“Boy, do I miss smoking!”

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13 Jan 2006, 11:54 #26

Using Attitude to Reduce Anxiety
Have you previously tried to break nicotine's grip? Have you ever stopped to consider that each of your recovery attempts have been different? It might surprise you to learn that those investing the time to eduacate themselves often experience far less challenging recoveries than ever before. Those who learn to handle the possible wild blood sugar swings that often accompany nicotine cessation, who learn why it may take only half as much caffeine in order for their blood serum caffeine level to be identical to what it was while still actively smoking nicotine, and who take the time to understand and appreciate the different phases associated with the sense of emotional loss are using their intellect to help avoid many of the symptoms they might otherwise have experienced. This article focuses on yet another important area, diminishing anxiety by embracing recovery.

Can we make ourselves miserable on purpose? No doubt about it. Throughout our lives we've experienced worry, fear, anger and irritability, only to find out later that our worries, fears and anxieties were either totally unnecessary or were over little or nothing at all. Most often they resulted from procrastination as we failed to take those first baby steps and instead fled into the dependability of our addiction or addictions.

Addiction isn't about intoxication but about feeling normal, safe and temporarily free of stress. For the nicotine addict it's about returning to that artificial chemical world of "nicotine normal," a strange mix where elevated dopamine output briefly restores that missing "aaahhh" sensation, while elevated levels of adrenaline yet again prepare the body's defenses for fight or flight. But when it comes to recovery, what was once the mind's conditioned subconscious defense to real or imagined harm, now becomes the greatest obstacle to recovery.

Nicotine's two hour chemical half-life inside the human body creates a constant struggle to remain in that energized zone of comfort. It's a lifetime battle to avoid the inevitable letdown associated with constantly declining nicotine reserves and the corresponding decline of dopamine output, as the lingering aftermath of the addict's early aaahhh sensation - sensed in the brain's reward pathways within 10 seconds of that first puff - begins to evaporate.

It's a never-ending cycle of nicotine induced adrenaline releases whipping every neuron in the body's central nervous system, with each cigarette, like some tired horse badly in need of a rest. It's an endless struggle to avoid feeling tired and drained as adrenaline output declines. It's the struggle to avoid losing the instant energy and alertness that arrived as stored fats were released into the blood while an accelerating heart-rate pumped carbon monoxide, nicotine, additional oxygen and the fats through rapidly constricting blood vessels engaged in preparing for the possibility of blood loss during fight or flight.

Welcome to the addict's world of "nicotine normal," no longer an adventure but a lifetime job. Although staying addicted is hard work, the inner mind has been conditioned to believe that chemical withdrawal and recovery -- that temporary period of adjustment needed to again become 100% comfortable engaging life as "you" -- is a threat to survival. Even though the logical, reasoning and dreaming conscious mind sees recovery as the only possible way of ever returning to a true sense of non-chemical normal, the subconscious "nicotine normal" mind has been heavily conditioned by years of feeling the immediate effects of elevated dopamine and adrenaline levels. It sees nicotine cessation as quitting you, not recovering you. Incapable of reason or logic, it sees recovery as a threat and will employ fear, anger, anxiety, depression, and pre-conditioned crave episodes in its struggle to get the conscious mind to comply, relapse, and bring new nicotine back into the body.

Instead of reassuring the subconscious mind not to fear returning to the "real" you, many add needless self-induced tensions and anxieties to the recovery experience that at times can make recovery seem overwhelming. We can make them escalate to the point where we lash out against loved ones and friends, where we want to hit a tree with our bare hand or where we put our head under a pillow and scream at the top of our lungs. Our crave episodes and thoughts don't cause us to relapse. If they did then few of earth's more than one billion comfortable ex-smokers would ever have become ex-smokers. What causes relapse is the layers and layers of anxiety icing that the conscious mind intentionally cakes upon recovery.

Remember when we were first learning to swim and found ourselves in water over our head. Did you panic? I did. If I had been a skilled swimmer would I have panicked? Of course not. Here at WhyQuit and Freedom we teach smokers to swim and then lead them into deep water. Once there, the smoker can panic and risk relapse or remain calm, enjoy the swim, and fully embrace this most amazing experience. Recovery doesn't need to be nearly as difficult as our instincts are inclined to make it. In fact, it can be a proud, reassuring and glorious adventure in physical and psychological healing.

