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| Wow. OBob is three. Time really does fly when you're having fun, doesn't it? ... and although that may be difficult for our newest newbies to believe, this journey DOES get fun after a while. |
I loved your rope analogy too, Bob. And boy, do I remember dangling for a while there on that rope. Heck, I even made the leap back into the abyss after two whole weeks of FREEDOM cause my inner-junky somehow convinced me that I didn't deserve the FREEDOM you and the other "oldbies" told me felt became so comfortable. BUT, thanks to you and many others here, I quickly found the courage to jump back on that rope and start climbing again. That was the point when I finally was able to prove to myself that I can't have just one. Well, maybe I didn't convince myself ...this helped: The one puff files
And then when I came up on two weeks again, and I started doubting again whether or not I deserved this FREEDOM, I read this: The monster under the bed and your words of wisdom once again shed a bright light on this path:
Confront the fear, and confront the voice. Our junky side doesn't fight fair, and uses confusing logic. It plays upon the parts of us that feel most vulnerable. The parts of us that want to hide and wish things away. You can eliminate the fear, and silence the voice by always looking it in the eye, seeing it for what it is, and never letting it get away without shedding the light of truth upon it.
BINGO! I was back on track. And then again, at two months quit, I had some hard times. As Sue "Pryde" described so eloquently "the wind kick[ed] up, and I [found] myself swaying". I pulled out my Last line of defense ! and I DID make it through but I still had to share...you know, to gather some strength to keep on holding on. So I posted this: An Escape from Reality? and you told me:
"Mary Kate, You get it."
That was HUGE for me. The fact that you, oldbie O'Bob comfortable on the deck, would encourage little ole me dangling from the rope to keep on climbing, well, you (and many here actually) saved my life that day. Thank you.
That was also when I started to really believe THIS is it, this is my last quit. I started Turning the corner -towards acceptance, and you played a big part in that Bob. Thank you.
Congratulations on your three years of FREEDOM Bob. You are one of the people who make this place work. You are a man who has an amazing ability to describe this journey so it makes sense to us hazy addicts....and your words have helped save a lot of us from taking the plunge off that rope.
I'm looking forward to an awesome celebration on the deck tonight...I expect our very own resident rocket scientist will supply the fire works.
Oh, and as Homer would say: Woo Hoo!!!
Following in O'Bob's well lit footsteps for 2 Years, 3 Months, 1 Week, 6 Days, 8 hours, 17 minutes and 28 seconds (835 days).
I have saved $6,265.08 by not smoking 25,060 cigarettes. I have saved 2 Months, 3 Weeks, 5 Days and 20 minutes of my precious life!
Congratulations to you both !!! O'Bob, I just want to thank you for all that you have given of yourself to this site. Mary Kate did an awesome job expressing what so many of us feel. You have a gift O'Bob and you have so unselfishly shared it with us. Your posts are classics that are a part of what makes this site so awesome. Thank you , thank you , thank you......You can claim a part of my stats as your own also because you sure contributed to my success. Again thank you. Hug those quits tight and never take another puff.yqs, sue-GoldOne year, nine months, one week, one day, 19 hours, 5 minutes and 18 seconds. 25991 cigarettes not smoked, saving $3,755.82. Life saved: 12 weeks, 6 days, 5 hours, 55 minutes.