1-25-04 Kim: My Health

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February 10th, 2009, 6:18 pm #1

From: kito40 - Gold (Original Message) Sent: 1/25/2004 11:29 AM
John contacted me yesterday after receiving an e-mail from a member wondering how I was doing.
Well all, I was put back on chemo Dec. 2 as the tumor on my adreanal gland has grown. I go once a week for treatment and then 3 weeks off, for about 5 - 6 times. I went for a bone scan last Friday and an MRI of my head is scheduled for tomorrow morning. I also have an ultrasound on Feb 6 to see if this round of chemo is working. I will see the specialists in London the first part of Feb.
To top things off I have terrible sciatic pain running down the back of my right leg which makes it hard to bend over or sit down. The only relief is to stand. My family Dr. gave me heavy duty pain killers, but it only dulls the pain.
After I get the results from all the tests I will post the results.
Thanks for all your continued concern about me and I'm sorry for being so tardy in keeping you all informed.
Keep up the great work everyone, don't end up like me.

Quit for 1 Year 10 Months 2 Weeks 3 Days 22 Hours 39 Minutes 8 Seconds and way to educated about my addiction to ever take another puff.

For those who don't know me, visit my webpage at www.whyquit
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February 10th, 2009, 6:22 pm #2

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From: CandidCandiSilver Sent: 1/25/2004 12:05 PM


Dear Kit,
Thanks for giving everyone an update ~ you are such a brave lady! I guess you just do what you gotta do in order to save your life. I cannot imagine going into a battle like yours. When I had my brief skirmish with breast cancer last year I told I a friend that I just didn't know how people battle cancer for years . . . . you just DO IT, right?
You will be in my thoughts and prayers ~ I know what an inspiration you have been at this site. Hope to hear some good news from you soon . . .

Proud to be YQS,
Candi
I have been quit for 3 Months, 2 Days, 13 hours and 26 minutes (94 days).


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From: Shinelady_Gold3282003 Sent: 1/25/2004 12:13 PM


Hi Kim,
You have been in my thoughts so much lately. I was about to write to you myself and see how you are doing. Thank you for coming and sharing your ongoing story with us. Kim, there aren't words to express how I feel upon reading your news. My heart goes out to you and you are most definitely in my prayers. You are such a courageous lady and by sharing your story, you are giving such a wonderful gift of inspiration to the many people that read this board. I can relate to what you are going through right now. I posted my husband's story a couple days ago... Quit for Life!!! . We can only hope that people reading these stories can feel the pain that smoking has caused in our lives and it will only help to strengthen their resolves. For now Kim, I hope that you will be able to draw strength from the Freedom family as we send to your our prayers to carry with you through every hour of every day. God Bless you Kim... Know that we are there with you.

sue

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From: Joel Sent: 1/25/2004 12:27 PM

Thank you Kim for keeping us apprised of how things are going. Every time I see a member who has been off for weeks or months coming in and posting of how hard of a time they are having because they are still having thoughts for a cigarette or even when I hear people writing about withdrawal complaints during the first few days of a quit I think of you and what you wrote in post last January titled Scheduled surgery date for removal of Kim's tumor. Your signature in that post read: Kim...................10 months +..... and wishing I was going through withdrawal instead of this!

This comment spoke volumes then and still does today. I hope everyone who reads of your experiences over the past 22 months realizes just how important the effort they are putting into quitting is. As I have written to you numerous times, quitting when you did is giving you a much better fighting chance of beating this thing but as we all can see you are having to endure a terrible fight.

People who are getting the benefit of learning from your experiences are hopefully taking the lessons you are sharing to heart. Quitting smoking is giving them the best chance of avoiding having to face the kind of pain and disruption that smoking induced illnesses can cause. The discomfort a person may feel from quitting pales in comparison to the suffering that they will feel if they develop any condition that smoking can cause. Again, we thank you for your continuing efforts to help others in avoiding such pain and misery by saving their health and their lives by staying totally committed to never take another puff!