Sadly, almost half of all current smokers will never learn how to swim and the toxic feedings associated with their chemical world of "nicotine normal" will end up costing them their lives. Many genuinely believe that time is running out and disaster is about strike. For far too many this gut instinct is correct and bad news is just around the corner. Others think that plenty of time remains but after repeated failed attempts they still remain a slave to nicotine's subconscious chemical conditioning. Don't panic. Instead, invest the time needed to become an excellent swimmer. The more knowledgeable and skilled we become the greater our chances of breaking free and remaining afloat. Yes, there may be a few big waves along the way but that doesn't mean we should fear their arrival or that we can't relax and do the backstroke until encountered.

As part of our recovery, why not work on reducing self-inflicted stress, worry, anxiety and panic. In evaluating your thoughts try to be as objective and honest as possible with yourself.. If we repeatedly tell ourselves that this temporary period of adjustment called "recovery" is hard, frightening and painful, won't our anxieties only escalate further as we fuel our subconscious mind's survival instinct to see "nicotine normal" again prevail? Seeing truth after living a lifetime of denial isn't easy. Let's look at one quick example shared with me by Professor Phil Michaels at U.S.C. School of Medicine.

"Did you "like" destroying your body, "like" the taste of 4,000 burning chemicals stinging your tissues, "like" being a chemical slave, or "like" interrupting life's special moments in order to go feed your addiction? The "like" example of addiction denial is grounded in each of us using honest reason to reach a faulty conclusion that often flows like this: "I do not do things I do not like to do," "I smoke lots and lots of cigarettes, " "therefore I must really like smoking." An honest alternative would be "therefore I must really be addicted to smoking." Denial comes in many forms including recovery denial.

We can deny that the law of addiction applies to us and make believe we somehow have the ability handle one powerful puff of nicotine and not experience full blown relapse. We can also feed ourselves the big big bite theory that says that the only way to measure success is in terms of staying nicotine-free "forever," instead of focusing on the only time frame that really matters -- complete victory over the next few minutes. If we keep feeding ourselves massive doses of dishonest or destructive thinking, how long will our conscious rational mind last before abandoning its quest for freedom and joining our emotional subconscious in demanding relapse? But let's turn back to subject of self-inflicted anxiety that can grow so intense we begin to fixate and dwell denial lies while seriously pondering relapse.

Picture a plugged-in lamp but without a bulb and the switch turned off. Picture yourself intentionally sticking your finger into the bulb socket and leaving it there. Now picture all of your nicotine feeding cues (triggers) -- the times, places, emotions and events during which you customarily smoked nicotine and thereby conditioned your subconscious to expect the arrival of new nicotine -- being wired directly into the lamp's switch.

We know from detailed studies the "average" number of crave episodes experienced during recovery. Power to the crave lamp will be briefly turned-on a specific number of times each day, with the average being less than 18 minutes on their most challenging day -- recovery day three with 6 craves, each less than three minutes in duration. Be sure and look at a clock as a recent study found that time distortion is a very real recovery symptom that can make a 2 to 3 minute crave episode feel much longer. I've prepared the below crave chart from crave coping data presented in a 1998 study published in Research in Nursing and Health.
With the above chart, please keep in mind that these are just averages and every recovery is different. Some experience no craves at all while others can have twice as many as show above. Even so, if you were in the extreme with double the average, that's still only 36 minutes of crave episode anxiety on your most challenging day - 36 minutes to freedom, each minute entirely doable!

If you know that you are going to be encountering your crave triggers and cues but you don't know when, what will having your finger in an electrical lamp socket all day do to your nerves? Will it keep you on edge? Will the constant sense of anticipation breed anxiety that has you lashing-out against anyone walking into the room? Will you feel like crying? Will worry and concern deprive you of concentrating on other things? Will it wear you down and drain your spirit?

But what if you knew for certain that the shock itself would always be tolerable, that no crave episode would ever harm you, cut you, make you bleed, break bones, make you ill, or kill you, and that the episode itself would not last longer than three minutes? What if you actually began to believe that meeting, greeting and moving beyond each crave episode was a critical and welcome step toward full, complete and permanent recovery? Can honesty, certainty, confidence, understanding, planning and attitude make the time and distance between crave episodes more relaxed and their eventual arrival a welcomed event?

Instead of focusing on any minor anxiety discomfort you may experience during the short period of time a crave episode is actually occurring and the recovery light switch is on, why not work on learning to relax more during the massive amount of time that the switch is actually off? If we keep feeding ourselves the thought that recovery is hard then we should fully expect our subconscious mind to issue forth the emotions needed to cause the rational you to abandon your quest for freedom. If we keep telling ourselves this is hard, we should expect it to be hard.

