This was written almost 10 years ago, but I could have written it this morning. It's truth resonates every fiber of my being. I have really been struggling lately and feeling exactly what this thread is talking about. Feeling like I should know better. I should be better than this by now.
I am 3 months into my quit. Sometimes it feels like forever and I get sooo tired of trying and trying and trying. Yet I struggle to ask for help for all the reasons listed in the previous post. Pride, embarrassment, fear of discouraging a newbie.
I will be very honest and say that every crave only lasts about 15-20 seconds, but lately they are coming every half an hour or so. That might not be true but it feels like it. I thought I should carry a pen and paper and write down every crave and see how often it really is and how strong the crave is and how long it lasts. I'm pretty sure it would be a lot less than my addiction is telling me right now.
I haven't been on why quit for several weeks. I stopped journaling over a month ago. Thought I had it made. It was going soo smooth. I thought I had accomplished the task and allowed myself to neglect my quit just like knowbutts talks about.
I am determined to step back and take better care of my quit. I won't let life and my mind get so busy that I get caught off guard and become weaker and weaker.
Quit 3 months, 4 days, 4 hours, 22 seconds.