CHV Lives On

Hehehe...as a woman, I'll be one of the first to admit: we're fucking insane.

*huggles the cute widdle kittens and runs away*

No Drakk, you need to do what BuMz is doing. You need to "go gay" on a message board. Look at BuMz, all the girls on the board are throwing themselves at him. Soon he's gonna come trotting in going "Oh yeah, it was just a phase, BuMz-land is now ladies only!" ;o
And Angelique, physical attraction goes both ways. The idea that a woman is going to see me on a street and be attracted to my emotions is utter bullshit. The emotional/intellectual stuff works after you get to know the person, then you're attracted to their mind/emotions/etc. However, the first thing that's going to attract you to someone the first time you see them, by and large, is going to be physical.not allowed

Oh no. You got me!
I do think that gay guys care about appearances a lot.. I dunno about saying "more" than straight guys, coz I do know some bloody vain guys at uni who spend triple what I do on clothes and accessories. But it's as Angelique said, you gotta do what you gotta do. If you wanna make a few guys heads turn, the easiest way is to wear something tight fitting and revealing..
That works both ways, for straight chicks and gay boys. MRk MRK n FnK Mz

Spandex. Everything spandex. not allowed

ewwwwww
i actrually dun like to see guys in tight clothing...
just doesn't seem to look rite....- Instant Noodle is the way for a healthy balanced meal -

hahahha.. I don't like overly tight.. But I'm more opposed to overly baggy than overly tight!
Most of the gay guys I know are pretty trendy, but that doesn't mean outragously camp or trashy.. MRk MRK n FnK Mz

are they single? =D~- Instant Noodle is the way for a healthy balanced meal -

hahaha.. why would you care?! wanna try "converting" one of 'em? MRk MRK n FnK Mz

i would love to
the power of doraemi!! - Instant Noodle is the way for a healthy balanced meal -

Ok.
The 18th of September. That birthday's gonna go down in the books. It was about 10am, halfway through my first class of the day that I got an sms from Tim, my bf, saying he's on his way to the hospital. I was so shocked and all.. so the last few days I've been with him trying to help him remain sane in that awful place.. and my parents have been wondering where I keep going, they know I have heaps of work to do with the semester coming to an end.
It was sunday night at about 7pm when I told my mum that I'm gay. She was shocked and confused, as was to be expected, but took it rather well. I think the shock kinda surpressed any forms of violence. She has noticed that I had been really quiet and distant the last few weeks (more than usual anyways) and she wanted to know what was eating me up. I really couldn't back away from this chance, it was just too much. I broke down and told her just about everything (short of my relationship with Tim, I figured they could only handle so much in the one sitting).
Then my dad got home and all hell broke loose. I told him straight up (pardon the pun) what I had told my mum coz I figured once one of them knows you gotta quickly do the others. He was quick to reject it and continue to tell me that I was just confused and suffering spiritually. "God can heal you from this disease," he told me. I rolled my eyes. "It hasn't been classified a 'disease' since the 70's and, as a psychiatric nurse, you SHOULD know that already. As a nurse you should also know that it's not like I choose this, all I can do is accept it and deal with it."
Dad went through about 4 different phases in the space of an hour. Denial. Judgement. Blame. Anger. He first refused to believe me. Then he started the whole religious deal, which quickly led to him blaming himself for somehow raising his "only son" the wrong way; in a life of sin. Then he started getting angry at me, but even more with himself. At this point I was so filled with hurt I couldnt handle things anymore. I grabbed my keys and walked out.
I drove to Tim's house, which he shares with his sister, and crashed the night there.. she was really supportive, she knew this was gonna happen pretty soon.. we talked for a pretty long time, but I couldnt get a hold of Tim til the next morning when I went to visit him at 8am, dressed in his clothes.. he isn't really in peak condition right now, so I'm leaning heavily on friends and Tim's family to get me through this.
The next day I did go home in the evening. I had dinner with some friends first to boost my confidence before I faced my family. Mum had calmed down. My older sister had too. (I only told her after I left the house and was at Tim's house. I fucking had to tell her over the phone, I felt so horrible. I was like, she's gonna find out when she gets home anyway, so I'd rather she hear it from me.
"Hey, when you get home I'm not gonna be there. I just came out to mum and dad."
"What do you mean 'came out'?"
"..of the proverbial closet."
"oh...oooh... I love you." )
Mum and my sister were more willing to accept me. They wanted to learn about this, and see how they can accept it. They really wanted to. Dad on the other hand wants to cure me. Ugh..
I've really opened a new chapter of life. It's gonna be a tough bit, basically re-educating my entire family and trying to get them to attend PFLAG (Parents and Friends of Lesbians and Gays) meetings.. but I guess it's gotta start somewhere, and in a way I'm so relieved that it can start now.
I was told that no one's dealt a hand which is more than they can handle. I always questioned that, because people commit suicide and such. But I do believe that I've been dealt this hand because I can handle this shit.. anyways, I don't wanna start stringing too many cliches together or anything.. Just thought I'd share.MRk MRK n FnK Mz