Why feed ourselves failure? Why fear the swim and worry needlessly when some of us are not even in the water yet? Why assist our inner conditioned mind in breeding negative and powerful anxieties? Why allow such thoughts to fester until they begin oozing anxiety's destructive relapse puss? Instead, chase all negativism from your mind. Replace it with calmness, safety, joy and the knowledge that no three minute crave episode can force you to ever again **** nicotine into your body. Replace it with the reassurance that most subconscious crave triggers are re-conditioned or broken after a single encounter. Fight back with your reason, logic, and dreams that look forward with confidence while knowing that nothing is being left behind, and that nicotine addiction does not define who you are, your life or command your remaining time on earth.

Embrace recovery as your wonderful journey home to experience the rich, deep, and tranquil inner calmness that resided inside your mind before climbing aboard the endless nicotine/dopamine/adrenaline lifetime roller-coaster ride of cycling highs and lows. See encountering and reconditioning each crave trigger cue for what it truly is - a highly visible sign of true healing and recovery. Sense the emerging glory that is you and the abundance of oxygen arriving at every living cell in your body. In times of challenge fill your cup with truth, desire and the reasons that caused you to embark upon this quest for freedom . See all thoughts of smoking nicotine, that at times may seem to flood the mind, as golden opportunities to shed honest light on each, while sorting through years of conscious denial in which you made excuses for your chemical addiction that built a safe-house based on lies.

How full is your cup? Do you feel like you've lost a close friend (half empty) or do realize that friends don't slowly kill friends (half full)? Did you QUIT smoking (half empty) or is this where you really START living (half full)? Do you fear the arrival of your next crave (half empty) or are you excited by knowing that its arrival brings you one step closer to once again comfortably engaging every aspect of life as "you?" Will your next crave last forever (falsehood) or three minutes at most (the truth)? Will chemical withdrawal never end (falsehood) or will its intensity peak within 72 hours and then begin to gradually subside (the truth)? Do you expect to continue to experience daily "thoughts" of "wanting" to smoke nicotine forever (falsehood) or will your recovery amazingly evolve to a point where you awake each day "expecting" to go your entire day without ever once "wanting" to smoke nicotine? (the truth)?

Do you truly find joy in being addicted to one of the most powerful substances on planet earth or is that just something you convinced yourself of in order to justify your addiction, your next fix, and to avoid the challenge of withdrawal? Will 5, 10 or even 20 temporary extra pounds actually kill you (if they even happen at all) or have you already read that it takes 100 extra pounds to equal the health risk associated with just one pack a cigarettes a day?

Did you sell yourself on believing that smoking nicotine calmed or relieved stress when in fact it never once solved a single stressful event in your entire addicted life, other than relieving its own absence? Instead, you simply took flight or escape into your addiction in order to replenish rapidly falling blood-serum levels of the alkaloid nicotine that were being neutralized by stress generated body acids. How much of life went unaddressed by healthy reactions because of endlessly fleeing into our chemical world of nicotine normal? Name one stressful event that nicotine solved? Life as an addict is far more difficult than being "you" as the acid-alkaloid interaction adds the anxieties of early chemical withdrawal to every stressful challenge life throws your way.

Are you selling yourself relapse by telling yourself that you're growing weaker by the hour and won't be able to handle the next crave episode (if any), or do you know for certain that the next brief encounter will be less than three minutes, that you can handle each minute, that a crave cannot harm you, and that they are growing fewer and further apart with each passing day? Are you fueling the subconscious mind's belief that returning to the "real" you is a frightening and fearful thing to do? Are you breeding and fueling needless anxiety while having little or no memory or recall of the wonderful sense of calmness and lack of addiction chatter that occupied your mind prior to becoming nicotine's slave?

Do you miss destroying more air sacs with each and every puff or are you celebrating the freshness that now kisses healing lungs? Do you feed your mind romantic visions of purchasing or bumming the nicotine needed for relapse, or the truthful message of just one puff producing defeat, decay, destruction, disease and 50/50 chance of losing roughly 5,000 sunrises? Do you miss handing-over your hard earned money in order to remain chemically captive, or smile upon discovering the extra funds that your pockets somehow seem to produce?

Do you miss the lingering cloud of toxic smoke containing 44 known carcinogens, more than 500 gases, and 3,500 + chemical particles, or do you delight in the fact that oils upon your face again belong to you? Is your world saddened by not being able to crush an endless chain of hot chemically laden cigarette butts and pour mountains of butts from carcinogen rich ashtrays, or are you marveling in your new ash-free world that's clean, bright and refreshing? Is your cup half empty or is it half full? Our subconscious is listening and we are what we think - attitude is everything.