Joel



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From: janetd (GOLD) Sent: 1/25/2004 12:32 PM

Kim, I hope someone has some good news for you soon! You have been through enough, and to have the problem with your leg on top of everything else just isn't fair. Try not to get discouraged, dear friend! You will be in my thoughts.

yqs, Janet :)


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From: BillW-Gold Sent: 1/25/2004 12:59 PM


God bless and keep you, Kim. My prayers go with you.

Your Quit Brother, Bill
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From: Liuchka Sent: 1/25/2004 2:32 PM


You are in my prayers, Kim. God bless you.
Cuca
Free and Healing for Four Months, Six Days, 14 Hours and 30 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 13 Days and 9 Hours, by avoiding the use of 3858 nicotine delivery devices that would have cost me $727.24.
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From: jdinkcmoGOLD Sent: 1/25/2004 3:45 PM

First of all, Kim, here's a quit buddy hug from me to you. I am so sorry to hear you're experiencing renewal of your cancer. I hope you can draw strength from your Freedom family's love and prayers. Your grit and tenacious spirit has served as inspiration to SO many of us. Having had 2 back surgeries in 2003, I can sure empathize with the excruciating sciatic pain you describe. My arms are around you. your quit sis, JD
Judy is GOLD and has been nic free for: 1Y 1W 3D and has NOT smoked 16898 smelly cigs, for a grand $$$ savings of $2,830.51 plus life of Freedom extended by: 1M 3W 6D 16h 10m.

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From: FoolproofGreenElliemae Sent: 1/25/2004 4:08 PM


Dear Kim,

My heart goes out to you - truly it does. I cannot convey the depth of sorrow I feel for all you have been through and for all you continue to bear. I am such a fearful and easily panicked person that I just cannot imagine how you are facing what you are - you are an incredibly strong and inspirational person.

Thank you so very much for posting here to the boards and for allowing me to post back to you. Many blessings and love to you and may you feel surrounded by comfort and peace.

Linda

It has now been 3 Weeks 3 Days 16 Hours 48 Minutes 56 Seconds since I changed the course of my life by giving up tobacco. My decision has already given me another 6 Days 20 Hrs 40 Mins 15 Secs to live and left me $123.50 that I would have spent on 988 cigarettes. I left behind an addiction that was stealing my health and ruining the quality of my life. How did I get so smart???.



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From: John (Gold) Sent: 1/25/2004 4:33 PM

I don't know if you've seen this .gif before, Kim, but it's one of my favorites. It deals with what's important and ignores the things that aren't. Today was meant to be lived and I have no doubt you're making the most of it. Let your spirit soar and always know that we're up there soaring with you, or standing if necessary, as the case may be! (((Kim))) John


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From: smokefreeJD-Gold- Sent: 1/25/2004 5:49 PM


You will be in my thoughts dearest Kim!

Jill
15+ free
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From: Sal-GOLD Sent: 1/25/2004 5:53 PM


Hi Kim,
I hope that the sciatic pain can be dealt with SOON! If only I had a magic wand...
Thank you for keeping in touch and for sharing your life with us. You are a POSITIVE example, not a negative one.
Good luck tomorrow and always,
Sal
One year, one week, six days
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From: Joanne - Gold Sent: 1/25/2004 7:59 PM


Oh gosh Kim, I know you can feel all of the love here for you. In personal emails between us I've mentioned how your story has inspired not only myself, but others in my life here at home. I shared your latest news here with one of those people and thought you'd find some peace and even a smile from the following words:
Hey Jo, Thanks for the note from Kim. Reading her story and going to her web site on her journey the last yr. plus, has strengthened my belief that quitting was the right thing to do. It has been as of right now 1y 1h 25m 15s and counting!!! I love being able to track that, it gives me power knowing I am strong enough to keep it up and not take another puff. I love the statement "I won't take another puff" I tell people that all the time when I let them know I am still a quitter. It feels good to take pride in that. So I just wanted to thank you for encouraging me to quit and sending the e-mails, I believe it was a reminder similar to the one you just sent that put me on the right track and pushed that thought of "I should quit" to "I don't smoke anymore, I will never take another puff! " So thanks again, and Happy New Year to you. Love Ellen
As I've said before, never underestimate for a second the huge amount of inspiration in the message you are sending others. Thank you isn't enough for what you are doing here, Kim. You and your family remain in our hearts and prayers.

