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How Gaming Changed My Life

Joined: September 3rd, 2017, 3:17 am

September 17th, 2017, 2:41 am #1

To paraphrase George R.R. Martin "I have lived a thousand lives and I’ve loved a thousand loves. I’ve walked on distant worlds and seen the end of time. Because I game". Gaming is my happy place, my safe space. my other life. In game I can do what I want, how I want, as who I want. The first time I got a game just to be play a girl was Final Fantasy 11, so yeah I dropped around $100 bucks (game plus internal hard drive) to be a cat girl online and I don't regret it. I think it was Oblivion I figured out that a major reason I was playing was to be female, I hear NPCs say she and her and to craft my perfect digital self with the character creator. My foray in to tabletop games gave me even more control over the fantasy, but it brought new problems. I got a rep at the table for being "that guy". The one who you should just assume is playing a women and when one of my best friends asked my why I did it I told him I didn't know. I couldn't say the real reason and so I've just stopped playing females and started DMing. As the dungeon master I can live vicariously through a succession of NPCs and jerk around the players to my little hearts content. I don't know if this is best way to deal with my inner wants and needs but it's the best way I have. I can't tell any one about how I feel face to face, I tried crossdressing but that only made me feel worse. Games and the net are kinda all I have. The only place I get to be my other self. 
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Joined: June 3rd, 2017, 7:28 am

September 17th, 2017, 5:41 am #2

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Joined: September 3rd, 2017, 3:17 am

September 18th, 2017, 12:51 am #3

lol there are a few items like that out there. Like the dark souls 2 sex change coffin and the pathfinder elixir of sex shifting. 
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Joined: November 26th, 2015, 4:58 pm

September 18th, 2017, 7:26 am #4

internet role playing seems like a good way of expressing inner female identity to me.

i just loved it when i was first referred to as 'she', but now i take it for granted!

as for telling people about it, you are with us here. do join us in chat. xx
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Joined: April 16th, 2017, 4:06 pm

September 20th, 2017, 12:56 pm #5

You can tell a lot from how people, both children and adults play games, even more so than clothing or their bookshelf. I've played online card games under the name Fabienne and got referred to as the French queen of strategy by some of the other players (I'm not French, though I'm good at strategy), or have played various RPGs using fantasy-inspired female names. Nobody cares or questions, which is really nice at times.
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Joined: September 3rd, 2017, 3:17 am

September 21st, 2017, 2:11 am #6

Fabienne wrote: You can tell a lot from how people, both children and adults play games, even more so than clothing or their bookshelf. I've played online card games under the name Fabienne and got referred to as the French queen of strategy by some of the other players (I'm not French, though I'm good at strategy), or have played various RPGs using fantasy-inspired female names. Nobody cares or questions, which is really nice at times.
That's a bitchen nick name ;-)
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