None of us are stronger than nicotine but then we don't have to be as nicotine is just a chemical and has an intelligence quotient (IQ) of zero. Knowledge is power! Don't be afraid of turning on the light. Embracing recovery is embracing "you!" Baby steps. The next few minutes are all that matter and each is entirely doable! There are lots of lessons to learn here at WhyQuit and Freedom but only one passing grade - no nicotine today - Never Take Another Puff!

"TRYING to quit" is an uncommitted declaration of leaving something behind.
Tell yourself recovery is HARD and unless you're lying it will be.
Believe your craves to be INTENSE and intense will be the ride.
Ponder excuses for a FIX and you'll eventually get to use them.
If you think you might RELAPSE, then relapse you just might.
If you keep telling yourself you will FAIL, then chances are you will.
If you WANT to be a ex-smoker, your mind has yet to heal.
Allow honest DREAMS to fuel recovery and freedom you shall find.
View this challenge as WONDERFUL and fulfillment will arrive.
See the GLORY of today, then glory it will be!
Praise the HEALING of your body and set your spirit free.
Inhale the JOYS of today, feel the spender of the journey.
Yet be TRUTHFUL of the past, to protect the here and now.
BELIEVE yourself a ex-smoker, an ex-smoker you shall see.
NEVER take another puff and freedom it will be!

Breathe deep, hug hard, live long
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14 May 2006, 08:46 #28

Do not allow yourself to romanticize smoking.
Replace those kinds of thoughts with the truth: smoking nicotine maims, tortures and kills both the smokers and their families.
Why did you quit? Have those reasons changed?
Celebrate your freedom, you are healing.

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30 Aug 2006, 19:32 #29

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05 Nov 2006, 22:21 #30

So this is non-smoking life? WOW
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18 Nov 2006, 02:35 #31

Thanx joel. After reading Boy do I miss smoking I wanted to read Marty's story but couldn't. Both were fantastic. Made me think.

Right now, I am eating lunch at my desk, continuing to work so I can leave early today. There is absolutely NO WAY I could have done this 8 months ago. The second the clock struck 12 noon I was bombing down the stairs for a smoke. Then I would repeat after lunch. I could have never got enough work done to leave early.

Little things that add up.

Seven months, two weeks, six days, 4 hours, 36 minutes and 26 seconds. 9367 cigarettes not smoked, saving $2,575.65. Life saved: 4 weeks, 4 days, 12 hours, 35 minutes.

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01 Dec 2006, 04:13 #32

Thanks for bringing this to the top today! I was having a little weather related "thought" earlier. It's sleeting and snowing where I live and I was driving to pick up the kids early from school. I saw a man standing out in the sleet with a cutout trashbag over his head puffing away. I thought--now there's a good time...NOT. Now my weather related "thought" (couldn't even describe it as a trigger) was a prayer of thankfulness that I don't live like that any more. Sadly there was a time I would have been out in that sleet standing on my head juggling monkeys to get that fix. Not today and not for the last 98 days. Free. Whew...what a relief...

99 days

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07 Dec 2006, 23:12 #33

From above:

Make sure to read all the posts in this string. You have to stop fantasizing about how nice it would be to have a cigarette and really focus on what it was truly like to be a smoker. Not smoking will never be as good as the fantasy of smoking, but smoking will be a real nightmare compared to the fantasy life you are likely making up around smoking. See cigarettes for what they were and what they were doing and you will never question your initial decision to never take another puff!


