passed by students as they head to the nearby train station. That was a fairly shameful experience.

And...a common one for all of us, I've said 'Yes, yes, yes!' to a brand I would normally find totally disgusting to smoke (like Camels) when nothing else has been on offer. That shows the true lack of a discerning nature of any smoker.

Good parade!

El Bob
1 week, 6 days, 15 hours. 272 not smoked.
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September 24th, 2002, 2:50 am #23

I'm actually surpised at how many of these I'm answering yes to.
Have you ever had a really bad chest cold, gotten in the car to go somewhere, started to smoke, and made yourself cough so badly you puked on yourself and your good shirt, and waited to go back into the house long enough to finish the cigarette? I have. I'm an addict.
I think this is a good thread for a link to this one too: Cigarette Martyrs
Bob (8m2w4d)
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September 24th, 2002, 4:20 am #24

Oh my golly, what a humbling and brilliant thread. It sure makes me grateful to be free!

Have you ever had four wisdom teeth pulled, and as soon as you got out of the office, made your boyfriend hold your frozen bloody lips together while you took a drag of a cigarette, almost choking on the blood? I have and it's fresh in my mind, since I just got back from the dentist with a frozen mouth. I'm an addict.

Have you ever taken a flight and had to put on a nicotine patch just to make it through, even though they make you violently ill? I have, I am an addict.

Theresa, 4 weeks 2 days
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September 24th, 2002, 5:31 am #25

Have you ever resented your infant son because you only had $2 left in the world and knew you had to spend it on milk for his bottle rather than the cigarettes you were so desperate for? I have. I'm an addict.

(This is back when you could get a pack for $2! Or a gallon of milk, for that matter...)

Amy

Breaking the Chains for 2 Weeks and 2 Days...
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November 17th, 2002, 6:44 pm #26

Have you ever used tweesers to hold the 3/4 inch-long end of a cigarette that had been broken in half (no filter), and smoked it like a joint until it actually burned your lips, and then, had one last puff for good measure, even though it burnt, and made your eyes water?

I have. I am an addict.

Bob (45+ weeks)
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November 17th, 2002, 6:56 pm #27

Did you ever wake your sleeping child to strap them into the car seat so you could run into the convenience store to buy a pack? I have. I'm an addict.

Did you ever tackle your husband or wife when they walked in the door, not because you were happy to see them, but because they had said they'd pick up a pack for you? I have. I'm an addict.

Did you ever treasure your pack like it was made of gold? I have. I'm an addict.

But never ever again. :)
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November 18th, 2002, 1:34 am #28

Fantastic parade!!! Thanks OBob, for the parade and for sharing your experiences!

Have you ever quit smoking and broken your cigarettes in two so you wouldn't smoke them? The later, dug through the coffee grounds and other garbage on top to look for one you didn't break? And when you couldn't find an unbroken one, scotched-taped one of the broken ones together and smoked it -- adding all those yummy burning scotch tape chemicals to the ones you were already smoking? I have. I really am an addict.

But I haven't in quite some time now :)
AMD33 aka Jessica, celebrating freedom for eleven months, three weeks, five days, 20 hours, 2 minutes and 57 seconds. 3608 cigarettes not smoked, saving $947.08. Life saved: 1 week, 5 days, 12 hours, 40 minutes.
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November 18th, 2002, 8:01 pm #29

Have you ever had a smoking dream? One where you really believed that you were smoking? And you're only going to smoke just one? But you suddenly panic because you realize that you can't smoke just one! You tell yourself it will be okay but you immediately to start to feel the crave and you light up another. And inside you feel that horrible sinking feeling because you know you are no longer free? And you really believe you blew it until you opened your eyes and realized you were sound asleep?
I did...just last night...because I am a nicotine addict.
Big hugs, Joy
Two years, five months, two weeks, 10 hours, 0 minutes and 57 seconds. 17948 cigarettes not smoked, saving $2,871.87. Life saved: 8 weeks, 6 days, 7 hours, 40 minutes.
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November 18th, 2002, 10:58 pm #30

This makes me feel awful and maybe writing about it will help. Back in September I thought my son had the stomach flu and he was really sick for the whole day. That night I got worried about him and called his doctor who told me I should take him to the ER to get some fluids in him so he wouldn't dehydrate. Well instead of rushing him to the hospital I went out and smoked a cig (you know how long they make you wait in ER's). Anyway, it turned out to be a appendicitis. He is fine now but I can't believe I did that. What an addict.

I have others but believe this was the worst.

Suzi

Time passed 6 weeks, 1 day, 1 hour, 28 minutes, 11 seconds
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November 19th, 2002, 1:25 am #31

Very good topic for a parade OBob...
Have you ever searched parking lots and the street gutters for butts long enough to grab a couple of hits off of? Or the ashtrays outside of public buildings? Have you seen those butts as a potential fix rather than the nasty disgusting trash that they are?
I have, beause I'm an addict. (oh, and the shame when you realize that someone is watching pick a butt off of the ground, and you do it anyway...because you're an addict...
Marie
2 months 3 days
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December 20th, 2002, 3:59 am #32

The junky inside lives in that realm between waking and sleeping. Had a viscious smoking dream the other night, and, half-asleep, lay there in bed considering my fate, unclear if I'd relapsed or not, should I just get up and go to the store..... Eventually, I woke up completely, and realized it was a load of bunk, and I had no desire to even get near a cigarette, and that not smoking totally rules! .... still, it's scary when you realize how close the junky is and always will be....

one dream away from a whisper.... one puff away from resurrection.

