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Hello, SallyAnne!SallyAnne32 wrote: Sorry for posting this as a new topic. I suspect it's a subject that's been covered in some detail but I am new to this forum and can't find an appropriate subject/post.
My situation, in short is this: Long time crossdresser who up until 5 to 10 years ago considered himself completely heterosexual. Then, I began to develop strong feelings of either being or wanting to be a woman (some of time). I also began to look at gay and sissy porn and to fantasize about engaging in gay sex, either a presenting female or even as a male. It has increasingly become my sole sexual/masturbation fantasy.
My "boyfriends", while not entirely faceless, exist for me solely on the internet. I am not the least attracted to either my male friends, actors or any random men I see on the street. I am also quite happily married and would never consider an outside relationship regardless of gender.
I have had my wife peg me a couple of times and while the physical sensation is not so great, it is an incredible and emotional/erotic turn-on.
But, still I wonder, do these fantasies mean that I am bi-sexual? Bi-curious? 10 years ago, I was horrified by the idea that I might be. Now, I think I am vaguely disappointed with the thought that I might not be.
As I noted earlier in this thread, it is interesting that so many can not see beyond his or her own viewpoint. "My world view, my sexuality, my gender identity, etc. are all the norms and the rest of you are either perverts or in denial". While, I hope that I am personally open minded enough to accept the legitimacy of other's experiences and identities, I often wonder about my own evolution.April wrote: Monique, My point was that even gay people think this, with emphasis on the word "even" here. CIS/straight people think this as well. I tend to think it's all a spectrum, perhaps several spectrums that interplay with each other. But the idea of a binary in terms of sexual identity and orientation seems to be the default view in most of society. They tend to see any walk on the wild side to be a reflection of one's true nature with the CIS / straight side being a ruse or repression. For those who hold such views, this might actually say more about their own repressive nature.