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14 Mar 2007, 22:54 #34

Boy do I miss the heavily breathing after a short walk
Boy do I miss being unable to exercise 100%
Boy do I miss my yellow fingers
Boy do I miss my stinking breath
Boy do I miss my yellow eyes
Boy do I miss the hangover from nicotine in the morning
Boy do I miss my stinking home
Boy do I miss the stinking ashtrays
Boy do I miss the smell around me
Boy do I miss the walk 2 floors down and then outside to go and smoke 10 times per day while working
Boy do I miss the rain upon me smoking outside
Boy do I miss being the last person every afternoon on the buffet at work because I needed my fix first
Boy do I miss the humiliating looks of people while I was using
Boy do I miss my cold hands and feet
Boy do I miss my gray skin of my face
Boy do I miss my dirty notebook because of the tar
Boy do I miss my yellow walls and ceiling
Boy do I miss the withdrawal during flights
Boy do I miss the ahhhh after a long intercontinental flight which was no ahhh at all.
Boy do I miss my wrong decisions during meetings because I needed my fix
Boy do I miss the panic at night when I had only 5 left
Boy do I miss the long drive at night to a gas station which is open to buy nicotine
Boy do I miss the panic at night when my last lighter dies
Boy do I miss the long drive at night to a gas station which is open to buy a lighter
Boy do I miss that I've never seen a by bus or train from the inside
Boy do I miss that I've never seen a shopping center from the inside
Boy do I miss that I've never seen a by bus or train from the inside
Boy do I miss that I've never seen a smoke free restaurant from the inside
Boy do I miss the bad taste of food
Boy do I miss the bad taste of drinks
Boy do I miss the coughing in the morning
Boy do I miss throwing up sometimes during this coughing
Boy do I miss saying this coughing is because of a cold
Boy do I miss coughing during every physical activity
Boy do I miss my voice like I was 40 years older
Boy do I miss the little holes in my couch and clothes
Boy do I miss the little holes in the couches of friends
Boy do I miss the ash everywhere
Boy do I miss waking up in the middle of the night to get a fix
Boy do I miss the voice of my children begging me to quit
Boy do I miss the little burning wounds all over my body
Boy do I miss ash falling in my food while preparing it
Boy do I miss trying to convince quitters it's impossible.
Boy do I miss offering quitters cigarettes trying to keep them on my side
Boy do I miss the withdrawal state while trying to quit for the one hundred thousand million time.
Boy do I miss the garage during parties
Boy do I miss not being able to do nothing.
Boy do I miss not being able to lie in bed awake for more then 15 minutes
Boy do I miss not being able to relax
Boy do I miss the time spent on getting my fix.
Boy do I miss my money
Boy do I miss being impotent
Boy do I miss the hospital bed
Boy do I miss my family while staying in the hospital
Boy do I miss my father
Boy does my wife miss her father
Boy will my kids miss me
ehhhhh no I don't think I miss smoking
Frits (Bronze+)

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14 Jul 2007, 16:31 #35

This is so perfect! Who in their right mind would want to go back to a smokers life?
A few days ago, I had a 4 yr. ex smoker friend undermine my quit . She called me on the phone to see how my "battle" was going. I told her I didn't think of it as a "battle" but as a challenge to be embraced. She told me if quitting is stressful, I may as well smoke because stress is as harmful as smoking so why not go back to what I like & smoke? at least when I smoke I'm not stressed .
I said, "excuse me? am I hearing you right?"
She said all she was saying was that she wouldn't blame me if I decided to smoke again. She told me she liked smoking & the only reason she doesn't pick up a cigarette is the "time" she has acquired.
The good thing from this situation is that it made me take a stand for my quit! The more I thought about her advice the more I saw the "junkie" way of thinking & how my dear ex smoker friend was on a "dry drunk" so to speak.
I saw I differ from my ex smoker friend in that I do not look at my quit as a " battle" that has no hope, nothing gets better etc, I see my quit as fulfilling a dream I've wanted but thought I could never have. I view her "battle" as embracing challenges, gaining empowerment & self respect, enjoying freedom from a 30 year bondage, feel good about my accomplishment and seeing that I can do this and I am doing this!! My dreams of being an ex-smoker has come true., How exciting!!! Everyday there is something better or new that I never new existed while in my nicotine fog. Yes, I still have a few cravings or triggers to embrace but they are soooo worth embracing!

3 weeks, 3 days nicotine free
Declined 1,043 nicotine feedings
invested $182.44 rather than lost by the flick of a bic!
Never take another puff!

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06 Sep 2007, 06:21 #36

Stress - I have to smoke because of it !

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30 Sep 2007, 00:45 #37

Wow, this was just what I needed to read today. I need to remember what the real cost of smoking would be not the fantasy of the ONE. I sure dont want to go back to my enslavement to nicotine. I whine to much about the temporay discomfort I feel as my body returns to normal and heals. Sometime I forget why I quit, I need to be reminded daily why. Thanks for a great post!!!!!!!!!!
Today is day 27, I will be Green on 10/02/07. Wow. I cant wait to tell my dad. My father smoked for 40 something years and quit when his father was dying of emphesimia. My father has been quit for 5 years. He has been on me and my sisster to quit. I cant wait to tell him. He will be so glad. My father is what kept me trying to quit, I kept thinking if this man who smoked for 40 years quit cold turkey and never went back YOU CAN TOO!!!. I have told my little sister and she is wanting to quit, I hope that we all become a family of non smokers rather than smokers.