May the peace and love of God continue to shine through your warm and generous heart.

With love, admiration, and gratitude,
Your friend - Joanne


Message 14 of 32 in Discussion
From: OBob-Gold Sent: 1/25/2004 8:14 PM


Hi Kim,

Thanks for the update. Tess and I think of you often. We've got you in our prayers. Give our best to Kelly.

Bob (2 years free)
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From: Roger (Gold) Sent: 1/25/2004 11:34 PM


Kim,

As usual some special thoughts and prayers will be reserved for you. You are a shining example of a fighter Kim as well as being a very special lady. Thank You for sharing your personal life with us.


Roger
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From: Parker - GOLD! Sent: 1/26/2004 7:44 AM


Thank you for sharing the reality of your struggle. You are in my prayers, dear Kim. Kelly, too. Parker
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February 10th, 2009, 6:38 pm #3

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From: SweetLorraine (Gold) Sent: 1/26/2004 9:38 AM


My heart goes out to you and Kelly,if good wishes and prayers help you've got it made. No matter what tomorrow brings you've brought inspiration and hope to so many today.

Lorraine


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From: headbo (gold) Sent: 1/26/2004 9:46 AM


Kim--

Don't worry about your MRI today. I'm positive the scan will show that your head is "empty". Just keep on fighting and never give up.

Freedom Friends --

I know I don't post much, but I do lurk an awful lot. Welcome newcomers and congratulations to everyone celebrating their milestones.

It's hard to believe it has been almost 2 years that I've been smoke free. Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers.

Kelly
I have chosen not to smoke for 1 Year 10 Months 2 Weeks 4 Days 12 Hours 38 Minutes 3 Seconds. Cigarettes not smoked: 13790. Money saved: C$3,792.40.

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From: headbo (gold) Sent: 1/26/2004 9:58 AM





Message 20 of 32 in Discussion
From: Joel Sent: 1/26/2004 10:01 AM


Just so our newer members know, Kelly is Kim's sister. Siblings talk this way to each other. I didn't want Kelly getting angy email's here. By the way Kelly, I am glad to know that even though you are not posting a lot that you are here reading a lot. I have always made a big point of the importance of people spending as much time as they can working at reinforcing their own personal resolve to stay free and reading here at Freedom is a great device for accomplishing this goal. As always, we are all out here behind you and Kim


Joel



Message 21 of 32 in Discussion
From: Coolmare2green Sent: 1/26/2004 12:55 PM


My dear Kim--- seems like so often when i get into a deep blue funk, a post like yours will miraculously pop up to give me a good reality check. you are a beautiful, brave, loving being, and you inspire me to take a second look at what's on my plate. my heart goes out to you, my friend.
Love and life to you--

Mary

I have chosen not to smoke for 3 Months 3 Weeks 5 Days 13 Hours 35 Minutes 14 Seconds. Cigarettes not smoked: 1175. Money saved: $270.40.

Message 22 of 32 in Discussion
From: KlearEyes2 Sent: 1/26/2004 1:32 PM


Dear Kim-

Thank you for sharing with us. I will keep you in my prayers. I just want to let you know that you were my inspiration to quit and stay quit. Whenever I was having a bad day I would visualize your photo of your scar and know that you never anticipated that actually happening to you. You have touched so many of us here at Freedom. If good wishes alone could cure you, you would be dancing in the streets now. I wish you all the best- you are not alone in your fight.

- Free and Healing for Four Months, Nine Days and 17 Hours, while extending my life expectancy 11 Days and 10 Hours
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From: NoMoBacco Sent: 1/26/2004 1:49 PM

May God bless and comfort you for what you do for all of us newbies. You are in my prayers!
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From: kito40 - Gold Sent: 1/26/2004 3:21 PM

Oh, you guys have brought tears to my eyes again with all your kind words and prayers. I am so fortunate to have two great families, my own wonderful family as well as my Freedom family.
I never dreamed when John asked me to post my story, that I would touch so many people.
Joel is right when he quotes me as saying "I wish I was going through withdrawal instead of this", believe me, withdrawal is an easier fight. At least it comes to the point where you can forget about. Take care everyone, I will be back with all the results. NTAP!, it's not worth it!


