Just had a flashback

Joined: November 17th, 2015, 11:32 am

September 7th, 2017, 7:09 pm #1

I was reading an article about Mike Connors, an American TV actor who just died this last winter. He was best known as the title character in the CBS series Mannix, which was about the adventures of a private detective. That series began in 1967 when I was 12, and ran to 1975. This period coincides perfectly with the onset of my puberty though very early adulthood. In other words, this period includes my most formative years regarding sexuality and identity. I don’t remember much about the show, but I remember very clearly a scene in the opening credits that lasts only a few seconds.  It was the reason I turned on the show each week throughout most of my adolescence.  In that scene the main character, Joe Mannix, spins a very pretty girl around and her fairly short and very loose skirt flies up completely showing her panties. Seeing that brought me chills. I wanted to be that girl, and to feel exactly what she was feeling in that moment. Later I recall the boys at school talking about the same scene, but from a much different perspective that was very cis male, and that left me feeling utterly confused and puzzled about why I didn’t feel the same way. But I also realized at that moment that girls had a power over boys which I also wanted to possess, and that realization added another layer to my crossdreaming.  


The scene occurs about 5 seconds into the video below