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04 Mar 2008, 06:22 #38

"Boy, am I glad I'm free!"

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16 Aug 2009, 18:45 #40

Good to see that my post also moved to the new forum; allthough it's not as natural as it used to be (yes I'm getting old)

Here I bring up again my post from 2 years ago which kept me going on; reading it took away allways crunches; crutches; urges or whatever.
I hope it can help you like it helped me and it will not annoy.

It helped me to take a good look at nicotine and what is really is.


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07 Nov 2009, 10:58 #42

I made a comment to a thread on Carrying Cigarettes and which has direct bearing to this one of Missing smoking and feeling Deprived.
An excellent thread in the archives "No thank you, I can't have a cigarette also had full meaning for me : You don't give up cigarette smoking, you get rid of it.

Free & Healing,

Stopped Smoking for Twenty Eight Days, 19 Hours and 4 Minutes, by avoiding the use of 950 nicotine delivery devices. Quit Day : 09/10/2009.
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12 Jan 2010, 16:57 #43

Hi Joel!
Boy did I need to find this thread on this website today...right this very moment! I woke up full of anxiety today and couldn't seem to get it to pass...chewed gummed till my jaw hurt, talked on the phone, surfed the web and then started thinking...if only I could have one cig just to get me through this awful feeling that keeps overcoming me at moments throughout the day. I started reasoning that smoking would be better for me than if I had to start taking some anti-anxiety prescription the rest of my life and probably become addicted to that. Then, I thought after several hours of this torment...why don't I go on that website I haven't visited in a while and see if I can find something that will encourage me and help me through and I found this article. It didn't take the anxiety away completely, but it helped me remember what it would really be like after the initial "aaaahhh" moment. It reminded me of how far I had come after reading several posts and this article in particular. I was wondering....is there a time on this side of all of this that this anxious feeling completely goes away??? If so, how long usually? So thankful this sight is up and there for me at any time of day for me and the support I so desperately need at times! I have told so many of this site! Thanks for the site and the constant maintenance to it. I know it takes a lot of time and it is greatly appreciated!! NTAP! Nicotine free for 42 days!!

I have stopped nicotine for 1 month, 11 days, 21 hours, 58 minutes and 30 seconds (42 days).I've not smoked 858 death sticks, and saved $257.95. I've saved 2 days, 23 hours and 31 minutes of my life.

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17 Mar 2010, 16:46 #44

From above:

Make sure to read all the posts in this string. You have to stop fantasizing about how nice it would be to have a cigarette and really focus on what it was truly like to be a smoker. Not smoking will never be as good as the fantasy of smoking, but smoking will be a real nightmare compared to the fantasy life you are likely making up around smoking. See cigarettes for what they were and what they were doing and you will never question your initial decision to never take another puff!


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12 Jul 2010, 05:17 #45

I am so glad I found this thread this evening.  I have been longing for a cigarette for the last few days and after reading all the posts here I can now see what a irrational thought that really is.  To be in love with nicotine is insane.  To long for something that was killing me.  I could hardly breathe just walking down my hall in my house when I was smoking.  Thank you all for your posts and most of all  Thank you Joel for this program.  "I was blind and now I see" cigarettes for what they really are. "Killers".  I am resolved to   "Never take another puff."

I have been quit for 1M 1W 6D 15m (43 days). I have saved $451.60 by not smoking 1,505 cigarettes. I have saved 5D 5h 25m of my life. My Quit Date: 5/29/2010 10:01 PM

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13 Jul 2010, 21:06 #46

it has been 6 months today for me... and i have become a little too complacent with not smoking... 

I have been quit for 6 Months, 55 minutes and 48 seconds (181 days). I have saved $905.19 by not smoking 3,620 cigarettes. I have saved 1 Week, 5 Days, 13 hours and 40 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 1/13/2010 16:10
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14 Feb 2012, 19:50 #47

Glad I found this thread - helped a lot.  Not got over this feeling of needing a cigarette but going to keep reading.  I know my balance has been disturbed by outside factors but after 7 months of nicotine free my quit  is too valuable.  So thanks everyone and keeping on reading. 

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12 Jul 2012, 21:21 #48

Yes I realise why I do not miss smoking. NTAP
 Thanks Joel 

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23 Jul 2012, 16:53 #49

Thank You for this post, really needed it today!  This site is awesome, always helps me- Not take another puff.

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22 Jul 2013, 18:40 #50