... a liberated addict,

Bob (11 1/2 months free)
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December 20th, 2002, 4:53 am #33

Have you ever been suffering from pneumonia and hid around the side of the house taking little, tiny, short puffs to get the poison in without hacking your lungs out?
I have. I'm an addict.
Have you ever bought the cigarettes first, and used whatever was left over for gas money?
I have. I'm an addict.
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December 20th, 2002, 6:03 am #34

Ooooo....I just love this junkie ole thread...

Have you ever seen a pack of cigarettes that was wet with beer and left for ruined on a bar and then sheepishly waited for the bartender to turn around so that you could sneak a few out to smoke cause you were low on cash... I have, because I am an addict.

YQS-
Lotus
I have chosen not to smoke for 2 Months 3 Weeks 4 Days 15 Hours 1 Minute 49 Seconds. Cigarettes not smoked: 2598. Money saved: $649.70.

Pssttt.....looks like OBob is just a "whisper" away from gold
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December 20th, 2002, 6:08 am #35

Have you ever taken a one day journey to another country (Norway->Sweden) just to fill your car up with duty-free half priced cigarettes and smuggled them back across the border?
I have. Because I'm an addict. (In recovery :)

Sten
8 weeks +
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December 20th, 2002, 10:49 am #36

This is a great topic. Talk about honesty. Have you ever chained smoke while drinking TOO much and the next day felt like you were already half in the grave and barely able to breathe? and even amidst coughing so bad you decide that a cigarette will make you feel better!? So you smoke. I have because I'm an addict! Lena
2 weeks 23 hours 59 minutes without a single puff!!
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December 20th, 2002, 12:32 pm #37

Have you ever had a new car that you would not even allow your kids to eat in, barely breath in ..and then YOU throw a cigarette out and it blows back in the window and burns a hole in the seat? I have...because I am an addict!
Have you ever been driving in the bad weather with it freezing outside, roll down the window and freeze your children (who are BEGGING you to roll up the window) and you tell them to just wait, it wont take long to smoke (until the next one of course). And of course feel incredibly brilliant because you were one step up on them and threw a blanket in....so you could smoke longer!! I have....because I am an addict!

Patti
My kids have been warmer for two months, six days, 20 hours, 57 minutes and 52 seconds.
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January 12th, 2003, 10:44 pm #38

Have you ever had the excruciating pain of having a lung collaspe and on your drive to emergency you puff down as many cigarettes as you can before treatment.
I Have I'm An Addict.
on the Parade Bob

John 2 months
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January 12th, 2003, 11:26 pm #39

Have you ever walked to the curb in front of your house and found a decent size butt and smoked it? I have, because I'm an addict...

Did you ever find a butt in the house that was too small to smoke so you took the tobacco out and ate it? I have, because I am an addict!



Barb
11+ days
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January 13th, 2003, 2:01 am #40

Have you ever "snuck" cigarrettes while you were pregnant but thought yourself clever enough to make sure you left enough time gap between your cigarrette and your OBGYN visit so when your Dr checked your blood pressure your blood pressure had already dropped to normal and not "racing" from just having a cigarrette? I have because I'm an addict!
Valerie
1 week, 4 days, 9 hours of FREEDOM!
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January 13th, 2003, 5:13 am #41

Hmm, fun posting...

Have you ever taken all of your butts out of the ash tray, emptied the tobacco out of them and rolled them up into papers to smoke them unfiltered... I have because I'm an addict!
Your Quit Brother
Jerm
364 days of being free from nicotine.
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January 13th, 2003, 1:05 pm #42

I like this one, OBob -

Have you ever picked your old cigarette butts out of the dirt in the garden to salvage a puff? I have... because I'm an ADDICT.

Have you ever locked yourself in the bathroom and lit up, puffing the smoke out the window, and DENIED doing it to your husband when you got caught? I have... because I'm an ADDICT.

Lilycat
5 months
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January 13th, 2003, 2:35 pm #43

Have you ever torn your house up knowing you have a pack somewhere??? Have you ever run up on packs in strange places and realized that your kid hid them because she was scared that you were going to smoke yourself to death? *sigh*

Yes, I have done all of the above, because I am an addict.
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January 13th, 2003, 8:07 pm #44

Have you ever thrown a full pack(s) out the car window only to go back and get out of your car in the middle of a busy street to pick up the smashed pack and salvage as many as you could? I have because I'm an addict.

David
6 months +
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January 13th, 2003, 8:49 pm #45

Have you ever risked you career to have a forbidden cigarette? After you had been caught once and reprimanded?

Have you ever been late to work so you could have "just one more"?

Have you kept your quit a secret, because that whole thing about telling everyone you're quitting hasn't helped the last 5 or 6 tries and the very idea of you trying to quit is now a joke?


I have. Because I'm an addict.

Sherry
1 week 9 hours
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