Hello, SallyAnne!SallyAnne32 wrote: Sorry for posting this as a new topic. I suspect it's a subject that's been covered in some detail but I am new to this forum and can't find an appropriate subject/post.
My situation, in short is this: Long time crossdresser who up until 5 to 10 years ago considered himself completely heterosexual. Then, I began to develop strong feelings of either being or wanting to be a woman (some of time). I also began to look at gay and sissy porn and to fantasize about engaging in gay sex, either a presenting female or even as a male. It has increasingly become my sole sexual/masturbation fantasy.
My "boyfriends", while not entirely faceless, exist for me solely on the internet. I am not the least attracted to either my male friends, actors or any random men I see on the street. I am also quite happily married and would never consider an outside relationship regardless of gender.
I have had my wife peg me a couple of times and while the physical sensation is not so great, it is an incredible and emotional/erotic turn-on.
But, still I wonder, do these fantasies mean that I am bi-sexual? Bi-curious? 10 years ago, I was horrified by the idea that I might be. Now, I think I am vaguely disappointed with the thought that I might not be.
I made a similar post on the Intro Forum, and your story meshes a lot with mine. I've ceased to inquire as to whether I'm bi- or hetero—I am what I am. But what I'm exploring is the late-onset fluidity of my gender. Your post really affirms me because your courage in relating your situation helps me know that we're not alone. Thank you!