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|From: Melissa777_-Gold (Original Message)||Sent: 8/30/2007 5:15 PM|
|Hey all, |
I just stopped by to take a look around and see how everyone is doing. I love coming here every now and then and seeing all the new names. While I know the journey can be a challenging one it also ends up being the best journey you could ever embark on.
It will be Five years for me this coming October. I have shared a million thoughts I have had here some so irrational I was ashamed to type them out. At the five year mark I am left with one thought. " I just wish I had quit much sooner than I did" I guess there are a few more too... Like I wish I had never started in the first place. I never needed it. Its only purpose was to make me sick and rob me of money and life.
Everything is so much better. I run and play with my kids. I exercise. I have energy to things I could never do when I was smoking. I am a different person now all together, I am not only healthier, but stronger both physically and mentally. No crutches.
The smell of cigarettes makes me really sick. I have absolutely no positive thoughts about them what so ever. I couldn't come up with one positive thing they ever did for my life if you paid me to. I say that just so that anybody sitting here reading this that may be thinking they will always miss it ..Knows "It really does get better and better" Until you just find yourself living and everyday normal life like anybody else and you are no longer plagued with illogical thoughts.
When it gets hard you have to hold on to that and know that it is said here a 1000 times over by many people because it is true
Never forget what brought you here in the first place. Always remember that no matter what you go through in life good or bad, smoking never has and never will make anything better. It doesn't fix problems. It creates more and exacerbates the ones you already have. We were meant to use our lungs for breathing in air not poisons.
I smoked for almost 16 years and at the time I quit I was up to two packs a day. I felt like I was killing myself and that I was powerless to stop it. I slept just to give my lungs a break, so that I could get up a repeat the same cycle all over again.
When my lungs felt like they were on fire and just hurt terribly,
I didn't just take pain killers to stop the pain, I took it so that I could smoke more that day and feel less pain doing it. I literally never felt good at all physically. I was always winded and coughing. I lacked energy to do just basic things like cleaning and cooking. I did it, but it was much more of a chore to me then. I would smoke until I couldn't breathe well at all and my head felt like it would explode. I did this everyday for years. It was a horrible vicious cycle that was killing me. I don't think I was any less or more addicted than anyone reading this. If I could do it... so can you! Just please believe in yourself and what you can do. There are so many wonderful testimonies here about how much better it gets and how much better life is the further along you get.
I wrote about the things I went through in "Days I just wanted to die" I still look back and as bad as it all was I say to you truthfully and emphatically It was worth it! I have my life back. I have set a good example for my kids. I am finally leading by example. It was so hypocritical to tell them that they can do anything in life they want to and really want them to believe that, and then turn around and tell them "I can't quit." I am healthy and happy and I mean truly happy. There is absolutely nothing to miss about smoking.
My grandma quit two years after me and she had smoked for 60 years. She is off her inhaler and off of her oxygen. She is taking trips with her boyfriend. They go camping, they play bingo, they even go and dance now and she is 83. It truly is never too late to quit.
My sister still smokes and is extremely unhealthy. She is on inhalers ( two) and they put her on steroids to deal with some of the inflammation in her chest. She sound like she is literally choking when she coughs. her voice is deeper and she rarely ever feels like doing anything, other than of coarse "smoking" I fear losing her to this insidious addiction. She is my best friend and I need her around. At first I was just happy to hear her talk about quiting. Now with her failing health, it isn't enough and I am praying she will stop talking about it and do it before it is too late. My grandmother has more quality of life then my sister does and my sister is only 41. Sad huh?
The truth is that is all smoking does for you. Robs you of health, the ability to really live a decent healthy active life and it will in some cases eventually rob you of life all together. At that point you cannot change anything and the results of smoking become permanent and very painful to those left behind.
So be glad you are here making changes that will better your life and probably prolong it. Stick to it so that you can give your testimony to someone just starting out. Soon you will be telling others how much better it gets and giving them words of encouragement to hold onto.
Thanks for taking the time to read this
Melissa: has had almost five years of freedom and she is loving it!