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From: Ms_MonaGolden1 Sent: 1/26/2004 9:33 PM


Hi Kim,

I am so glad that you let us know what's going on with you. I have really missed you. I was very tempted to send you an email to check on you, but I didn't want to bother you. Anyway, I will continue to remember you in my prayers and keep positive thoughts about you receiving a "clean bill of health".

The Freedom Family has already voiced so many positive sentiments; so I'll just echo and ditto all that's been said. Thank you for being such a positive and strong woman, who has really touched my life and the lives of so many.

I look forward to hearing from you again real soon.

YQS (1Y,3W)


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From: GeorgieGirl_GOLD_ Sent: 1/26/2004 10:29 PM


Kim .... your courage amazes me daily. Thank you for keeping us up to date ... you really have touched so many ...... you really are the wind beneath Freedom's wings. All my love and hugs and special thoughts are with you always (hugs from my little cat "kito" too!).

Georgia



Message 27 of 32 in Discussion
From: screechwinter Sent: 4/25/2004 4:31 PM


thank you for sharing your story. when i was a lurker, your post inspired me to join freedom; for that i am grateful. i wish you well.
ahnaka
Two weeks, 17 hours, 1 minute and 52 seconds. 220 cigarettes not smoked, saving $57.92. Life saved: 18 hours, 20 minutes.



Message 28 of 32 in Discussion
From: Shinelady_Gold3282003 Sent: 4/25/2004 5:10 PM


Kim

Just a note to let you know that my hubby and I keep you in our prayers always... God Bless you!!!

sue


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From: John (Gold) Sent: 2/20/2005 10:17 PM
From: kito40 - Gold Sent: 1/26/2004 3:21 PM Oh, you guys have brought tears to my eyes again with all your kind words and prayers. I am so fortunate to have two great families, my own wonderful family as well as my Freedom family.
I never dreamed when John asked me to post my story, that I would touch so many people.
Joel is right when he quotes me as saying "I wish I was going through withdrawal instead of this", believe me, withdrawal is an easier fight. At least it comes to the point where you can forget about. Take care everyone, I will be back with all the results. NTAP!, it's not worth it!

http://whyquit.com/whyquit/A_Kim.html

In Memoriam to Kim

I once had something precious
That money could not buy
I had a special sister
And had to say goodbye
The memories and the photos
Are all I have to touch
Of that very special sister
Who I loved and miss so much
And when I'm feeling lonely
And tears fill in my eyes
I think of her at peace
And know I shouldn't cry
I try to hide my heartache Kim
As you would want me to
So when I cry my tears alone
No one hears but you.


Miss ya lots,
Kelly



Message 30 of 32 in Discussion
From: John (Gold) Sent: 3/25/2005 3:08 PM

"I wish I was going through withdrawal instead of this, believe me, withdrawal is an easier fight. At least it comes to the point where you can forget about." Kim


Message 31 of 32 in Discussion
From: JoeJFree-Gold- Sent: 3/7/2007 1:14 PM
On the 5th Golden Anniversary of Kim & Kelly's decision to NTAP maybe introducing their story again will help someone who has arrived here a little later realize that deciding to never take another puff is not about giving something up. Rather deciding to stop killing ourselves is all about decising to live the rest of our lives as the best of our lives, however long we may be given.
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February 10th, 2009, 6:39 pm #4

Message 32 of 32 in Discussion
From: megsfolly Sent: 3/7/2007 2:58 PM


Kim really has inspired me, when I'm sad I read her story and her bravery still touches me!! Her story was sent to me when I thought I was having a bad day!!

Message 27 of journal reads : I will never take another puff !! My life is worth so much more than throwing it away on some daft addiction - Kim's journals state clearly that the craves go, but sadly her illness did not and the agressive treatment she had to undergo must have been most painful.

Meg xx
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